So I havent updated my blog in like ever.

I spent my summer teaching arts and crafts at a summer camp in northern michigan It was a great experience and I learnt alot of responsibility and leadership skills.

After that I spent what can be described as some of the best weeks of my life so far Went to New York, Detroit, Philadelphia, Cedar Point Had so many great memories ^^

He's hopefully coming here in March to come see me and meet my family

I had such a great summer where I was happy. Just happy with being myself and content with life.

Then I got back to England and moved back to university. And then everything just seemed to go meh at home.

I won't lie. I don't really think i'm happy here. Its just... I feel like i can't be myself and the only time I am myself is when i'm talking to him :$

I've been going through a real rough patch with my disability lately and I think that might have an influence on it.

I work in my theatre company with people who don't understand that I do suffer from a disability which limits my motor skills and limits my memory skill.

It's bloody hard work because what takes a normal person 3 times to remember, it takes me 6. I run about two seconds behind the average person and it hurts.

I'm just glad that the people who I really consider to be my friends don't care about that. This summer and the past few weeks have taught me who my real friends are and that I should try to make more effort with people who deserve it

I have alot of thank yous to say to people

I wouldn't be sane right now if it wasn't for Aj or Jammi listening to me going crazy over people.

And the same to anyone who has listened to me rant and all that over the past few weeks. I want you to know I really appreciate it. You guys are the best.

Mikie has been a rock for me over the past few weeks, even though he's been going through his own shit - he never fails to be there for me if I need him <3 If you're reading this babe, thanks

We celebrated our Anniversary a few weeks ago He got me a little chain with glass attached to it with 'slipper' imprinted on it. I was a bit like 'huh?' because that arrived before the second half of the gift. He got me a DVD of Rogers and Hammerstein's Cinderella. The same musical we went to see on Broadway - which my profile picture comes from So cute And i just waiting on one more package for it hehe

I got him a pocket watch with a very cute inscription inside

I had the most romantic experience in the world this summer. I planned it down to pretty much the last detail. We went to dinner in New York, then we wandered around Times Square and then went up the empire state building. On the observation deck, I took him to one side and told him that I never wanted this to end. That i never wanted to lose him because i've never been more like myself than I have been with him. And then when we got back to Michigan - something we ordered for the both of us arrived.

Matching rings with dragon insignia. Dragons hold a very dear place in our hearts Now don't panic. We're not like engaged Just a little promise to each other

University is fucking stressful. way too much to do this term. I'm looking forward to next term and not having as much stuff to do lol

To put it in perspective: I have 4 units this term worth about 55/90 credits, next term I only have 35/90. lol

I'm taking a research paper to three conferences this summer across England Its on the topic of environments in theatre and how one can create and produce environments for an audience. For example i created a piece where i influenced an audiences environment through heat. Then i have created a piece where i influenced an audiences environment through touch. I'm going to now create two short pieces that will be disseminated at a lecture in February. The first is going to work through influencing an audience through visual instructions, creating a task based environment. The second will experiment with the real experience.

I'm taking this paper to the National Undergraduate Research Festival, The Junior Research Symposium and hopefully The University Conference. Then onto my MA and then my Doctorate EXCITED :$

But it's all good. Writing this has reminded me that its not all bad My life is pretty good - I may be stressed now but its all worth it

Come to the conclusion that I do like life I just hate people