xander

That is something to kinda think about. I like that they have To Love on there.

I used to have that all the time too, but that seems to have dropped a bit, but not as much as me dreaming.

Whoa... that one really shocked me about the blood highway thingy. Is it the same for Pepsi? I'm one of those people that can tell the difference between Pepsi, Coke, and Royal Crown Cola, ....you had to seen that episode of All in the Family to know what I'm talking about. I've been trying to cut back on pop lately though I love my mountain dew. Oh yea, heres a quick fact for dieters... * If you drink like eight, 8-12 oz glasses of water every day for like a week (you should everyday anyway), you'll lose like 5 lbs right away and it'll be water weight--all the extra water that your body has learned to hold on to to prevent dehydration.

I used to dream a lot, but I also rarely dream anymore. I used to actually have slightly clarovoyant dreams, where what I dream would happen in real life like a week or so later. I don't like scary movies, because I saw a scary show when I was little and havent liked scary shows or movies since. So that takes care of bad dreams for me . The last scary dream I had was like 5 years ago and it was about a vampire or something. I also find this interesting...my teacher and I were talking after school and she told me that she rarely dreams and when she does, they are stick people, all black and white, and scary ....

Hey.....umm.....it says there's an error and the file is like missing....do you have a direct link to it?

We've kinda done that. He kinda says it jokingly but he "acts" kinda homophobic. I know he's not probably because he does kinda gay gestures but not really but yea. Like our Math teacher gives us suckers (yea kinda weird that she's givin 9th graders suckers but yea) and he looks at me funny and pulls it in and outta his mouth and then laughs so I don't know if he's joking or what. If I was gay and he was gay, I know we could have a great life because we've always been there for each other and helped each other and though we've never said it for the fear of the reaction of the other, I know we love each other. I've always said that someday I want to have a loving wife and kids and I would like to experience having a kid and yea but I have always had a more then a slight attraction for guys. There are some girls that I'm attracted to and those are mostly the popular preppy time and kinda snotty but I am kinda attracted to them. Guys, let me know if someone finds or invents a redo-er machine, lol.

WOW- that was a lot. I thank you guys that replied but I still feel so confused. Before I continue more, I'll be 16 in July. My friend has given me so many clues over the years that he may be gay or bi, but I don't know if he is just joking or being silly or if he wants me to feed off of them. We have so many things in common and yet we're different and I know that if I do turn out to be gay, he's the one I want. I just wish like I could ask him if he was gay and tell him I was and see how he replied and undo it if he took it the wrong way or got freaked out. I do like the girl I'm going out with but only as a friend. I'm kinda stuck and wish she would break up with me so that we could just be friends because I wouldn't want to hurt her feelings if I did the breaking up. Back to my friend....he's also kinda stuck if he had feelings for me and we told each other our feelings because his girlfriend was suicidal for awhile and I know he does care for her and would'nt want her to do anything crazy. She had counseling and I don't know what her current state is but I think she would be happy with any hot guy because that's what attracted my friend to her. I just wish we could just be happy with each other because I am almost possitive he is gay or bi. Xander

I've been best friends with my friend since sixth grade and im currently in nineth. In eighth grade, I started to have strange feelings for him and I still don't know if he is gay or what, but when we started to get closer (nothing happened ), this girl asked him out and they've been going out for awhile. When they started going out, he started to put me second and I know some of it may be jealously, but I want to be with him. I prayed a few times if God would give me some sign of what to do or what to feel and I think I got a response. I had emailed one of my old favorite teachers for her opinion what carreer would be best for me and she replied with an answer and more. She said that what she worries most about in young people like myself is if we find someone that we can make happy and that that person can multiply our happiness beyond wonder. When I read that, the person that popped into my mind was my best friend. I'd like to see how my friend feels but there are a few milestones. One, his girlfriend, and two, about a week ago, one of my girl friends asked me out so I guess we're going out too. I don't really care what happens to his girlfriend because she's a witch to me, but I don't want to hurt this girl because she's been a good friend of mine for a while. But though all that, I really want to be with my friend and maybe, if God allows it, have a life together with him someday because he fits my teachers description perfectly. I am so confused......any suggestions?? Thanks, Xander