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Hehe, I hope it's an April Fools joke on everyone, which I am not fooled by You just don't seem like the type of person to just give up after putting everything in. I am the same way too, stubborn to a fault, but it has some merits. For me, if I'd tried that out, I'd start off small. They have an interesting place in Vermont or Maine, where you can actually spend a few weeks in the woods alone to live life in the wild.

He's already served his time in jail for what happened. He's a level 3 sex offender according to the registry. I won't lie, if I had known about this earlier, we'd probably not rent to him.

So futurama was right, God is basically a giant ball of energy trying to mate with our universe It's really interesting stuff, the early calculations shows an extraordinary amount of energy.

I feel odd right now. I've been doing taxes for people left and right and offered to do my dad's elderly tenant taxes as well. After some simple research in property history, I discovered something about this guy. He's a convicted catholic priest with several decade of child molestation charges against altar boys. I didn't know this before I did the research and now I wish I didn't dig too deeply. I am left at a moral and ethical divide. I know he's a good man; he does volunteering for the elderly and food kitchen work. He is not the candy giving or scary priests that media has been throwing in my mind for years. He is a nice guy with the neighbors and I don't think anyone knows about his past. Part of me has also thought about my own past and I don't know what to think as I never really felt threatened, just cared for to a certain extent. However, I am worried about what it means. My dad is still not entirely sold on my homosexuality, nor is the rest of my family tolerant of such activities I am also worried about the kids in the neighborhood and what it means to have him here. On an ethical side, I am his tax accountant as well. I can't reveal direct detailed personal information like this to third parties. It would be a violation of my professional standards. I am bound by duty to keep what I know a secret, but I don't know if I should. I don't know what to do.

Really funny picture that I found online and it is kind of interesting. I know that expression very well and I think they're enjoying it I was wondering if anyone else has any thoughts about gay/bi/trans animals.

Let's see, I don't know I always had an interest in guys. I don't know what it was. I guess if I had to pick an age, I'd say around 10, when I first started wanting to see boys naked, because I was curious how other boys looked without clothes (I was a really young Voyeur )

Thanks, I just read through a lot of his stuff in nifty. (FYI, some of those stories might not be his due to different email/name combination, but the story lines do seem close to his style. If it is, then I should probably call him Josh.) I think I am getting a little time line of stuff through his writing; it looks kind of like he had a radical shift after 2000 from typical nifty stuff to something meaningful. Don't know what happened, but his writing style seems to change, but then again, he showed a lot of restraint even in his more sexually explicit stories. I get the feeling that he probably met his partner around the time of 2000-2002 between "First Year with Kevin" and "Tim", but that's just a guess from my interpretation of his work. I don't know if it is really visible for most other readers, but an author's emotions are usually exposed through their stories. He seems to have stopped writing sometime in 2005 after the Foley-Mashburn saga ended.

I've been hoping and perhaps longing for new stories from this prolific author. I guess his stories helped me become the man I am today. My journey towards becoming a die-hard fan of the author was not through instinct: When I first read gay fiction, I started out like many gay teens flipping through nifty for jack off material, probably still a common phenomenon even today. I found an interesting story in the high school section called "Tim", which had absolutely no sex. I first thought it was odd, so I just skipped it and kept on going. A few weeks or few months later, I saw the story again, but this time with many more chapters. Well, I ignored it again. (Not even joking that's how I started off on that story). The story popped up every so often and I tried to ignore it, but nothing nagged me to try it again. Well, I started reading the story. The story of Tim led to Justin then to Kyle and it kept going. I fell in love with the couples; I could feel their trials and tribulation. I could find myself dreaming of being in sunny Florida hanging out with them or knowing that there were people like that in the world. I also learned a bit about the gay community from the story. Both the best and worst that are possible. The strongest part of the saga for me probably came from the story of Sean. I had several different thoughts throughout the years about why Sean would go down that road towards self destruction versus enjoying what he had in life. Part of me finally understands it now as I have grown older, it was a void that nothing could have filled in his life. I guess what brought me into the story was the same void in my life. Being gay is not the only thing that separates people; life and everything else is complicated and we each have our needs. For a fictional character, I have to say honestly that he probably touched me on a personal level more profound than any other, because I first adored what he represented at the start as one of us readers going into the world of fiction, then hated his guts for things he did and in the end I was left with an empty feeling for his death. I think out of all the Authors I have read and all the stories, Brew's story was the most human. I really hope he had continued writing. When I went down to New Orleans a few months ago, part of me stood by the old harbor and imagined myself in his story, sadly I know the reality do not match up to fiction. If anyone knows where I can find more stories from this author please send a link.

