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Praying for August


So this summer is going to be entirely too busy! I've been dreading it for months now, and it basically officially started for me Monday and now I'm just desperately hoping I can hold out till August.

 

I have to take THREE summer courses, a major exams (5 hours long!), do observations and curriculum AND work full-time! :blink:

 

Basically this translates into getting up early every morning, working, going straight to class, not getting home till about 8:30 or 9 at night (and that's for right now while I'm lucky, as the summer goes on it'll be more like 10pm :( ) and then repeating the whole thing over again all week.

 

My weekends would seem to be freer, but they're really not. I'll probably have to work some weekends, plus I already have some class/school related activities planned for some of them, and then there's the simple matter of catching up on all the laundry, cleaning, house stuff that I couldn't do all week!

 

To top it all off I'm being completely overwhelmed socially and I'm getting to the point where I want to just turn my phone off and hide from everyone! Case in point, this week has been grueling and all I wanted to do was spend a quiet weekend to myself doing nothing. Instead yesterday Luke asked me to help him finish up stuff for his house this coming Saturday (which will FINALLY go on the market on Sunday), Scott asked me to consider officially joining our church this Sunday (which he's planning to do and at the very least expects me to attend), and then William calls and tries to convince me that I need to spend the weekend partying with him and another guy in Austin! THEN Scott further decides that he wants to have a get together on Friday night for his sister who's coming to visit AND William decides that prior to going on the trip Saturday we should all go out on Friday night :blink:

 

EUGHHHHH!!

 

So far I've just told them all regarding all the 'plans' that I just don't know and can't commit myself. And I so don't know what to do. I feel like my 'obligation' is to meet Scott's sister on Friday, help Luke on Saturday, and go to the church thing on Sunday (although I've already decided I'm not quite ready to join myself). That feels like my duty as a good friend, but at the same time the clubbing on Friday and weekend in Austin with William sounds like a lot more fun and we've been discussing this on and off for awhile and it's something I really want to do, plus I've been spending way more time with Scott and Luke so it would be good to do something with William. Then there's the simple matter that I'm just really really physically, emotionally, and mentally tired and I really want to just do the reclusive hermit thing.

 

What I've tentatively decided is that I won't go to work tomorrow (I can do that :D ) thus spending quiet time with me. Class is actually cancelled tomorrow night so I'll be able to spend the early evening with Scott and his sister, then I'll meet up with William and we can go clubbing. I'll probably end up going with him to Austin because of the plans that don't include being alone with myself that's the most appealing, something I've really been wanting to do, and something I know I'll regret not doing. I think it'll be okay with Luke because I've helped him ALOT already, he's nearly done, and I *think* he'll understand. I've also sorta let Scott know where I stand so I think he might be okay with me not going to the church thing on Sunday...on the other hand I know I'm also deluding myself...they're both going to be pissed at me and Scott will probably be disappointed/hurt. What the heck am I supposed to do though?? I already give way more time and attention to them than I do to William anyway, and William is just...fun. Like it's so easy, casual, and carefree spending time with him. Of course I know he 'needs' me less, but that's sorta part of the appeal I guess :wacko:

 

In any case I don't see a way out of this that won't disappoint someone, make me feel like a bad friend, and result in me starting the next week just as exhausted as I am already...but I think the above plan works the best and minimizes the damage, so I'll probably go with that.

 

BTW, my friend Josh from the last entry...entering rehab. So that's a good thing. I'm hoping it takes.

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Dion

Posted

My two cents:

 

Hang with Scott and his sister, go clubbing, go home. Shut off any and all forms of outside contact (ie: phone) and go to sleep. Don't get up until you're not tired anymore.

 

When you're well rested, re-examine your options and then decide what you're going to do.

Objectivist

Posted

Why dont you just explain to everyone how tired you are and how you need to spend time with yourself to recooperate.

 

you cant take care of everyone else if you dont take care of yourself.

 

 

not that youre trying to? or maybe you are... dunno. but you do need to take care of your own needs and im sure your friends would understand. because as your friends they should ya know?

 

but thats just what i think. im sure that whatever you do it will be for the greater good. :D

 

 

James

corvus

Posted

Dude, take care of yourself! Remember -- "early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise." :D

 

Also, "an apple a day keeps the doctor away." Although, since you're a vegetarian and probably eat ten times more fruits than I do, I guess I'd be a hypocrite to be reminding you. :P

Procyon

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I know the feeling exactly... At least you've done your ironing for now though! ;) But try to get out of doing the things you find most stressful though, it's not worth it to get totally exhausted, you should enjoy your summer a little bit at least.

 

And remember: Early to rise and early to bed/makes a man healthy, wealthy and dead. So don't get up too early!! Seriously though, take care of yourself, and I hope you still have a great summer. :)

GaryK

Posted

One of the most difficult lessons to learn in life for someone like you is to recognize when you need to be selfish, and then not feel guilty for indulging in some time alone to recharge your mental batteries.

AFriendlyFace

Posted

My two cents:

 

Hang with Scott and his sister, go clubbing, go home. Shut off any and all forms of outside contact (ie: phone) and go to sleep. Don't get up until you're not tired anymore.

 

When you're well rested, re-examine your options and then decide what you're going to do.

Thanks for the advice.

 

I sorta did that and sorta didn't.

 

The weekend trip got cancelled anyway. Then I had car trouble on my way to going clubbing, then the next day I did hang out with Scott.

 

I did catch up on my rest though...mostly

AFriendlyFace

Posted

Why dont you just explain to everyone how tired you are and how you need to spend time with yourself to recooperate.

 

you cant take care of everyone else if you dont take care of yourself.

not that youre trying to? or maybe you are... dunno. but you do need to take care of your own needs and im sure your friends would understand. because as your friends they should ya know?

 

but thats just what i think. im sure that whatever you do it will be for the greater good. :D

James

Thanks James :)

 

I explained this to Scott because I knew he'd understand. I don't think Luke would have, but that sorta worked out anyway. With William things are just always simpler and easier, and don't require the same degree of explanation.

AFriendlyFace

Posted

Dude, take care of yourself! Remember -- "early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy, wealthy, and wise." :D

 

Also, "an apple a day keeps the doctor away." Although, since you're a vegetarian and probably eat ten times more fruits than I do, I guess I'd be a hypocrite to be reminding you. :P

Actually I don't eat a whole lot of fruit. I eat TONS of vegetables, but even though I really really like fruit I seldom have it on hand. LOL and it's not because I keep eating it every time I get it, I just don't tend to buy it for some reason.

AFriendlyFace

Posted

I know the feeling exactly... At least you've done your ironing for now though! ;) But try to get out of doing the things you find most stressful though, it's not worth it to get totally exhausted, you should enjoy your summer a little bit at least.

 

And remember: Early to rise and early to bed/makes a man healthy, wealthy and dead. So don't get up too early!! Seriously though, take care of yourself, and I hope you still have a great summer. :)

 

I'm sure I'll have a good summer one way or the other. I'm pretty resilient that way. Besides now that that ironing is out of the way for now I'm still riding the high :P:boy:

AFriendlyFace

Posted

One of the most difficult lessons to learn in life for someone like you is to recognize when you need to be selfish, and then not feel guilty for indulging in some time alone to recharge your mental batteries.

Aww, thanks Gary :)

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