It's okay; you're allowed to be cute every now and again. Now you can see why his friends object to what Ben does in his job. Still, many people who take courses on psychology do so to understand themselves, and, as they say, the closer you are to a problem, the more blind you get. If you look at it from Ben's viewpoint: he had one love in his life and assumed that was it, and yet is a hopeless romantic. With all the problems he's had, why wouldn't he be a good counselor? I'm not sure what you mean by the school thing ... Almost all schools have problems with bullying, just some are more overt with others. Ben grew up during the 80s and AIDS, if that helps understand the drama. Hopefully in some of the later chapters you'll understand some more why Ben has a hard time verbalizing his feelings. You're right in that it has a lot to do with Will. I think it's kind of funny how no one has remarked on the irony of his name. Maybe you'll be the first. Anyway, good friends are priceless and someone who truly believes in us are even more rare. I called dibs on Rick first!