Being Cam - 4. September 30th

Never in a million years would I have imagine staying up until five in the morning on a school night. A school night! Like, I guess being 13 actually did have some perks after all. Never would I have imagine being the person Nate would come to with dating problems either. The kid who had never been on a date being approached by the teen heartthrob.

I guess he wasn’t in much better shape than me. What I lacked in theory, he lacked in practice.

“I don’t know what to do. I’m sorry I probably woke you up too…”

“Nate you’re fine, don’t worry about it.”

It felt good to be needed.

“Like I have fun with her but I don’t think I feel the same way she does and maybe going to the dance was a huge mistake.”

Things like this is why I was glad I didn’t date. Or even think about it too much. I would be completely lost if I had to balance all those feelings.

“Maybe you could just tell her you only want to be friends. Let her down real easy. Just say you aren’t ready for a big commitment yet.”

Nate sat in silence for a second on the phone. A second that seemed to last an eternity on my side.

“Or not too.”

“Sorry. I was thinking about something. I really appreciate you picking up Cam. You’re a good friend. Go to bed. I’ll see you in the morning?”

“Of course. Don’t stress, get some sleep. Everything will seem clearer in the morning.”

There was more silence on the other end and I almost hung up before I heard a faint whisper.

“I love you, buddy.”

Click. Love? That was a new one for Nate and I. Emma, sure. We said it all the time to each other but he was another story. If I wasn’t already confused about everything, I was now.