Andrew Q Gordon

Wow, no one likes Det. Belle - interesting. I thought he was a good dude, but then I'm a bit biased I guess. Stay tuned, I can't promise the feel good chapters will keep going - but they might, at least for a while.

Sorry Trevor, but Jason never said which song it was, but if i were to venture a guess, it would be either a ) End of the World as We Know it b ) Losing My Religion c ) Shaking Through, or d ) Shiny Happy People. But then what do I know right?? One would think, right???

Just a bit of clarity. the contract is super clear - at 20 weeks, she signs the pre birth order and her parental rights are terminate - period end of discussion. Not only that but were she to 'contest' signing the pre birth order, California Laws have uniformly enforced the contract that says she is required to. So no there is no gray area here, we could - but won't - deny her all contact with the babies - and yes I am thinking in terms of twins, that seems to be the prevailing wind with everyone involved. Cia - you kill me with - your " it's not like you have that warm mushy feeling about women' Moi??? To be honest I wasn't really that concerned about my parenting as much as I was annoyed at myself for being so 'put off' by her veiled request we call. The whole passive aggressive stuff is a peeve of mine, grates on me when people do that and my first reaction is to do the opposite of what they are trying to subtlety get me to do. But in reality we really ought to keep in touch better, so I am wrong and I know it. Anyway, I love the comments, god you are all going to have a helluva a good time at my expense when I actually try to play parent. Andy

Let me know when you become an old man and I'll buy you a drink to mourn your arrival - but you got a few years to go yet

Sorry trev, but that subpoena thing IS part of the job. I myself think it is a great tool for investigations. Oops, seems real life snuck in there again now didn't it?

Not sure how THAT snuck in there. Just ignore it, it has NO significance whatsoever.

Oh come on, I can't please everyone with my choice of teams, it's like if I said Pirates and Phillies, the Mets fans or the Braves fans would howl. Geez, just can't please everyone can you

If I were to say you forgot the word 'yet' after fighting, them folks would string me up, so I won't say it. Hopefully this chapter didn't get me in anymore trouble :PThanks for reading and for the comments

No actually I was wondering how that got in there too, as I THOUGHT I changed it - meh, there were more than few mistakes in this chapter, I don't know what happened. I did a few corrections but am not going to 'edit' it a third time today, maybe when I post the next chapter, or maybe not at all

Interesting chapter, I second Anyta's comments on the emotional development and letting us feel them. But I have said from the start you do that so well. Couple silly comments:How could Blake not have know she was like this after her little stunt at the beach - to think she was anything but ruthless and all the smarts, manipulation etc that goes with it is failing to see the tree for the forrest. [Not saying this was bad writing, it was good, just sayin Blake needs to step up his game.]Terrible ending - simply terrible - you left us hanging like that - bad Acedias you must be learning from Cia and Nephy about cliffs and leaving us there. All I can say was after the last few paragraphs I had this sinking feeling, especially at the very end, that Blake was about to medicate himself into a robot. That and he is suddenly very dependent on the drugs so fast. He needs to be careful, especially out where he is, because so far he doesn't have a treating physian where he is now. Brilliant chapter - just kidding about the 'terrible' thingy -Andy

Peter being the smarter one has been clear since day one, but he has helped Jason elevate his game I would say -Darryl specifically asked me to send you his number but only in private. He doesn't want a mad rush of calls

I tend to think of Peter as a good 'bad boy' type - motorcycle, Martial Arts, a bit of a loner/independent person - I mean he was 19 and drinking with his family's permission along with the restaurant owner. Seems to know his way about stuff - definitely part of the allure for Jason.

