Depression

[Y_B]

Cheers Yan, I just need to learn about gardening now

 

Give me dad a call. He's one of those men who has taken to gardening and plant care. Mom and I tease him all the time. He does a great job though.

[Mikelaing74]

Give me dad a call. He's one of those men who has taken to gardening and plant care. Mom and I tease him all the time. He does a great job though.

 

Lol, I think the commute between Texas and Scotland would be a killer

[Mark92]

Just ask if you need to know anything Mikey, I grow everything from peas to petunia's LOL

 

 

Hugs all

[Mikelaing74]

Cheers Marky, I think I can handle grass cutting, but that's where my expertise runs out

 

Hugs all

[Mark92]

The garden in the pics looks pretty cool anyway, Mikey Let me know what problems you get. If there isnt already, I would advise putting bark chippings around the base of the plants and any uncovered soil. It helps retain moisture and looks prettier too

[JOeKEool]

HI Everyone Mike, that is a nice house. The carpet... Ok it could go but it aint that bad. I'm happy for you.

 

It looks like all of you are doing OK. That's great.

 

Mark, I will try to reach out if things get bad again. OH, and good job !!! on the pig sale. So the party's on ???

 

I am busy now with baseball. Little League with the 10 year old. I am having so much fun. I never got involved in sports. I won't miss a game. And we have a good team. Won 6 lost 2 I think. About 6 more games to go.

 

School will be out soon. I am going to have my hands full. Mom and Dad are both working lots of OT and rotating shifts for Mom. I hope I can handle it.

I'm getting very little sleep now. I think I'll do OK !!!

 

I have been writing again. I can't do it when I get down. My brain gets full of mush. Ideas just drown.

I'll try to post one or two. I'm not sure anything is really finished.

 

I have been reading some great stories. I feel guilty when there is so much on my Must Read list here at GA. I only read on my phone.It seems the only time I get to read is when I'm not home. I just can't maneuver GA on my phone. I find little sites with not too much to scroll through.

I'm partial to the gay teen genre. I think that is where i'm at emotionally right now. I never got through a lot of that turmoil. It helps to re-live it and see how others dealt with it. That's some of what I have been writing, too . Gay teen themes

 

Mark I see three new chapters in The Legacy. I WILL read that. I want to enjoy it. Not rush through it when I have a minute here or there.

I have Amazons new cloud drive storage site. Maybe i can paste a story there and access it by phone. I'll have to try.

 

Thanks for listening. See you all soon.

[Mark92]

Hi all

 

Joe, Go you with the sports LOL I dont have any interest in any, apart from NFL. I think it's great you're helping out with the family. And being busy is very good for depression.

Also glad to hear you're writing again.

I write when I'm down. But I have to say, I write even more when I'm not down. It seemes Stuby inspires me and while he revises for his exams, I write. We are on skype together so we can take small breaks, and have lunch and dinner together while we work.

I've just started a brand new story, I cant decide whether to do it in one really long one or to split it up. I am so excited about it. I really am writing a lot

Stay well my friend and keep in touch

 

Hugs all

[Mikelaing74]

Joe, the carpet is soooo having an accident with the skip. The floorboards underneath the carpet are in good nick, so I'm going to take all the carpet out of the downstairs and then sand and stain the floorboards

 

It's good to see you're having fun, even if it is with a game I don't really understand

 

I'm the same as you, when I'm down I just can't write. Which means this weekend I must have been as high as a kite as I put down 7,500 words !

 

Hugs All

[JOeKEool]

Hey guys. Thanks so much just for being here.

 

Mark I want to read your new story. Bummer. My phone won't access the Cloud Drive at Amazon.I'll have to make time to read when I'm on the PC.

 

Mike 7500 words is a marathon. good job !! I I will post one I just wrote about baseball. It won't help you understand it any better though.

 

I just posted one about writing. Let me know what you think. I have more but they yell at me if I post too many at once. Maybe i'll post at FSO. I haven't been there in a long while. I'll let you know. HUGS !!! to all

 

EDIT: I posted Baseball and one about Nevada. They will be in review for a while. I forgot how long it takes. The decor is all different over there. No more Easter- egg purple?

