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Very true but he didn't act like she'd over stepped and he knows what she's like. She's to me a; worse, wealthier, wicked version of Cruella Deville.

Am I the only one who thinks maybe Wade was a little over the top with Hammer? I mean it's one thing to get him barred from visiting the Australian games, but this seems way over the top though even if he is an absolute idiot. I know he's only a very minor, periphery character but with great power comes great responsibility ya da ya da ya da... etc for Wade. I'm surprised he's willing to destroy someones life for such a minor infraction as his and Matt's relationship is so solid now. You'll always meet people like that in life but couples rise above it. Wade doesn't know if he has any dependents or how stable this guy is. I've read case reports of people committing suicide over far less. Anyway my two thoughts as Wade's normally pretty good judge of a situation/on an even keel. Because this totally sounds like an ego situation.

After JJ's tantrum at not getting Alex on the phone after a few hours (not to mention not knowing about Alex's recent indiscretion). God help Alex if he really does something serious to piss JJ off.

Slightly of topic but this has always been a ponderance to me. How the hell can some people do exercise without sweating? I'll do an hours jog round the local park and it looks like I have just jumped into the river.

Yes I was going to mention that, well without going into to much detail all cuffs I've ever owned had a safety latch too . UK/American difference?

Having seriously sprained my ankle playing squash at University, if he manages to run for 80 odd minutes in a weeks time i'll be amazed!

Thank you for an excellent way to start my morning, I did have a good chuckle when JJ was narrating. My cousin was 5"7 till he was 18/19 and caught up 6 inches to the rest of us, so he may still have a growth spurt yet. It was also refreshing to see Zach's pov on how he really does feel about Will.

She does have that freedom but I think the key difference here is that she isn't bisexual as far as we know, I imagine she rationalised it as him being away from women for so long on his voyages. Granger is at least in my mind predominantly gay, having Caroline who he does love in his own way, is a requirement given the time period. I also think the fact he sees her in small doses helps that attraction to her too. The tryst with them is because on some level she is either jealous or (incoming psychobabble analysis) wants to be closer to George by understanding what he loves in these men and why he loves them. The thought that she isn't enough when he's home and how she has seen and heard how these other men love him and would fight to the death for him. Now the first may seem petty, the second an analytic longshot. Both lead to an ego problem. Someone who doesn't feel she's enough, and in all honesty never will be for him. She accepts his liaisons with men, but he loves men. Where as she has to accept that and not fall in love with another. It's an important distinction because look at how much emphasis has been placed on the bonds and trust that come when Granger loves someone and how hurt he is when he feels spurned. I also think that unless Granger holds an orgy on deck in full view of the fleet he's pretty much exposure risk free considering his own connections and common sense.

I like that George sent that small but important message to Caroline; giving her some hope after the way he verbally eviscerated her. I know that at it's crux George is more upset about the lying, the deceit and that it happened whilst he was onshore than the actual encounter and normally i'm 110% team Granger. Having said that, I can see why Caroline resents the sexual freedom George has and she doesn't. This is manifesting through her sexual desire to be with men George has been with. Instead of a discreet sexual encounter often, which i'm sure she would be more than capable of having given her connections. I think she has just as much a desire to have sex as George and wants that freedom but went about it in the entirely wrong way. I can't remember when or how she gave her blessing for Granger to sleep with men but clearly while she's "alright" with it in principle. The fact though she has to remain faithful irks her. George can gallivant with anyone nearly and does (not that we're complaining) whilst George (it must feel for her) wants her to remain chaste. This may be because George on some level views her as does society as property, his, but I don't think Caroline's ever really liked the idea of being owned. I know this is due to the risk of gossip, patriarchy and pregnancy (again). Having said that there must be a middle ground where Caroline can have her fun too. I know it's George's story but the idea that women don't enjoy sex or want it on the whole as much as men I've always thought was woefully inaccurate. At least buy her a vibrator, they've been in France since 1734 and called the "Tremoussiour" (I know Wikipedia cardinal sin of referencing but it's more of a jest). It really does speak to the whole time period it's set in of course though; women as irrational, not thinking of the good of the family, wanton and craven to be locked away in a monastery or castle. The way she has treated Granger was wrong but given the inequalities we're dealing with, interpersonally and on a larger scale I understand it.