Sunday has come and about to be gone, it's a nice enough day. I have no complaints about where things stand; although, my aspirations have not been fulfilled. I guess there really isn't much to talk or write about except in my stories. Exodus is finally getting more traction as I will probably be ready with the next half week after April 18th. The short Genesis series should hold any loyal fans over for the time being. I am also starting to think about my older stories. I kind of surprised some people still remember and read them, despite how long they haven't been updated. I abandoned a lot of stories in my writing life, sadly. I feel bad for not giving them good homes or conclusions. I re-read my Home is in the heart after seeing a review pop up and I remember why I wrote that story. Truthfully about my intent, I wanted to stand out as a writer, who could approach a genre that no one ever touches in gay fiction or even normal fiction anymore. The American West was not a place of moral heroes and immoral villains as most people believe; it was a dark and ambiguous era. I thought why not touch on the little researched Mormon controlled area of Utah, where atrocities and conflict occurred between everyone from natives to settlers, religious adherents to secular practitioners, and greedy warlords to lowly farmers. I read stories about Mormon attacks on western settlers like the Mountain Meadow Massacre and my story was born. Now I don't know if I should continue on this story, while my sci-fi story is being formed.

Grrr....Hands off my meat *(I've actually said that before, wonder if it was the full moon)

https://www.gayauthors.org/forums/story/w-l/homeisintheheart/1 I am very happy someone actually enjoyed the story; although, I abandoned it a year ago for my science fiction stories, which haven't really caught any readers eye as my own love and work life have interfered. I had an intent on writing a new type of western, but I also understand everyone has their opinions on how stories should be written. I know most of you guys don't touch Westerns at all and I am probably one of the few GA writers tempted to try my hand at it, but I am also not a big western person either (I know the history well, but not the writing style). Do people have any ideas or interests for me to explore? I've already touched little pieces on Mormon faith, Utah territorial conflict, post Civil War reconstruction issues, economics, and little things about the background. It's a different kind of story, where people are morally ambiguous and it is not clear, who's good or evil. My anti-hero is a former confederate soldier, who is both noble and ruthless.

Thanks for reading, I thought no one had liked it, so I basically abandoned the story a year ago and went straight for my Sci-fi story, Exodus. If you want I can keep on going to what I had intended earlier.

Just When I start coming back and posting, Chase has to leave Will miss you and kind of liked the chill nonchalant way you handled things. I probably ignored you more than once, but at least I am honest about neglect. You made being a troll interesting, About the rest of what you said, probably true to an extent, when I first started coming here to GA, I was a college kid looking for something that had meaning in my life. Probably, the thing that I sought more than anything else was a spark of companionship, which haunt many others. After a little taste of life and love, I understand things better, but I am also still traveling an unknown road with an unknown fate. That I guess is what brought me back and keeps me here at GA, the unknown paths that I have never traveled and wish to seek out among others. I will miss you chase and hope our paths may cross again.

I don't know, I thought it was brilliant in a satiric way. It highlighted many common themes with the current generation of "carpe diem" music along with various genres of of pop and rap. Repetition and experimental choruses just seem kind of normal in today's music. Not my interest though. I won't lie, I did have on max for a while after "Friday". I highly recommend "Walk Away from the Sun" to anyone that needs a stark contrast to "Friday" pop. Too bad Grunge rock is dying out.

Many people don't have enough food due to rampant issues with food transports and inability for some people to go out due to fear of nuclear radiation. For an industrialized and advanced nation as Japan to have this happening, it is very tragic as there should be more than enough in their nation.

Lacey's not Emo O_o Well, I don't know; I used to really like the sensitive emo guys, because they match well with my overly direct strong personality. However, I feel like I am more into strong personalities now.

Aww, Lacey, you're not missing out. For me, Trim most likely to keep it tidy, but if I ever want to try swimming as an exercise, I'd shave most of it off.

I am not sure how many people read Exodus or how many truly understand the complex concepts that are within the story. Everything thus far is nothing compared to what will be introduced in this unique collection of tales within this universe. It examines the characters deeper and encourages the reader to dream. We live in amazing times, where the dreams of previous generations have been achieved through the wonder of science. Exodus points out this fact in the many ways that technology has d

The nuclear side story is also developing: Japanese Nuclear Plants after quake

Agreed, it's horrendous disaster on the epic scale.