 

And one more here at GA. A fun little gay teen drama.

[Mark92]

I do hope thats nature friendly stain your using Mikey?

And glad to hear you're feeling good.

 

Joe: My new one isnt up yet, I haven't posted any. I read a couple of yours while I had five minutes. I love the story of Kevin. I wish you could see how talented you are.

 

BTW Mikey you know carpet is ideal to put round the base of shrubs or to cover bare earth, turn it upside down and it will soon blend in. It soon rots down. And you're recycling as well as getting rid of it.

[comicfan]

Joe,

 

I doubt that they would have a problem with you posting your poetry, but if it is all about the same subject create a book. That way all your poetry about Baseball would be in one place.

 

As for FSO you aren't the only one who forgot it. Last time I was on the site was to comment on the Valentine Anthology. Bad I know.

[JOeKEool]

Hi Com. I posted 4 poems and got in trouble. 1 or 2 a week is the limit. I'm done for the week now.

I will break a few out of the Random file and start a new book about lost souls and soul-mates I think. One i'm working on needs to be paired with it's beginning.

I only did the one on baseball. I put it on FSO just so I could have it posted sooner. The more family oriented ones belong there anyway.

 

I get things done and only post a few and the rest get put aside and forgotten. I will try to post more regularly .

 

Here is another one @ FSO I better not push it any more.

 

Mark I'm glad you liked that one with Keven.I hope to continue that one. Or another one similar. I just go where the story takes me. I never really outline. I let one line lead to the next. Check out SHOUT OUT It evolved the same way. Really I guess they all just take form as I write. It surprises me sometimes what comes out of my head.

 

I never thought of using carpet as mulch. I have used it just to keep the mud at bay. But I didn't turn it over. Neat idea. It would look more natural.

Mark you could start a better homes and gardens thread.

 

I wasn't looking for your story yet. I know it's not up. I was just seeing if I could use Amazon. My phone hasn't got what it takes.No Javascript. No way to install anything. It's take it or leave it. It's better than nothing. So it's back to TMJ for reading.

[Breeze]

You all amaze me, I have such admiration for you all. I have been reading this thread since the beginning. You all have such a great support system, it's wonderful to see.

I have had my own bouts of depression in the recent past. For two years I battled a bunch of illnesses, that began and finally ended with my thyroid. I was in and out of the hospital and almost died a couple of times. While all this happened , I was apart from my husband(I came back to Canada, and he stayed in the States). He had a heart attack, then got cancer and passed away 18 months ago.Through all this I was lucky, I had good friends, that held me up and kept me going. I had family that were also supportive.

What you all have here is precious and wonderful. GA is a great place to come to. And I hope I can post here from time to time. I've been here for a little over a year I think but I'm always to chicken to post.

Shelly

[JOeKEool]

Hi Shelly

 

You have had a rough time. Please don't ever be leary of posting here. No one judges or condemns. We are all family.

It is all about the support. A new voice is always enjoyed and welcomed.

 

This thread and all the folks here at GA have given me a new shot at life. I had all but given up hope.

 

Hopefully you can gain from us and also add your support to help others here.

[Mikelaing74]

Hi Shelly, I echo what Joe said we are a support system for each other, even if you just want to vent

 

I'm sorry your husband passed away, I hope I never have to experience that as I don't know if I'm strong enough to deal with losing Snuggle, I'm right when I call him my better half.

 

And Marky, how much is it going to cost me to get you to be my gardener, I think I could tolerate a fit Yorkshireman working for me and of course I realise Stuby comes as part of the package

 

Hugs all

[Mark92]

Huge hugs Shelley And thank you for talking to us, we ARE about supporting each other. You have had a rough ride, but please post.

 

Joe thank you, you are always there to offer support, and all are welcome here.

 

Mikey, Hmmmm I could be your online gardener? You will have to do the work though. Maybe even get some muscles on your boney butt lol.

 

Maybe one day me and Stubykins will be visiting you all. Hide folks..... hide!

 

all round

[JOeKEool]

Hi All !!!

Just want to say again how great it is to be back. Life is good and it is everyone here who keeps me going.

