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Another good one, Renee. I felt the emotion. I don't like his sister!!

Nice job Renee. Now my TV's looking at me.

Amazing, Percy. I will never look at my pen the same!

Too much sleep is tiring. And yes,please. I will have some coffee. I go thru' gallons. I guess I've been wanking for close to 45 years. Damn good at it now. It is a great distraction. Releases tension. Flushes the old prostate. My eyes are bad tho'. I read Stuby's poem about you two. Thats got to be good. I had to shower. Take care of that headache. Stay happy. Thanks for the chuckles you wanker !!!

Hi Mark,Clara,Celes,Harold and all. Mark,stay positive. You sound great. I too owe so much to all of you here at GA. I no longer fear facing my emotions and the hurt,pain,and turmoil I find buried there. I now have confidence I can find a level somewhere between the deep depression and the sky high manic phases. If I do sink into a depression I will not fear the emotions I have to face to climb out. I now embrace and accept the powerful feelings within myself. They are part of me. Happy /sad. Positive/negative. It is all part of me and I like ME. I have never said that.. I LIKE ME. Those three words dispell a lifetime of self hate and fear. I owe it all to you guys. And especially Marky. You will never know how much you mean to me young man.!! El Viejo has spoken!!! Clara, Celes, I go without sleep. (I fell asleep driving several times a couple nights ago) It is more trying to burn the candle at both ends. Just not making time for sleep. Eventually you get stressed and CAN"T sleep. Clara, you had it way worse. I am glad you feel better. I tried Xanex etc. Prozac. Don't like them. I feel odd on them. Not in control. I have epilepsy ( I control quite well) and more recently, post concussion syndrome from a car wreck. I'm a mess without adding meds. I did the self-help with pot and booze for years too. You always have a friend when you have pot. When it's gone,so are your friends. My neurologist for epilepsy (saw him 30 years ago) said a little pot wouldn't hurt me. Doctors didn't admit that back then. Pretty cool old guy. My siezures are only triggered by reading. Go figure. I have been a voracious reader since 1st grade. I just have to be careful. I can usually feel a warning and stop reading. So far,reading on the monitor hasn't bothered me. Harold,I have always found religion very confusing. I take the basic idea of redemption and ignore the rest. There is a higher power. Man will never truly know till the end all the facts. Don't they think they know it all tho'? I now post to notepad and copy and paste to forum. I have had to rewrite too many posts that got erased. Cockpit error,mostly. Hey, I posted a new poem here @GA and one @FSO. Please go see and give feedback.Light ,funny stuff. Love to all, Joe Edit: sorry ,I'm a day behind here.Mark. What do I feel right now? It's Thurs. night@11pm. My brother will be calling soon. He calls every night now. Thank you Google Talk. I am happy and content. I will go to work in 2 hours. Easy night tonight. I saw the kids today. Great time. My problems will get worked out. I got an email from an old on-line pal. Had lost touch.Now he's back.Good. Good. Good. Just a very good day. Oh and the weather today was the best . sunshine. Just a hint of chill to say it's Feb. An Mmmbop day. HOPE SPRINGS ETERNAL.

Wow,I am stoked!!! I just recieved an email from T. Finally!! He is doing all he can to bring the saga back. He has amassed a mailing list and will alert when able to post somewhere. For now he is busy editing the 169 chapters. He hopes to continue writing the rest of the story soon. God bless you T (and Squeegy)

Hey Mark, I was concerned.You have been so quiet. So good to see you!! I felt condemned by god as a child/young man. Then got no emotional support or input or direction. Life was all about trust in god.Trust in god. Yeah, I trusted that he will send me to hell. But sure,he's going to help me deal with all that life throws at me in the meantime. I am only recently finding a concept of a god that fits into my right -brain thinking. Roan, I agree with your views. Religion separates and divides. I do not believe IT is of god. It is a human construct and a tool of war and hatred, etc. While I am now able to embrace spirituallity, I have no use for religion in the way I define it. People cling to the Old Testament rules and regulations. Or at least the ones they pick and choose to use. Those were over-ridden by the redemption given us in the New Testament. The old ways no longer apply. Mark, nature is god in all his glory. I feel more presence in the mountains or by a river or quiet stream than I ever felt in a church. Even just stepping outside and reallizing how fresh the air smells or how blue the sky. These are what represent god. You have the perfect spiritual retreat in your woodlot, from what I can see in pics. Absorb the beauty and the energy and give back by finding the beauty and energy within yourself. I know it's there. I see it. Embrace one tiny scrap and build on it until you can accept and love all of you. Even the ugly parts. And your efforts to keep this thread going has more impact than you will ever know. I have a lifeline here. I have YOU and Roan and Stu and Bee and Lily and Clara now and so many others who are now Family. It is a blessing bestowed by you. You have a VERY big place in my Family and in my heart. And you have the same impact on so many others here. I must wipe off these good tears. I have duties as Grampa today.It's off for icecream. All my love, Joe

Comic, I likedTthe Accident. IT had a good ending. I liked The Call. Not a good ending. Leave 'em wanting more, right. .

Well done. There is a sequel,right?

