Okay, so I'm currently working on a little project that I have had in mind since...I'm not really sure how long I kept the idea in my head and I'm doing fine so far except when I realize I'm having trouble with my characters' POV

A short explanation on how the story goes; two guys talking about the past in front of an audience. Originally I've decided to write in third person but was having trouble as I find my sentences to be bland and boring with a lot of 'he does this, he said that and so on...' (you get the idea) . So, I've rewritten the whole thing in first person view and to be honest, I was happier with the results because I was able to include a lot of my characters' feelings and thoughts. And, it adds to the word count, so my chapters were lengthy-er.

The only problem is that it only hit me last night that this was suppose to be a two person thing , and I have been neglecting the other guy. Now, I know I can easily give him a few lines and dialogues to add his POV to the story telling, but (let's just put it this way) it's his show. So, I guess I should give him more air time (lol) .

I've read several times how constantly switching POVs in a story kinda seemed unprofessional and sloppy etc. (though I personally don't think so) and I try to avoid doing that. Like I said, I thought I should add a little more dialogue where the 2nd guy gets to share and speak more. But I still feel it isn't enough. I thought about switching back to third person but I'd HATE to rewrite everything again. And I AM POSITIVE it will be BORING. I had written (and posted but soon deleted) a story here in third person but it was really bad. I cringed when I read it. I can tell my editor was frustrated with me. At the end I didn't finish it and bail. But I AM NOT planning on bailing this one.

I've done bit of research in the writers' section to see what other people think about such problems and I have to say most of them either said to balance everything (which kinda is my problem to begin with, I can't 'effin balance shit) or to write in third person, focusing on one person at a time. And I absolutely agree with it. honestly, I don't understand some of the advises and suggestions there because I got confuse with the whole 3rd person limited and switch to 1st person and all that

Now, I don't wanna sound like a cry-baby , but I honestly am fed up. I'm demotivated and I start questioning myself why am I doing this? For what exactly? If I want to play make believe and write a beautiful story than I should at least make myself, me as the author feel good about it first. And if people don't like it and felt that it's ​sloppy, amateur-ish, unprofessional, horrible, childish, badly executed, trash than they have every right to not read it. I should stop worrying about what people think about my work, and should start thinking how I feel about it. I mean, I'm no professional author and I don't plan to be . I just want to share a story but GOD I guess you can't please everyone.

All in all, I've decided to just give the 2nd guy more speech. Oh wait...maybe I can give the chance to tell his story lol hahaha. I must be going crazy now lol. But yeah, I've decided to do what makes me feel good, isn't a lot of trouble, what I am comfortable with, and Isn't beyond my abilities

Ace of Kebabs

P.S I'll see if I'll post it here. I gotta get at least a few chapters done first so I wouldn't have to rush IF I decided I'm good to go.
P.S.S I don't have a guide in in figuring out the whole plot. My only guide is my head and fingers