I would love some pointers. I am completely out of my element with him, but it's so easy to talk to him at the same time. Believe me, Asians and especially Chinese people have our own moments, too. A US article a few years back once called us the "new Jews" of the United States. I will compromise as much as I can, but we're both opinionated and I think that's what attracted us to each other in the first place.

You don't need a boyfriend, but it just makes some people's nights less lonely. Actually, it's less about the sex and more about the companionship than anything else. Friends are great, but finding people, who can share your dreams and hopes, give a special kind of feeling. I don't know how to describe in words other than it's like a part of you is now full.

Well, a couple things were brought up, when we were talking about future kids and how we look at religion. He really wants them to brought up Jewish, Hebrew school and jewish parochial schooling. I was open to the idea as I think parochial schools would be good, Massachusetts Catholic schools are very open and several pretty inclusive of gay parents, so maybe jewish schools were the same. Then, we approached the subject of charity work and how we view things. I think charity should strive to make people's lives better through education and insight, not merely direct hand outs. He thought it was more about alleviating the current suffering of the people. we talked about the stupid fish story (You know give a man a fish and he will eat for a day, teach a man to fish and you will feed him a lifetime). Then, we got back into discussing we volunteer with different groups, he's helping people with direct donations and soup kitchen work; I help people by teaching them how to manage their money and tax preparation. I do have one time of year that I do give directly, around November to December for Christmas to different organizations giving kids toys, because their families are too poor to afford presents. I feel that kids should be given that happy christmas morning. He's not really big on the whole Christmas giving thing due to religious reasons and I don't know, it made me feel uneasy as to his view on Christmas. That's basically a summary of one of our conversations, we talk about everything and branch off into a lot of wild tangents.

Well, let's start at the beginning, first there was darkness, then there was light..... I am dating again and this time, it feels like a keeper. Politically, we're closer to each other than anyone else before in either of our lives. We're both insufferable intellectuals with a keen eye on debates. I have never been so attracted to another man as I have with him; it is like we complete each other. Okay, here's a few things thought I know and noticed between us: 1. He's really big on his Judaism, which I am fine with, but something inside me feels kind of strange. I know the stories in the old testament, but there's a lot of stuff I don't know about Jewish faith. 2. For those of you into Astrology, I am on the Western Zodiac a Cancer and he's a Aquarius, nearly polar opposite. For the Chinese birth animal, I am a full Fire Rabbit with June 24th 1987 as my birth date and he's a tail end Monkey or a head Rooster with February 7th 1981 (He's pretty cocky too ). Both are astrologically parallel signs in western and eastern scopes, but I feel such a strong attraction to him. I should not have been curious about that stuff, ugh, now I'm worries even more. 3. Neither of us like to lose or feel like we lose. I know that's a bad thing, but it's what makes us so complementary with each other. We make a perfect stalemate. Well, I hope this works out. Now for my readers, if there any of you guys remaining, who probably have given up by now after so many months of waiting for my stories. I don't know what happened either. I started finishing the next week of Exodus, then lost the file due to a computer virus and tried to restart after a reformatting, but just haven't been able to get it to where I remember it was. I will fix it one way or another, but I will make sure you guys are amused at my other stories being sent to both GA and my Author page this weekend.

I'm not talking about the traveled path between Christians and gays. We've probably discussed that ad nauseum on GA in the past few years. I am currently dating a Jewish guy, who I absolutely adore and we both feel a strong connection with each other. He's a moderate Republican, who is worlds less conservative than me on a lot of issues We have really long conversations over everything from tax theory (he's also a tax manager, which is perfect for me the tax specialist) to how we should raise our future kids (I know, it's kind of odd to both of us that we are going that far so quickly but it was instant intellectual attraction). Now, I feel kind of strange, when we talk about Judaism and his religious side. He's a reformed Jew, so homosexuality is okay with his temple, but he also has pretty strong beliefs on the tenets of his faith. I can understand his strong beliefs and even encourage it, but part of me feels like I'm travelling through an alien world. I'm more aligned with Christianity, but on religion, I am much more spiritual than an advocate of any single religion. I don't know how to work out this butterfly in my stomache over the Jewish religion stuff as it's something completely new to me. I've known plenty of Asians that date and marry Jewish people, but none of them are gay. Can someone on here give me some pointers, ideas, and perhaps inspiration on how I can get this un-comfort out of my mind, because I seriously love this guy on so many levels and I feel like he feels the same way too. Also, please don't debate the merits of religion on this topic, we have threads in the Soapbox for that. I am looking for help rather than a debate; I get enough of those with him