As someone else said,Dessert Dropping is what brought me to GA. I read the whole thing after it's completion. I agree, waiting for a new chapter each time would have added to the overall drama. The reviewer did state "good writing can overcome much"..."was satisfying"..."incredibly sweet". There were many,many other positive elements in the review. We have to let people say what they feel and we can agree or not. Please don't bash the reviewer or those that comment. EDIT: I agree. Anonymity is what is at fault here. Not the review. I think this is just BAIT to get Dom to respond and I hope it works!!!Dom, you have the floor.

Not a simple "Love it", a very profound "Love it" And a resounding NOT "Rubbish"

This is my favorite story. I know what you mean,Cia. lot's of angst. At the time I read it I was purging a lot of old teenage angst. It fit my mood well. I think the characters were people I could relate to. A very good story in my opinion. And yes, Dom should at least say hello!

Hi Clara Welcome to the thread. My heart aches for Bee. I feel so much energy from her. Bee you know how much I love you and care(and cry) for you. Clara,I hope you can help. Clara, you express yourself very well. I feel like I have known you forever.I have a strong conviction that there is a god. I am trying to reinvent a god that works for me. The one I grew up with let me hate myself. That can't be what it's all about. I have total respect for my parents and family. They have embraced religion and made it the focal point of their life. For them that is the only way. For a hurting little boy that needed help being told to pray just didn't fill the need. I still carry the basic belief that Christ redeemed us and we have a future after this human struggle ends. I think that is all that needs to be said. God did not intend to be USED as a hate monger.God did not intend for us to be perfect little angels. 1/3 of the angels "fell" after all.

Bee, I've gone back and read this a few times. I like how you put it out there. No holding back.

Hi Bee Every time I read your work I cry. You sure put it all out there. If you can ever use a big hug or a soft shoulder or an understanding ear I'm well equipped.

Hi. I want to present this as a gesture to Roan. It is coming from my heart. Please give your support to Roan. Love ya big guy, Joe http://www.gayauthor...etogayauthors/2 Find Roan here: http://www.gayauthor...ser/15726-roan/ I had this done before Roan put his first story up. I quickly had to add more to it after reading.

Thank you,JC. More on the way

No doubt CassieQ. He will go far

Hi Ashes, I want to thank you for starting this thread. My first click at GA was Forums. Second was Q&A, Third was Depression. I signed up and center around this thread. I brought my recliner and my coffee pot over here,too. I want you to know how truly life- changing GA and this particular thread have been for me. Oh, and I have added your story to my Must Read list. Long list now,but good stories read fast. Much thanks Joe

Looks like a quiet day . Im going into analyze mode for a bit. I think most of our metabolism derives from protiens and other compounds in each cell. If we become depressed,that will effect chemicals expressed in the brain. The areas of the brain responsible for "happy" chemicals are not being activated. These chemicals react with our DNA and genes that would normally express are now suppressed. Genes normally dormant ,may now be activated. Eventually,as cells die and are replaced, all the new cells now are "programed" for this depressed state .In essence our entire body can be in "depression mode". This could explain irratic aches and pains, dietary issues, and other physical symptoms of depression. It could also explain why it's so hard to just "kick". I will go back to my room now

Thanks Nephy. I'll go look at it.(footsteps...creaking door...) EDIT: That looks perfect Neph. Thank you. I saw many familliar faces. I think I will feel right at Home.

HE'S A ROAN HE'S A ROAN HE'S AN EAGER YOUNG STALLION HE'S A ROAN HE RUNS WILD AND FREE HE'S A ROAN HE HAS CLAIMED THE MEDALLION HE'S A ROAN HE'S GOT SO MUCH TO SEE HE'S A ROAN HE'S GOT WISDOM AND FORESIGHT HE'S A ROAN HE'S GOT DIGNITY TOO HE'S A ROAN HE WILL CONQUER THIS DARK NIGHT HE'S A ROAN HE WILL BE THERE FOR YOU HE'S A ROAN HE HAILS US FROM DOWN UNDER HE'S A ROAN HE LIVES DOWN BY THE SEA HE'S A ROAN HE'S A HANDSOME YOUNG WONDER HE'S A ROAN HE'S A DEAR FRIEND TO

Hi I'm Joe. I'm still fairly new here. I'm honored to be here and blessed with tremendous support and friendship. My dilemma is ;I'm all excited and want to share with my family and friends. I need to post a few things on a str8 board. I've looked at a few.I Googled "writer's forums". They all look the same. What does one look for? Any help greatly appreciated, Joe

Roan,my friend, you are a talent. So much emotion. Also, maturity and dignity. I will look forward eagerly for the next one. The young stallion has spoken!!!

Way to go Roan!!! Hell with sleep. I have to go check it out. Nice job. Made me cry. Very professional writing. Roan,the next one in my pipeline is just for you. Again, know you hold a chunk of my heart. Mark, I will have one for you. They present themselves to me in their own time. You, too are in my heart. Lily. I hope I can get to read that soon. Here,s my latest one. I hope you enjoy. (Have you checked out the writers prompts) http://www.gayauthor...ritingprompts/1