The worst film for me has to be "In the Name of the King". Directed by Uwe Boll who i'm surprised hasn't already been mentioned.It's atrocious; the acting, the extra's, the plot. I vaguely remember an ork crawling off screen during a post battle conversation in full few. It was so bad when I heard they were making a sequel I phoned my younger brother up to warn him, all I had to say was "there making a sequel to the worst film ever" he knew. Most abysmal waste of Haagendazs ever.

I now adore that song Methodwriter (New Slang; speaks simultaneously on so many levels). I just feel though that with his new found resolution my mind imagined a song a bit more two fingers up to the situation and less relaxed so Pink . He's still pissed off about it all, resolute he isn't going to let it bother him outwardly though it will. Resentment too with Wade not giving them another chance. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNpym8_pUUs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_xQaCD0opc

I agree Rjo, I don't have to like it. I was rather grumpy this morning when I reread it but it makes sense in a crappy sort of fantastic writing/story development way.

Thank you all for your thoughts and stories, I most certainly agree I do have a "tendency" (Massive habit...) to over think or analyse things! I'm glad I opened this note out to public thought, as I said most just go in the bin at the end of the night and things always look brighter at the dawn of a new day compared to when I'm scribbling at the desk. In this case I think I will tell my brain to take a vacation, it's funny though Rustle your road metaphor it's how I think of relationships. Joining someone else on their road or combining them so to speak, though I never learnt to ride a bike but I do trust him and I know he trusts me. So I may suggest one of those double passenger bikes this evening in London rather than the tube.

I ask you all your opinion because of; anonymity, distance, perspective and variance, The question is one I thought suited poets, writers, readers, those who have lived or felt it. I've known my boyfriend for 5 months (on Sunday) and on Sunday night he told me he loved me. I said "how happy I was that I was with someone who was so confident and so sure about themselves that you know so soon, but I'm just not ready to say it and when I do I want to be 100% sure". It upsets me deeply that I don't think I feel it yet when in the past those I have felt it for have been instantaneous though unrequited (two occasions). It frustrates me because I fear that unless I say it back he'll feel I don't care for him at all. It confuses me because of the implications if I do and that unrequited love is separate from mutual love. There aren't enough adjectives to describe how amazing he is and if I could force myself to feel what I thought was love in the past I would but it doesn't feel the same. He keeps saying it and I feel really mean not being able to say it back as I'm not going to until I'm sure. There's only so many ways to rephrase what I said on Sunday and I Han Soloed him this evening on the phone, I felt like such an ass, he said "what do I have to do, why are you scared to say it". I just had to explain "it isn't something I can force and I won't lie to you" (he knows more about me than my best friends for heavens sake) We talk every day, I miss him terribly if I haven't heard from him or aren't with him, we're so different and similar it's maddeningly perfect yet imperfect. I'm analysing what I've written so far and am typing aloud. "It confuses me because of the implications if I do and that unrequited love is separate from mutual love. There aren't enough adjectives to describe how amazing he is and if I could force myself to feel what I thought was love in the past I would but it doesn't feel the same." - This is what jumps out at me, why am I comparing it, why must he be the same or measure up to what my preconceived notions are. What, am I waiting for it to evolve? Get better, deepen? What if it doesn't? Would it be enough? My love life is the one area that I've always been introspectively blind (in therapy sessions to build up hours to accredit my future Msc/Phd & to be on the other side of the chair for the power differential). I have additional thoughts but I don't know if there constructive, power differentials within the relationship (which all relationships have on one level). Life stages (he came out because of me, loves me, yet still feels odd with the boyfriend title). I just don't know anymore, he's so expressive with his emotions so open and full of life and feels them so strongly and deeply. Whilst I feel comparatively i'm very tactile in how I display affections, mannerisms I reserve for family I've noticed I now do for him. I'm very reserved and it would take something to make me apoplectic to loose my temper. He makes me so happy and I want to rationalise the impossible; I just don't want my unwillingness not inability to say it push him away. (I often write silly notes like these for myself on an evening if we're not together but wanted to see in this case what the world thought instead of the bin).

