So I haven’t updated my life in ever. So here I am J

I broke up with Ben, it just wasn’t working for me. A big step for me really.

But then a few months down the line, I realise something.

There was someone I’ve liked all along. Back when he was having issues, I was there to comfort him and well, I guess you could say I tried to deny my feelings.

Well that didn’t work. Thanks to alot of matchmaking from Jammi and Nephy giving me the actual man balls to do it. I asked him out in October.

We’ve been together ever since. I love him and that’s all there is to it.

We are spending our summer holiday together and its going to be amazing <3

So in other news. I have grown to hate idiots.

I feel surrounded by idiots and I don’t feel intellectually stimulated in my day to day life. I can be stupid as can everybody, but I’m just fed up.

I get to a point where I can’t even have conversations with people here without feeling awkward, shy or introverted.

And that’s not who I am anymore.

It was me 6 months ago. Not now. I’ve changed. For the better.

I have confidence in my ideas and I have confidence in defending myself in a debate.

I feel like an academic before my time. And that’s exactly what I want to be.

Professor in Theatre, Film or Literary Studies.

One day.

That’s the dream.

American education or british education would do me fine.

I get the feeling that one of my class friends is following my author page, so this is a direct message to her. It's not just you. It's everyone. I need to get away from everyone at university for a while. Clear my head and lower my expectations of the world in general.

I expect too much from people and that’s why I get annoyed.

Let me explain to GA.

I had a presentation this year.

My section was full marks.

The rest of the group brought me down.

And it annoyed me.

I freaked out.

I haven’t had a proper conversation with them since…

Awkward cuz I’m living with one of them next year. I’m already kinda regretting that decision, but I know we will grow together again next year. I hope.

Otherwise I’m living in the library studying or on Skype skyping.

So, I decided my final project idea For next year. I have to submit a 10k thesis about three quarters of the way through the second semester.

I’m going to look at 1930’s musical and animated cinema and look at them as individual social and political texts. But then also reflect on how Hollywood is entrenched in Hollywood.

Focus Texts:

Snow White and The Seven Dwarfs – Walt Disney

The Gold Diggers Sequence – Busby Berkeley

Otherwise. I’m great. I’m really great. Happiest I’ve been in years.

I honestly never thought I would be happy again, but I am

And I’m proud of that. I’ve made myself more ‘me’, more myself. Something I was missing.

I wasn’t really me for years.

I was always ‘someone’s boyfriend’ or ‘someone’s friend’. Now I’m ‘Oh, that’s John he’s like x, y and z!’.

I feel like a real person, rather than someone trying to just fit in with everyone else.

I love the person I’ve become.

And its all thanks to that one special someone for making me realise that I’m good. That I’m not a bad person, that I shouldn’t be discrimated against. He loves me for me. And me only.

Not a picture. Not a dream. Just myself.

You’ve helped me with ‘Me’ no end babe. I’ll never be able to repay that.

Thanks for reading guys!

Oh wait!

I’m off to camp! I’m working at the oldest boys camp in the world teaching art, design and drama craft Should be tonnes of fun! Then I get him afterwards so double bonus!

Bye!!!