Chapter 36 is up, enjoy, Andy Chapter 36: Clearing The Air

No longer plagued by nightmares, Jason still found it hard to sleep. Desire for tomorrow to arrive, so he could see Peter again, replaced his worry and fear. When it was clear he was too excited to sleep he opened a text book, hoping that would help put him to sleep. Shortly after midnight, his body finally conceded. Peter was watching TV when he arrived in the morning. Or better said, the TV was on, while he slept. Unlike the last four days, seeing Peter lying silent made him smil

Funny thing is I didn't MEAN to keep everyone waiting, as Nephy always says, the thing writes itself sometimes. I just needed to get a few things said - that and I didn't want to just skip two weeks and have him 'wake' up. Glad you liked it, am working on the last 3-4 chapters now. I will post 36 today at some point so for you at least there is no more wait. Thanks for the comments Andy

Happy Birthday Soup!!!!! I made you a cake - it's in the fridge - help yourself Have a great day [well I suppose it's half over by now, you damn Aussie's always have to be first]

Not really, but maybe I should. I sort of mentioned this in chat tonight, but we 'had' to call the surrogate tonight. Had to in the sense she sent me a text and an email saying how she missed us and she hadn't talk to us in a while. My general feeling was - so??? Which has me thinking maybe I am not cut out to be a dad because I am such a jerk. Okay those of you thinking 'maybe? There's no maybe about it.' just stop. Point noted. Seriously, maybe I am too damn grumpy because when Mike said we should call, I asked why? Actually I did my best Eric Cartman imitation and asked 'Why the f**k now?' That didn't exactly go over well - so I quickly offered to make the call. My thoughts - again, I know how bad this sounds - were, looking I am paying you to have the kid, its strictly business, I don't have to woo you, buy you nice things etc. like I would if she were my wife or my girlfriend, or she were doing it for free. Then I start to think, um well 'you're a jerk' because no amount of money is enough to do this - she IS being really generous to do this for us. Which leads me to think, am I going to be like this with my kids? 'Daddy, I need attention.' Me: 'why? I gave your allowance already, leave me alone.' Yeah not exactly good parenting is it? Okay, so I won't be THAT bad, but it is a reflection of my character I suppose. Do you think they have classes to teach you compassion and caring or have I doomed my child because I won't change? Then again, it probably has more to do with the surrogate giving us a bit of a weird feeling today. First she was asking how long we 'had' to stay in town before we flew home. She seemed to think we were staying a while. We were like, um no not long at all. Then she said something about being the live in nanny for the first six months. Oh no that is NOT gonna happen. As I see it, this is how it goes - birth, let mom say hi, give them to Mike and Andy, Mike and Andy take them to the hotel, Mike and Andy fly home. There is no Mother/Child bonding - that is why there is a contract. [cold yes, but we - Mike and I - plan to be the only parents, we don't want her to think otherwise] The nanny comment really made up go huh? So in the end it probably not a reflection on my parenting skills as much as legitimate concerns about her not getting too attached to us or the kid(s), especially not this early. Ultra sound Wednesday - stay tuned for further drama [Yes Vic, I suppose I have a touch of Royalty in me for drama ]

typewriter Is the goal to try to break the chain or to keep it going?

Mark, perhaps I wasn't clear, I wasn't suggestion Older men aren't attractive, just the opposite - I just don't know of ANY older gay characters being written about right now. So if there are stories with main characters over 30 that I can read, lay 'em on me.

Oh no, August is right out - it's not about having holiday left, I have 10 weeks and counting already this year I can use [we have to work weekends and holidays and we early extra time off at 1.5 times the hours we work] but anything after early July and we are going to be on baby watch. I can't leave the country and have the babies born. Maybe we will come over before that and just make the rounds

Am totally jealous you guys are doing this. Ten more days and I would have dragged Mike across the pond so we could be there, but our holiday doesn't start until the 12th. Sigh. Another fun thing I am going to miss.

**Groan** **Sigh** If it were only 2000, I'd be . . . I'd . . . I'd still be old. But getting back on topic, there aren't a lot of characters who are old enough for me to lust after - I can't think of anyone over thirty I would want to date from any story I read. I'm open to suggestions

No problem, silly me for not getting it. Don't quit on me, one failed witicism isn't the end, usually you are spot on

Jason isn't very original, what can I say. Peter has the greater wit of the two - though I think you would agree, Darryl is better than either

Haha, wow, you mean I waited until chapter four to toss that out??? Cripes, that's what I get for writing it so long ago. I might need to re-read it soon.