For me, beginning writing was something I tried a while ago, and like most other things I've made, I hated it and changed it relentlessly over and over, deleted it, made new ones. The more I went through this process, the more I knew what writing a good story was. It was more than just a place to create a fantasy for myself, it was creating a whole other world, with its own heroes and problems. A place where I could still escape to, but at the same time had a substantial plot with which to sustain itself. This was before I became an avid reader of gay stories and learned even more. I got a feel for what was out there, and identified what I wanted to read. I figured there must be others who wanted to read something similar, so I should put one out there as a favor to anynone else who did. I know that's a weird way to start, but it's how I started Underworld. I actually started Underworld several times, sometimes getting pretty far. I loved one of the beginnings I had, back when it was "Dakest Love" and the concept was different, I was thinking of posting it as an aside. Whatever, I like the one I have now. Anyway, what was scariest for me was knowing that my work, my feelings, my best attempt at writing, soemthing I cared about, would be viewable by anyone. Not just anyone, but everyone, people who'd been reading these types of stories for a while and had set a standard for them that I had to live up to. Posting also keeps me progressing with a story, instead of going back and changing the same few pages over and over. Once it's out there, I know "Okay, I can't change that anymore, I can just add on to it" so I go on writing. Underworld was the kind of thing I wanted to see on Nifty and such, and it was sort of, but not exactly. Finally, I got over my laziness and just figured I should quit complaining and write it myself if I want it out there. I mean, that's how the rest started, right?