Life accelerates past the point where I can handle it.

I've been talking online a lot to a fellow Gayauthorite (hey Mike), so I assume some of the creative bleed off that this blog functions as has been satisfied in that manner. Really, I write here because I need to write, constantly, and this gives me an excuse to do so without such considerations as characterizations and plot continuity.

I work a second job now, minimum wage, but at least it gets me out of the apartment and into the world. I'm unsure how long I'll stick to it, as my fellow coworkers are....a bit intense shall we say? Which is ironic, since other people have said that about me, but here we are.

I'm listening to Taylor Swift's "Teardrops on my Guitar" over and over. I think I can qualify it as a f**ked up love song, enough that I can use it as a title at some point. But in the meantime, it makes me somewhat sad and a bit nostalgic. You know, I really am over the first guy I had feelings for, I am, but I still ahve dreams of him on occasion. Not for him, I think, but because I miss the way I acted when I was head over heels for him. And the way I felt. Everyday was a bit brighter then, for some reason. I'm still friends with his current girlfriend, who I knew in high school. I'm jealous of her, of course, but not really. I never was able to make him smile like she does.

On a more upbeat note, I love "Gossip Girl." I love it a lot. I cannot decide who my favorite character is, and the "behind the scenes" bit I just watched isn't making it easier. Margaret Colin as Eleanor Waldorf is fantastic. I've only seen her before in Independence Day, but if anything that recommends her. She's bringing the right amount of crazy, bitchy, and seriousness to the role, and every episode with her in it is a little better than the rest. I also like Chase Crawford as Nate, but he's more on the level of eye candy. Nice eye candy though, he's the whole reason I started watching the show in the first place. But they make him kind of dumb, and his acting isn't helping the impression. In the interviews, he's a total California boy; I can only hope they go with that in the future. Finally, there is Leighton Meester as Blair. This was my favorite character in the novels, the true main character I feel, and she's just as interesting in three dimensions. However, they've been a bit inconsistent with her character, portraying her as fun and down-to-earth one episode, and as a woman with an entire tree shoved up her behind the next (just like Momma).

Well, laundry, work, haircut, and the post office calls, so ta.