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Pieces and Fragments - 4. All The Things He Said

When he said it wouldn’t hurt
and it did
I thought I must be doing something wrong

When he said I would like it
and I didn’t
I thought I must not be normal

When he said it had to be our secret
and I never told anyone
I never realized how much worse it would feel keeping silent

When he said he really liked me
and then hurt me
I thought people who liked me would always hurt me

When he said it would get better
and it didn’t
I thought I was terribly malformed

When he said someday I’d understand
and I never did
I was sure I was mentally unbalanced

My whole life has been spent trying to connect reality
to the things he said
But now I realize there is no connection

and there never was

I just wish I could clear my thoughts
of all the things he said

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Mmm, no matter how you pack the box, chain it up and triple padlock it, they come back, those voices.  i have had some success with my shrink.  i hear them but lately i can think about them rationally a lot of the time.  it's important to tell someone.  usually i tell Michael and He knows what to do and say. i've had a lot less depressive episodes in the last few months.  due to the therapy and the addition of magnesium supplements.  It's made a huge difference to my ability to sleep without drugs. Sorry.. but i just thought i'd share as i used to hear voices from the past, and thought about death nearly constantly for as long as i can remember.

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1 hour ago, Mikiesboy said:

Mmm, no matter how you pack the box, chain it up and triple padlock it, they come back, those voices.  i have had some success with my shrink.  i hear them but lately i can think about them rationally a lot of the time.  it's important to tell someone.  usually i tell Michael and He knows what to do and say. i've had a lot less depressive episodes in the last few months.  due to the therapy and the addition of magnesium supplements.  It's made a huge difference to my ability to sleep without drugs. Sorry.. but i just thought i'd share as i used to hear voices from the past, and thought about death nearly constantly for as long as i can remember.

 

they're not as over-powering as they used to be, but they're still frustrating.  they were much easier to deal with while Mitchel was alive - not so much now.  thanks for the comments!

 

13 minutes ago, Parker Owens said:

Your poem is riveting. It moved me deeply and makes me want to weep for what you endured.

 Thank you!

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