Oh sweetie, never think that about yourself cause you are worth something to a whole lot of people and especially your husband. We here at GA and DIC all love you. You mean the world to us. You make us feel like living and brighten our daily lives with your presence. You are our King of peace and tranquility on here and never forget that. Mike is your King and he will always be there for you. Worrying just makes you look older and that is what happened to me and I was always told I looked way younger than I was. So never worry very much and let us listen to you to take the worry away as well as let Mike listen to your worries to help you through it and don't keep it bottled up.
Covid may still be here but it will eventually go away just like all pandemics have over the years, decades, and centuries. We as the children of God will be the backbone of getting rid of the germs by just doing what the medical world wants us to do cause God is backing us up and protecting us strong willed people.
As for the knitting you do, that is a calming hobby for you and also as I believe, even though I have not seen very much of your work, that you have a beautiful talent when you knit. My dad loved crocheting and it was beautiful just like your knitting. So I believe your beautiful art pieces of knitting is also bringing out the eautiful man that you are!
We all love you here and so does your husband, Mike, and all your family and friends. No one is perfect, except our God, so we all make mistakes and it brings us down. Let the love of what you love to do that brings that happy smile to your face always shine through the world for all to see.