I totally f**king typed out something incredibly heart warming (I swear to god) and I lose it UGH DERP DERP.
Anyway, listen here woman. Forget society and their wants. Yes we all want to follow them, yes six pack abs, yes tan, yes blondes (lulz) etc so forth. Its incredibly annoying. To be beautiful is not about looks, f**k that. I mean, in middle school I was all about the looks yeah. I was like 12 though helloooo. As I got older (you already know this but I need to re-hash it for my point) I really began to take into account personality, the way the person was etc.
To be frank I could say I'm in love with everyone of my friends. No they aren't all good looking but holy shit are their brains pretty. Very few, but f**k I could eat them they are so nice.
I will keep this brief, I'm never one to sit and comfort (not to say that comforting is not good, it is). You don't need that, you're strong enough to deal. I sense this. You have a charming personality, engaging, thoughtful...perhaps a bit feisty (cat meow~~) If you are like that in the flesh then I think you have the wrong idea about how you think people perceive you (if that was what you were saying... oO). Look in the mirror one day, disregard your thoughts about how you look (which isn't an issue, seriously) and just say, "I'm awesome."
For me I get it automatically cause my ego is just obnoxious huge. Take your talent of writing (plus your knowledge of so many other worldly things and more), that's really cool. Just like somebody who plays soccer and enjoys it, or knits or god forbid fishing. Nobody can write like you, or me, anyone. That is a talent a SKILL. A unique ability that, in fact, not everyone has. Its pretty f**king lulz to sit in my English courses and see how much fail people are at the English language, something they were designed to understand.
To wrap this up though, respectfully Neph to make words something alive is pretty f**king awesome. that's just the tip of the iceberg in regards to things you bring to the playing field of life. Imagine the world without it [the gift of written word], without you. Well that would be impossible, because without you, the world would just be plain boring.