I have a strange tendency to absorb people's mannerisms if I'm around them for enough time. be it a ecularity in their speech or something they compulsivey do with their hands. It's usually just being around them that brings it out, ad I think it makes me easier to talk to for some people because they can see a bit of thmesleves in me, sublminally in a way, I guess.
But that's beside the point. I grew up freaking out about not fitting in and that's had a great impact on how I am now. I learned later the value of being unique, which still made many aspects of the personality I put forward dependent on those around me, it's merely how I try to not be them. I've changed myself frequently in my life, and as a result I supress memeories, deny sections of my life, and even avoid people I knew then because I've 'changed'. It's more I take what others see in me, want to see in me, or what I want them to see and then run with it. Oftentimes I'm comfortable doing so, but it never lasts forever. I think I've begun to settle down though, and maybe I've struck upon a persona I can stick to, it combines the elements of my past ones. I've always had the same anxieties, but its evolved into how I fit in with others to how I 'sync up' with others.