Last night started with a flat tire and late for work and then it all went downhill from there. From things going missing to botched-up paper work to just making wrong turns and dropping things all night. I had just had a really good day and none of it got to me. Normally I would have been frustrated and angry at each little thing and been a basket case after a night like that. Life is good even when it's not good to us. Oh and listenning to Satriani all night didn't hurt either.

 

Shelly I was rushing to get to work when I posted. I wanted to say how sorry I am for all you had to endure. It's good you have friends and family for support. I do hope you can add your voice to our family here. You will always have a strong shoulder to lean on or to cry on and an ear to listen here.

And we are all open to another point of view on how to survive the hard times.

 

Its almost time for work again. HUGS !!!

 

Joe

 

 

EDIT: adding here rather than start new post

 

Mark.i just found several poems and short stories of yours that I had not seen. I thought I was following you but all that alerts me is Legacy updates.

 

You have wonderful talent for poetry. I am embarrassed that I haven't seen them till now. And your Let's Make Love !!! Man that was hot. I'm sorry I am so slow getting to them. I will try to review soon too.

 

I was able to get my phone to access stories here. I copy and paste into an e-mail. Then i just open mail on my phone and it works well. It breaks 1 chapter into 20 pages which is a little tedious but way easier than trying to scroll through GA directly. I will start reading The Legacy again.I had read the first few chapters.but need to refresh.

 

I will pay closer attention to what you are writing. I love what you do !!! HUGS !!!

Edited May 10, 2012 by JOeKEool

[Mark92]

Awwww Joe I didnt notice the edit either what a pair eh?

Glad your liking my stuff it's always close to my heart, and either true or almost. As for Lets Make Love. It really is how I will do things. I found it hot to do too LOL.

Thanks again

 

 

all

[CassieQ]

I went to therapy today and the shrinker said that she was very impressed by how well I was handling things. I felt like such a hypocrite.

[Mark92]

Why Cassie?? Did you really feel better? Or was it saying it to cover yourself?

 

Hope you do feel better?

 

Hugs all

[Mikelaing74]

I went to therapy today and the shrinker said that she was very impressed by how well I was handling things. I felt like such a hypocrite.

 

Cassie, unfortunaley I've learnt that if I don't engage with my therapist ( feel like such a dork for saying that ). I don't get any benefit out of the sessions, and she's threatened me more than once with more time off work. For a control freak such as myself that's truly a dire threat. I don't like giving up control of anything outside of the bedroom, where I can let go and just let Snuggle take control for a while.

 

I hope things improve for you, but we're all here with our pearls of wisdom, and a friendly ear if you just need to vent

 

Hugs

[Breeze]

I have had mixed success with counsellors here. I started seeing one again right around the time my husband died because there was too much going on for me to cope with. When I get stressed and theres a lot going on in my life that I need to start doing, I get easily overwhelmed(scattered) and end up doing nothing. So this current counsellor is really good. She gets me thinking straight and focused on getting one thing done at a time.

 

Cassie hope all is well

 

Hugs and thanks all

[Mark92]

Hey Breeze so glad you came back

We cant do much to help, but there is always an ear to listen, and a shoulder to cry on, and sometimes someone to kick up the butt and really vent LOL.

 

All

[CassieQ]

Why Cassie?? Did you really feel better? Or was it saying it to cover yourself?

 

Hope you do feel better?

 

Hugs all

 

I don't know how I feel. I have no idea if I am handling things well or not, even though everyone says I am. I just don't feel like I am. I feel like I'm a big, unhappy confused mess Most of the time I feel like I just want to take the cats and go home, away from all this confusion. But I don't have either one of them anymore.

[Mark92]

I am so so sorry about your cats Cassie, I love all my animals, they are my family. Losing any of them has me crying like a baby for days. Even shooting a pig to put it out of it's suffering, had me sobbing and depressed for months. Too lose your home as well must have been totally devastating, and if people are telling you that you are coping well. You must be holding yourself together for them to see. Dont hold it in Cassie, it's the worst thing too do. Scream it out, vent it some way.

Hang in there darling lady. I know it's tough.

 

Hugs all