I know just how you feel! We all that are depressed, should stay in a group, the kind of group that don't really want to die, but thinks about it a lot for a long time cause depression makes you think about it! It is a disease and I think when you do find the right one who helps you then that is the medicine that cures it! Let's call it I Don't Want To Die Group. I think the group like that would help others see themselves in others eyes and i think it will help to define your problem. But the true solution in what I believe is finding your true soulmate to help you survive!