mayday

Another chapter to reread again and again and to love, Parker. No surprises that Andy's insecurities still show - at least to us, if not to his new family and friends. He definitely needs to talk about his fears and nightmares with his doctor. Garrett's warning hints at some new complications. You do know how to keep up suspense. Wonderful conversation with Mrs. Marjorie, great to see her so completely perplexed for once and genuinely happy for Andy and Zander. And of course meeting Nonna. Lovely scene! Can't get enough of it. But also: That Andy has no idea how to celebrate with all the trimmings, clothes, flowers, decorations... rings so true and is so sad at the same time. They still need their best men, don't they? On the other hand it shows us, too, that he is in for the marriage itself, the security he hopes for, not having a party and being the focus of everyone's attention. What also emerges: he is completely unaware of what kind of person he himself is, even though people tell him all the time (now), he can even find it in his heart to understand Bruce Mack. What a wonderful young man has emerged! Thank you, Parker, for Andy, Zander, and the remaining chapters - may they be numerous, even if that would mean spring will be long in coming to the white north country.

All my way home I was looking forward to another chapter which would make me feel good for myself and happy for Andy, Eustace, Zander and... so thank you for this one. And in a way it was also good to see Zander admiring what Andy accomplished during the weeks before he came to Blackburn. Somehow Eustace seemed more alive in this chapter, more of a character, now that we can see him without Andy's constant fear and worries, I like his humour especially, that he can laugh at himself, his reaction to Andy's middle-name is priceless. Zander so insecure - that was a bit of a surprise, too. There were glimpses of it before, but never so blatant, after all, we know that his fears are perfectly groundless... I wonder what the next week will bring... ... so thank you, Parker, for this one.

This is a bittersweet chapter, Parker. On the one hand it is good to know that Andy is not alone in the world anymore, drifting and running, but with a support network of family, loving, caring. On the other, what will it mean to him that his father systematically kept love and care from him for years? Seeing Eustace again - what a wonderful outlook for Andy. And knowing that somebody is actually missing him - what will it mean for him... the first personal letter ever to reach him. He must feel overwhelmed (and it makes me look forward even more to your next chapter.) Of course I would like to have closure and justice done. In a way, the mist seems to be clearing - I would hazard a guess it was one of the brothers who murdered Andy's mother. I also guess that Garrett will inform Judge H. of the new developments and that important conversations will take place on Allan's way to the airport. Maybe this will end in some more people being invited to the wedding, not just Andy's old relatives. And I guess that this will also affect Ms Chandler's plans... and not in a way she likes. This almost seems to point to a fairy-tale ending - poetic justice at work. The real surprise for me was Ambrose. Not so much his tenacious investigations, but him caring for Andy so much... probably because we used to see him through Eric's suspicious eyes. And I am surprised that Allan was less of a surprise for me. Probably due to the apprehension what Ambrose's arrival might mean to Andy. What I liked very much was the loving interaction of Andy during this crucial conversation, the love and protection he receives from Garrett and Monica, especially. So, thanks again for a really good chapter even though I am pretty sure that not many more are left for us to wait for...

What a wonderful present for Valentine's day! Lot's of hope for love between Peter and Patrick, some hope for a sick boy. I am so glad to read that you won't stop here. Thank you for sharing this story!

Phew - another cliff-hanger, though obviously things are not too bad for Andy, unless I have misread the first sentences (wishful thinking perhaps...) Yes, A.W.'s actions seem to make sure Andy does not get away again. He may have untangled the web of Stefan-Eric-Andy, incapable of leaving unsolved mysteries behind - the question of course being how - can he as a police officer get at legal information on foundlings and new candidates for fostering? May there be links to the Mack-Chandler party? But you have never surprised us with such Deus-ex-machina easy solutions when things get complex. Who is the second person in the car? His father? That would be a nice surprise, but A.W. does not seem to be there for a social visit. There's no help for my burning curiosity and sympathy with Andy facing another hurdle but wait for Tuesday to come... You seem to turn the screws tighter with every chapter... today it is difficult to thank you as this chapter deserves, cliffhangers start to get in my way seriously.

So many open questions - moving moments. Thank you for this so very promising beginning.

Another chapter to make your readers smile - full of loving interaction and openness - two more daddies to be? Thanks for this chapter - it was worth waiting for.

