As an update to my reflections blog...

It has been confirmed that my grandmother is terminal. Honestly, it is expected, but suspecting and being faced with that reality are two different things. She has been told that she is terminal and chances are, even as stubborn as she is, she will quit fighting to stay with us. This is evidenced by her most recent decision. She has changed her living will so that she now has a DNR and nothing will be done to prolong life. Anything, including antibiotics, are only to be done to make her comfortable. Honestly, this is probably the best course of action for her as she has been in continuous pain since this all started back at the beginning of July. The doctors have given her 2-3 weeks, but that was BEFORE they realized that the infection that last required surgery has once again emerged. The reality is, we will probably lose her within the next week or so. My mom suspects that she will hang on long enough for her other children to get here to say their goodbyes and then let go. Not that we haven't been wrong before, but with the new living will and with her current condition... Well, I will leave the rest of that thought unsaid.

As far as the title of this blog, I apologize in advance if I am short with anyone in the coming days. My emotions are completely out of whack. So much in such a short amount of time and I honestly do not know which way is up. All I ask is that if I am short with you, please do not take it personally as it most likely was not intentional.

Also, a thank you to all of you who have listened to my rants and been there as I've dealt with all the crap lately. It is appreciated more than you know.

Hugs

~Renee