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Happy Birthday Kiltie Have a fantastic day, From me and Stuby

Hey All I run out of likes so quickly but I promise I'll catch up with them The problem with the internet says its resolved now, so we will see after work. I had a female doctor come out today and she was awesome replacing my 72 year old white haired doctor I knew would come. I have always recoiled from women, for obvious reasons. Anyway. We talked fopr an hour. About what mum really died of. What risks there are to me. Diabetes, Anaemia and Depression. All need some urgent attention. I nearly cried telling her about the depression side of things, but once again she just smiled and waited patiently. So several blood tests, further appointments and miore prescriptions and things should improve. Healthwise at least. Harcallard stay strong my friend Unc, Thank you, your always there, and Mikey's right. Take some time for you too. Mikey What can I say? You are a great friend and a slight pain in the arse too Which is GREAT!!! Welcome back Roan, It's good to have you back. Hugs to all

Hi Guys I'm all out of likes again Just here for a bit of a moan today. So stressed I could pull every hair out one by one. Sunday is my one full day, per week with Stuby while he's working. And guess what? Most of the west side of Britain is on and off internet all day. We pulled every wire out, reset, rebooted and everything else we could think of to have as much time as we could together. We managed to get a full half hour just before his bedtime. So silver lining I guess. All

Good to have you back Rob

Welcome back Joe We have all missed you. Things will soon settle down into a familiar routine. Hello huggable Mikey take one yourself Depressions and stresses effect us all differently, one story may be brutal the other more very hurt feelings. But to the sufferer, one is as bad as the other. It isnt a competion as to who has the worst story. They all matter. And I can only repeat, say it here, or email, or messenger, all will be heard and responded too Hugs to all

Hi Joann Always glad to have an extra ear in here. Thank you Oh Unc, I miss you so much, not just because you listen but because you always have your right boot on too. I hope you can de-stress soon. And all is well with your dad.

Hi all Harcallard I cant say anything about Nathan, because I didn't know him, apart from saying Hi occasionally in chat. What I did see was how he hurt others. Regardless of, if he did die, If he faked the whole thing. Or if he was just trying to be accepted and shown affection. We will all probably never know. Hopefully time heals as always and things improve once more. Podga Hi, We all have different ways of dealing with depression, and I for one didnt grow up through any teen TV. Mine was old black and white films and old programmes farmer Sam used to watch. TV was sinful in my house. I have a lot of old fashioned thoughts and ways some call strange. But when you think my only influences came from farmer Sam in his 60's, Kate in her 50's and my own mum in her 40's its hardly suprising. My aim is to improve myself and try to learn what I missed out on. You have a lot of wise words and truthful ones too. Thank you Darling Lily what can I say? You already know I have an ear, and I am so glad I got to cheer you up a bit. And you have my phone too so call me if you need too. Its okay Do what you said you were going to do. I'll help if I can

I learned something from this thank you KC

Well my cute little muppet, what can I say? That was an incredible read. I manned-up of course and didnt even blink at what happened to Gibby (bet he cant tell i'm fibbing). And the hot bits were hot too, a little too much, in my missing Stuby state Absolutely perfect KC! Very well done

Happy Birthday Sara Have a really great day!!

Phew It's Sunday afternoon and I've hung on until now. What an amazing chapter, well worth the wait I like the way Tanner keeps surprising Gibby that is charming. But the end was so sad poor Gibby. But poor Tanner too. I would love to see that room it sounds very cool Looking forward to seeing how the police contact widens out. As for the teenagers being cruel. There is a saying over here "Theres nowt crueler than kids." Kind of fits here. Great chapter KC looking forward to the next

Unc you adopted me soon after joining GA we had a past linked through pain. Mine was my mum yours was your dad. And I went through the nursing process for two years as she got worse. Her troubles were a lot grosser than your dads. You dont get half the recognition that you should. To cope how you do and still be here for everyone on GA and FB. My thoughts are with you Unc.

I have been avoiding this thread for a couple of days. I really dont want to blather. But I am okay I do appreciate all the support and the hugs too. Thank you. Harcallard, what can I say? Your friends dont sound much like friends too me, but thats only my opinion. You have to judge for yourself. I hope things improve for you. i dont forgive easily and its the painful things I dont forget. But thats my negative side. There is so much good here at GA, so many good people. Not only for the nice things but some telling you to pick yourself up or you'll get a kick up the jacksie. And I appreciate it all. Hugs all

Happy Birthday Renee Have the best day ever!

