Mark92

Hey guys Thank you Joann we are having fun together, its not always smooth, but show me a relationship that is. Hugs for both of us are always welcomed. Hi Breeze, I fear most things, as big as I am, its the unknown more than anything. Talking is always good. Hello James, I have never felt like that. So I am not going to comment. Just wish you some calm in all that. Things might get better, there is always hope right? And me? Well the shrink came on an informal visit on Sunday. My doctor brought him along. They are good buddies and came to tea. Well I was up at five going through so many of my little rituals, that all stem from nerves. I let Baz and Lukey do the main chores while I concentrated on the house and baking. I've got a lot of weird rituals too that concern more personal things like washing my hair, takes an hour, because of the way I have to do it, like a compulsion. Anyway I had worked myself up into a frazzle for nothing. He was cool, he didn't ask me any questions about my past. He said he could get a good chunk of it from my doc. I made them tea and cake, and he watched me make it, and then I made them dinner too. He kept complimenting me how I do everything on auto. I dont know how I do it, I just do. They looked round the farm, there is no problems there I am an award winning farmer,. Is that bragging? You decide. I have said many times before farmer Mark, is a totally different person to Marky Mark. It was a fun day and I enjoyed it. The afternoon me and Baz brought in the rest of the hay, and the evening was with my baby. I went to bed smiling for once. Hugs all

Suprised you liked the card with my ugly mug on it Love you Unc stay up please

Happy Happy Birthday Conner Have the very Bestest day my friend :hug:

Sorry I haven't been about Unc I'm a bit behind with everything right now. But I am always thinking of you, you know that anyway Hurry back please

Hey all I've been away from here a couple of days, enjoying everything Stuby Busy with animals, inspections, vaccinations and a whole lot of what not. Looking forward to getting into the antho's, I'm halfway through a KC book I bought. And trying to catch up with everyone, when I can I get the shrink nearer the end of the month, it will be okay, or at least that is what I keep telling myself. I hope everyone is doing good?? Poor Unc is having the worst of times with weather and connection. Just want to wish all you beautiful people, the very best there is. Hugs all round

Hi from me and the bf Stuby AKA Agaith It's great here, you will love it

Are you talking about Stuby's behind? He's my love monkey

Why do we need too??

So sorry Lacey sending you a big farmer hug Get well soon please Hugs all round

A little confused now LOL I'll go back to KC's The only embarrassing sexual encounter? Would have to be when Baz and Lukey saw me yanking. But I have to confess, It wasn't me that was embarrassed, it was them Same Q

What's Latter Days ???

You cheeky sort I write stories too LOL But thanks for the compliment

Me and my bf are both from UK Stuart Both authors, Welcome btw he's a Stuart too AKA Stuby

I didn't have any good nicknames, apart from old Sam, I was "lanky bugger", or "big lad". Greg my postman started the "wildman" one. And now i'm just Marky to most. Oh Marky Moo from Stuby's mum , and sweetheart from his dad lol.

Hey guys Joann, that was a wonderful thing to do, if everyone was like that, the world would be so much brighter. It's good to see you all keeping your heads up, and living the best you can. For me, my head is at a place where, I've decided to see a shrink again. Hoping on hope that he isn't a total prick the last one was. I have a new doctor, my old one was in his seventies. My new one is female and as Yorkshire as they come. Says what she means and no messing. We do that here, I can talk to her, and have a laugh with her too. It's going to be very informal, she is bringing him on a Sunday, to look round the farm.She has been friends with him for a long long time, so she knows him well. I'm not around as much lately, just because Stuby is at home, and I need to be with him. Stay well and keep happy my friends. Hugs all round

Hey guys Everything you have just said is the truth Rob . I think about what I have. Number one is Stuby, I put him before anything now. The first person I have ever loved and who loves me. I cling to him somes days, and he gives me an internet kiss and a hug and just says, "I'm here baby, I'm always here." And I crawl back up again. I have my farm, my land, my animals. I'm comfortably off. And yet, I still have nightmares, I still dread getting up somedays. I still have dark days, Something reminds me of mum, or a letter about something she did. I even get letters now and then from her cronies, asking me to go back to the flock. No fucking way! And then there are the best times,when I'm laughing so hard with Stuby and his family my tears wet my cheeks. His mum or dad or sister, tell me to call them mum dad and sister. I have a family now. There are times me and Stuby cuddle up together albeit on skype, but we watch programmes and films, play games and play naughty games too. we laugh, cry and love. But not only that. I have here, I'm here everyday. Sometimes I have time to post, sometimes it's a quick catch up. The best thing is I'm learning and growing, I visit the gate every single day now, sometimes it's easy and I can get through it, and be comfortable with it. If I have had a bad night, I get close, but not too close, the fear returns. I back away and go back to the house. My lifeline PC always on, so I can reach out and find someone. This thread is a comfortable cosy, living room, where friends meet and talk. It's a nice place to be. What this cosy room has is empathy. And so much love and kindness. It awesome. Hugs to all

Hahaha I love pigs too, and to eat them I love the shiny, new, techy, gadget, collections of every kind. Always getting told By Stuby family it's all getting sorted LOL Same Q

Well occupied by a cute farmer and his pigs, the damp comes later you need the cold too?

My 19th, it was the first I actually celebrated. I have GA, I have new friends, and I have the most wonderful guy in the world What do you enjoy shopping for most??

What about a Yorkshire Moors farm?

*Sigh* Well I finished it, didn't want too. I think you couldn't have ended it any better. It fits. I agree Scott may not be ideal, but nobody is perfect. Your description of Shelby, I could see her clearly, and Amanda, sheer genius. I'm so sad to see the end of this KC. I can now concentrate on the book I bought, and give you time to write the next awe inspiring tale. Well done KC, huge hugs and bye Gibby

Hi All Welcome James, You may not like hugs, but you get them here anyway LOL. I hate the god squad too, my mum was a nut job, where that is concerned. And she had a bunch of cronies who kept that at the forefront. You are older and wiser, and I have nothing to tell you that would help. Your posts here and on FB are usually political, and I know Jack Shit about politics. In fact I don't know much about anything, apart from what I do. Why do you hurt? I understand the rest. Been there, done that even at my age. You are welcome to scream, shout,rant, rave about anything here there are plenty of shoulders to cry on, ears to listen, as well as hear. And even a size 13 boot if you need it. Hugs to the rest of you Stay happy folks

Can we talk about bollock hammocks instead???

Wish I could do something Unc

With you all the way and anytime Rob, you are a really special guy yourself you know? You're used to me having a laugh, taking the piss and giving you the swift kick occasionally. Buddies matter. I hope your mum recovers quickly. And give us a nudge when you want to chat again