Wow once more! I could not believe it! What an astonishing idea... But then - why not? Why would Andy not be able to solve his problems once and for all? Marrying Zander and nobody can do anything about it, if Judge Harrison got it right and I'm pretty sure that Garrett's confidence is well-placed. Please let them be right in this... Venom from Bruce. Cold hatred. Makes me shudder. Reminds me of my own country's bloody persecution of anything 'different' last century. Andy has gained self-confidence. His choice of vault pole - where he flopped twice last time - without feeling stupid or a loser! His conscious change in attitude - he has recognised his own potential for decision-making, he takes his fate into his own hands. His dreams still wake him up at night but he does not seem paralysed by them as he used to be. And then he is the one to offer the solution, the comfort, reassurance, as Zander well perceives. Proposing in the barn - among animals rather than in a room - half outside, half inside. Andy's old safe haven in a way and we know from his weeks on the farm that his hide-out in the hay felt like home. He has made a decision. No more running away. Confronting problems. He has grown up. I would not like to have to confront him in some years - he will be a formidable lawyer or whatever he may take up. How will his idea be put into practice, though... waiting again for your next instalment... Thank you, Parker, for another great chapter.

I am still reeling from this chapter, feeling Andy's fears which he seems to be trying to overcome by writing and worries - probably justified - of what Bruce Mack and Ms. Chandler and/or his aunt will try next. Terry is right, these people are playing dirty and the only one who knows how ruthless they can be is you. So I guess I simply have to be patient to find out. Otherwise: lot's of progress for Andy. He shows a new closeness to Mr. Stevenson, referring to him by his Christian name before 'correcting' himself in court. He takes the initiative and encouraged Jeff, introduces him to Zander and Kaz, unaware of his boyfriend's jealous feelings - at least that's my explanation of Zander's standoffishness towards Jeff. And they do exactly what Kaz encourages them to do: Show their character and strength instead of lowering themselves to Bruce's level. And they win! (And Bruce won't be able to stomach losing the race to people he despises, has he ever learnt to lose?) But THE turning-point for me was Andy's running towards his own victory and himself, not from something like before. That was the wow-moment for me. And that only shortly after he had run away to hide again - which is perfectly understandable under the circumstances. Actually I would have been surprised if he had asked an adult for help, his teacher, the headmaster, his parents. I believe he has not yet shed his deep mistrust of grown-ups, especially those in authority. Maybe the court hearing (is that the right word?) will help him a bit in this, as might the experience of somebody openly feeling for him as Dr. Shea does, something he seems to be aware of for the first time - it has happened before, I know, but I doubt the Stevensons' aching for him and his former pain and suffering (when he showed them his scars and during the tale of his journey to Blackburn) registered with him in his turmoil then. Heart-wrenching to read of how he misses Zander at night, his very own stalwart against loneliness, fears and panic. Yet it is also comforting to know that he manages. So, lot's of progress - despite of the short period in the closet - and lot's of potential for further complications, xlerox is only too right in that. Thank you again, Parker, for a great chapter!

Wow, Parker, you had my heart beating with this development out of the blue. And what blatant irony - to have the self-righteous now concerned for Andy's welfare of all people, of a boy who formerly was perfectly ignored by all those meant to look after a child's welfare while he was in very real danger and pain. Now, when he is with a loving family and happy and safe for the first time for almost 10 years, more than half his life, since his mother left (not sure about the time before, his uncle had been there, too...) this is beyond belief... Garrett has now turned out to be what others foresaw: Andy's champion. He does need one and one lawyer seems not enough to protect him... if I remember those allusions rightly from the chapter with the judge, there is abundant reason not to trust the local CPS (funds disappearing etc.). But what moved me was to feel again Andy in fear. Andy as he used to be for months. Yet I also felt that he had grown and matured. He could think more clearly while he was being interviewed and manhandled by that woman. He was not purely the victim any more, paralysed by fear. He seemed to be somewhat quicker and more self-assured in his assessment of this woman than in that one months ago of the police officer at Carlsberg. And he took far fewer thoughts/sentences to realise that running is not an option any more. Good for him. I remember him wondering if he had run far enough - perhaps he can realise soon that you never can run away from your own story... As if the harassment at school would not be enough. I love Terry and the reaction of the school and their friends at the table. Let's hope against all hope that this has been the worst and things are "over", in spite of the threats... You keep me on tenterhooks, Parker. Yet I cannot but thank you once more...