Hey folks Cassie I'm not letting you down here because I'm starting my climb back up. And you will be in my way So sit on my shoulders and I'll drag us both up. No way am I letting Unc give me a kick in the jacksie so get back up girl Thank you Unc and Mike Its such a good feeling to have back up. And much appreciated too. Hugs all round

Hi folks Well I'm back in the pit again and right now I dont want to climb out. Please, Please I dont want sympathy, I really dont. This is my attempt to get it out of my head before it explodes. I am a good guy, I know I am, and its the one thing I cling to. That I do my very, very best to help and be there when I can. I'm as thick as fucking pig shit education wise. I dont pretend I'm anything else. I know farming, and a moderate amount of English. The rest is pure self taught. I was alone most of my life and reference books were my passion, I was forced to read the bible three times. why not bits of everything else too?. I really am wondering why the fuck I bother, why do I care? Well I do know its because I really do give a shit about all of you. Oh and I'm crying my heart out, and I dont care if that makes me less of a man, so yarboo sucks to those that thinks it does. Almosat forgot to say hugs all

Thanks baby I love you too

Thanks Carrington Now Y_B, You dont know me as well as some of the others, my past makes me who I am. What you call "Scientology" was my attempt at making it more light hearted. I didnt write the post for pats on the back or anything like that. I was simply stating a truth, and the things I dont care about, I really dont. Yeah admittedly I'm strange a little weird maybe. And maybe I dont come across how people think I should. In the depression thread I write how I feel and it helps. I've got so many hang-ups and issues, little rituals I play out every single day, would seem odd to anyone. But they stem from my past. My past, not yours or anyone elses. I am who I am. And for the record I've been out and about. I have seen people and met people. I will admit to the first post hitting hard. It did feel like an attack. The reason Stuby sent the PM, was he was with me when I read your post, and he loves me. I didnt tell him to write it. I have never asked anything from anyone, apart from help with my writing. I dont ask for sympathy or pats on the back. GA is a life line for me. Enough said.

Thank you Marzipan Hey Joann Talking has always helped me, even when nobody is listening. Join in on the depression thread now and again. Someone always needs an ear, a shoulder, hug or a nice steel toe capped boot. And my dear friend and fellow Yorkshire man Yettie I ran out of likes but I owe you one buddy Since you joined I found a new friend and hopefully a long lasting one. Thanks all

Well you all know me and Stuby do everything via skype so its a mixture of all three I groan and talk and give instruction and roar pretty loud at the end. Whereas Stuby whimpers and moans and just listens. Apparently my voice is hynotic and sends him ga-ga LOL. And there are screams from his end when he has final release. So all three for us two.

Thank you Louis, I see the same qualities in quite a few here. You too have such an outlook My love and respect dear friend

What I care about and what I don’t. First of all I want to say GA is not just about writing and reading. It’s about people too. The one thing I’m proud of, before I joined GA was the fact that I have the quality of acceptance. I don’t care about: Your colour, your looks, or your dress sense, you could wear trousers, dresses or walk round with knickers on your head. It doesn’t matter. What your sex is or orientation, do you have a fetish for rubber or wax or just get off on having a quiet wank in a corner? Whatever it is, it’s none of my business and makes you, just that….. You. Do you have a god or not or believe in whatever. Again, none of my business, and as long as you don’t try and convert me. Do as you please. I don’t care how much money you have, do you live in a big rambling house a tiny flat or a shed? It is none of my business. What about disabilities, deformities, issues and hang-ups, mental or physical health? Once more that’s your business. We are human and different, and what makes us different is who we are as individuals. I think I’ve covered everything there, and if I have left anything then that too, doesn’t matter to me. Things I do care about. How you are today, and what makes you tick, I’m fascinated with how people live and who they are as people. Not because I’m nosy or need to know everything. But just what makes you...You. I care about if you are happy or sad, can I help in some way? Do you need an ear to scream at or whisper something in confidence? Do you need a smile or a hug, or someone to give you a quick kick up the jacksie and tell you to quit whining and get on with it? I was told once that I have the quality of not only listening but hearing too, or maybe the other way round I can’t remember. The simple reason for that is I care. Your life, all of you, is so very different from mine. And with each new friend with their life story, enriches my own. I have never been in a room with more than five people in it, and two of those were little girls. I guess the point of all this is just to say, come one come all. If I am not busy with my farm or with my man. Then I’m all yours. I’m out of here. Hugs all

Its just a way of expressing hope. I dont pray for anyone, You have to believe in something for that. Its just a way of saying "I'm thinking of you" or I'm hoping you will get better soon". Some people do pray, and you have to respect that is what they do. Just because you dont do it. Doesnt mean others are the same. Good to see you getting better Cassie, what you go through at home and bored, is what I call "The bad side" It creeps in and upsets your thoughts and turns everything negative. But a little distraction and I tell it to sod off. Hey Harcallard good to see you again, Hugs all round

Is this the pic I'm supposed to be getting madam ? You look beautiful I've always said so

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