ARGH! Ever have a night where you can't stop thinking? It's one of those nights for me. Thoughts keep going through my head and I'm not entirely sure that's a good thing. Usually when I sit and think it never turns out well, but we'll see. At least it's a nice night outside so I can leave my door open and get a breeze.

Not much new to update on. I think my brother knows I'm gay now if he didn't know before. We were having a party and the boyfriend had some homework due the next day so he was taking a break from beer pong to work on it. Well I came in my room to check on him and say hi and we got a little distracted with our tongues. Well my brother was coming to get me to play another game and he looks through my door right as I pull away and look up at him. So he just turned around and walked back to the table. He didn't say anything so I'm assuming he already knew, but at least now I know.

I finally put a new car stereo in I wanted one for a long time but I never got around to it. It's a real nice one that allows me to play music directly off my USB flash drive so I don't have to make CDs or load songs on an MP3 player ever again. WOO! It was a bitch to put in though because I wasn't willing to pay the $50 to have them install it. So I did it myself and it all worked out in the end

Went to see Doomsday the other night. I personally didn't like it. It was a lot like 28 Weeks (wich I liked) except with a less realistic plot. There were so many faults that I just didn't understand. Though that could have been because I missed the first 5-10 minutes, but still some of the things in the movie just made me wonder what the hell they were on when they didn't think about this kind of stuff. The Bently in it was nice though!

I have homework but I don't want to do it so screw that I'm not going to.

Speaking of the boyfriend... things are going very well I'm fairly certain he's not psychotic like most of my exs or dickheads like the rest of them. He said something earlier today when we were cuddling that I couldn't understand. It could be something very meaningful, or it could have just been goodbye. But based on something he said last night, I'm inclined to believe it was the first option. However, when I asked him what he said, he responded with something that it couldn't have been. So it's killing me inside trying to figure it out. I think he said it, but I don't know if he wanted to say it yet or if he's trying to protect me by doing it this way and then judging my reaction. But that doesn't work if I don't know what the hell he said to begin with! ARGH! And then he said what sounded like the same thing when I was walking to my car, but that one didn't sound AS close as the other one did so I let it go and didn't say anything. I'm good at reading him though and based on his body language I think he was a little disappointed, but not too put off because he was the one that didn't say it clearly or repeat it. So grrr!

Anyways, I'm going to get back to my thinking and hopefully find some food.

Joe

(Who is bored but refuses to do homework.)