Beautiful chapter, I like the way Andy is completely unaware of his own good looks, even if Zander is telling him constantly that to him he is beautiful. I loved reading how Andy welcomes him downstairs and how they express their love upstairs, Andy's attentiveness as a friend, as a lover and that he is the one who takes the next step forward, how he is aware of Z's responses. And it is such a relief to know that his past terrible experiences pale against the present, how that present pushes his terrible past back and overcomes it partly. Still a long way to go, but we are getting closer to the we and the distinction between past and present of the beginning of the first chapter. Thank you, Parker.

What do you call what happened to Zander - a curve ball? Disquieting outlook for 10 athletes and for Greg, too... But I am impressed with Zander's way of dealing with it. Coach Simpson also seems to be a decent and fair man. How lucky Zander seems to be with a loving family. His capacity for empathy and his values must have come from somewhere - just as his parents learnt and taught him to be what and as he is. Some interesting scenes in store for us? Beautiful scenes, too, with the snowblower. Andy the expert, the miracle (albeit a small one) -worker. I love it. I am wondering why Mrs. M is so upset with the reverend concluding that Andy must be her grandson. We know nothing about her past and her family apart from being married and a widow. Andy asking the minister about love - he has grown so much more confident - amazing. And what a difficult, difficult question to ask and to answer. And it proves that he is dealing with his past and he does not hide any more. Good for him and Zander when the going gets tough in school. But your beginning has made it clear that on Monday a lot would be in store for Zander, and not all of it good. Can't wait for your next chapter... again... and thank your for this one.

Great beginning and a great variation of the situation in Cards on the table. More baggage for the two men to deal with, more viciousness but again supporting, loving and fair parents.

Spikey 582 and Xleroc have said it all - beautiful chapter

Thanks Parker, again a chapter which has been a pleasure to read. But you did have me on tenterhooks down to the last paragraph with your title even though you do not torture us with cruel cliffhangers. Departures. I knew about Zander going to a meet but what would be the second departure? The only one which seemed likely was for Andy and Mr. S to go to Carlsberg... No, so - relief! Is there a second meaning I am missing... I know that you do not choose your words at random, so - anyway - beautiful and convincing scenes. Also that Zander can guess what his father might have planned. There seems to be some surprise Kaz has planned for Andy to while away the weekend... I guess practically everything will be new to Andy - from spending a day with a friend or his new friends to meeting a track and field coach and trying out - this is a cliffhanger, albeit not a cruel one. so thanks

Great chapter again. How does Zander know what to do? He always seems to get it right. And progress, too, in therapy - it is so good to read after all the dark chapters in the beginning that Andy is finding himself and peeling off the layers of dirt and pain, even though he still has no idea how deserving and loveable he is - you show that beautifully Thank you for your writing

Yes, another great chapter, I can only agree wholeheartedly. I feel with both boys, the progress they are making - their parents are great, too. Looking at Andy's growing support group (the judge, the principal now, too) I cannot help wondering if he will need it and what might have been going on in Carlsberg, where everyone simply wanted either to use and abuse him or to get rid of him. What he will have to be up against and if his progress will make it easier for him to face whatever he has to face from C. What a wonderful boyfriend Zander seems to be. He sees everything in Andy that he himself cannot see yet. He proves it again, just as in his drawings. Thank you for your great story

I have been looking forward to every new chapter of your story for weeks now and cannot seem to get enough. Reading how Andy has been recovering and discovering himself has not always been easy - some of his experiences are so harrowing and terrible. But there have been so many moments when I felt relieved happy and for him. I was wondering whether he would see a psychologist and how he he would react. And again I cannot help but admire how consistent and realistic your descriptions and your moving story are in every chapter. I am so glad that he now has a doctor to help him who knows what impact treatment and checking out, touching can have on a young person who has suffered such terrible abuse. Dr. Wagner seems to have been unaware of his patient's reactions. And the Stevensons, too, have no idea what some of their everyday situations mean for Andy like his confusion over how to eat as a family, like his responses to Mrs. Stevenson in the car home from the mall, like the list of chores. By the way, in one aspect I do not quite agree with Oxala on this being the second time that he asserted himself. There was also the episode with the snow blower, where he in a way stood his ground, persisting in his shy way to be allowed to repair it, then his initiative in helping the priest, where he, too, acted, not just reacted, even asking for the machine he had just succeeded in repairing. Where his self emerged as helpful and considerate, grateful and kind. But I see that this was the second time where he actually asked for something for himself. The way he develops his self-worth is so moving. Thanks for another great chapter!

Great story telling, very moving. I wonder how Jason will learn to trust...

I am glad that you have published this story again because I have been trying to find it again. I love the scenes between the boys on the set and in the hotel.