Seeing as Tom Daley is the background on my phone if I he is now Cam I hope Cam spends a lot more time with Will /whistles innocently.

Whilst we know the serious implications of what Marie has done if she is involved with Ferris and Kyle to such an extent (which I think is rather clear). I doubt she realises the seriousness of what she's doing for two seconds. To her it is a just a another cruel way to "get back at Will" for all her perceived slights especially having been removed as future Queen Bee so effortlessly by Will (obviously Will wouldn't be Queen Bee but forgive the phrasing). Using Noah, High School drama, STD's etc is just a means to an end by reestablishing her perceived natural order. She'd never been challenged before in this regards and as we've seen is very much a girl of entitlement and her position. Whilst I think a "typical" family of their wealth and power would reallocate Marie to a boarding school etc. I don't see this happening in the CAP saga simply because she is to much an interesting story arc to move things along in secondary school (middle school/high school?). Will despite his maturity and physicality is still in requirement of schooling and can't jet around all year buying properties, sleeping with the construction crew and the boy next door (though I did think the story arc was sweet & therapeutic for will after Tony/Rome). Claire and Jack are a case of perhaps to little to late, now no one is a perfect parent it isn't possible. I do think however to not have instilled the sense of family which is the life blood of the family (as thankfully literal blood isn't as important) a major oversight on their parts. She is literally biting the hand which feeds, trying to destroy the family from within because she isn't getting her own way and it perplexes me because at the end of the day those who consider us family and we consider ours are such important threads to a healthy existence. Will was great from the school to the limo, even the subtle touches with Kai and wanting to talk to him longer than usual because he isn't an island and requires help like everyone even if it was just listening. My money is on Brad as an apology, though remains to be seen. I really think their relationship is going to blossom when Will becomes an adult in Brads eyes not a piece of paper. When JP lays the law down on Marie I cannot wait, he's easily if not the favorite character for me in terms of being an entity. The closest to the sort of Godfather archetype CAP has in my opinion.

This looks intriguing till the rest of the world wakes up for Saturday thank you .

Considering how much I relish every single chapter of both the Bridgemont and CAP saga I really should be more active on the forums and have just seen this! It's impossible to decide Mark, I'd have to re-read each in one go to distinguish which is my favorite. I have suggested the stories to numerous people who I know read online fiction and they all enjoy the stories, so the quality was assuredly there from the get go (to be lucky enough to rediscover the series and read them anew). All I do know is that whilst I wasn't lurking for the entirety of the first 5 years I certainly will be for the next 5, so thank you for these wonderful tales.

Know I'm about two months late to the party regarding hank and lesbians but having grown up around a lot of lesbian couples and "gay" in general very rarely (maybe like twice out of the dozens I've encountered) do they look _that_ butch if anything it's a niche thing. I suppose if hank has to be butchish*. http://t1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQXTFcCle4bu2C4dCDzrdswAMxSipLnksjy-Pt8VBt7zMkObUlw ? or even more so being a police officer? http://t3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQsZhBYESBn2U0ajncRvlIMJR-ujYuF8Ed2YlBIaAjy4m8SXaH1 ? Left naturally.

Another fantastic chapter, you do spoil us!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=-xOUCQfzE4M#!

I think this is the only book I've read that has ever actually gotten my heart racing "literally", whilst they where in the swells of the hurricane. I've thoroughly enjoyed every moment with Trevor, Shane, Joel & Lisa and even Bridget who I liked maybe more then I should have. I started reading around 2 years ago and I just feel so privileged to be allowed to be able to read something which clearly has taken such a lot of love to create. I read Dan Browns new novel over the weekend and finding this today I can certainly say I know which ending I preferred! It'll be sad to not have my weekly fix anymore but thank you for the journey it has been quite the pleasure.