Hi!

This is the first time I've posted in your blog, but I just wanted to say that if you think you'd be interested in the play I think you should do it. With or with out Justin. I think it's a pretty crappy thing for him to say yes then back out, but he may have been telling you a bit of the truth in saying that he thought he could, but realized later that it's just to far out of his comfort zone. Or maybe he's just being a stinker and changed his mind.

Either way, it sounds as if this play is something you'd really be inetersted in doing and I have to commend you on that. You said you have a small amount of stage fright and yet you're still wanting to do it...that takes a lot of courage on your part and that's pretty impressive. I am completely terrified of talking in front of crowds, and in my feild of interest, there's no way around it. I realize that it's said alot, but it really is true...practice makes everything better and the earlier in life that you can conqour your fears the easier it is to conqour fears that pop up later in life. Over the past couple of years I've had to give a couple of lecture's/talks on various topics at different conferences and class rooms, it's finally starting to get easier to get up and talk, but I have learned the hard way...food comes after the speach...never before!

Ok sorry for the side rail, my point is...I think you should go for it. A) it sounds like its something your interested in and that's just simply cool B] maybe Mr. Justin has a bit of stage fright himself and seeing you fully capable of auditioning and having fun will allow him to be more comfortable with it for the next play and C) you can always rub his nose in it and call him a chickensh** for backing out cuz he was scared hehehe. That's all.

- Kaiten

Hey Ronnie!

I agree with Kaiten; you should never let other people's reluctance to do something interfere with your desire to do it. Unless of course it's something that really does need to be done "together". I guess what I mean is it's healthy and important to be self-reliant. For me, if it's stuff I really want to do regardless, I just invite people to do it with me, not even "asking" them to. Like: "I'm going to see ___at the movie theater, want to come?" If they do great, if they don't I might ask someone else or just go on my own. So anyway it's awesome that you're going to do it anyway! Way to do, and let us know how it goes

Good Luck and have an awesome day!

Kevin

Thanks Kaiten and Kevin, but I guess me willing to confront my stage fright will have to come another day. I just have to say that I'm pissed, lol. Today after school, a few other guys and I practiced the try-out song with one of the chorus teachers before the try-outs started. Well it was about 4:15 and the drama teacher hadnt started auditions yet which were supposed to start at 4:00. Then about 5-10 minutes later, the chorus teacher comes up to a few of us standing around and tells us to gather around, that he had something to tell us. He kinda acted like we had done something, or that something was wrong. He tells us that we can't do Annie now. That there is a tour group in Minneapolis going to be doing Annie as well. Well evidently when a school does a play, they have to get permission to present it from this one drama organization or something and that they more than likely will be turning down our request, because we would more or less be competition to them. Yes, a small little South Dakota high school will be competition to a professional tour group. Geez...I was really looking forward to us doing Annie and now we wont be...

So, theyre going to be picking a new musical within a week or so and I guess I'll be trying out then .

Xander...go for it and hey what happened to the Gay Guys in your neighborhood? I thought you were going to develop friendships with them? Come on, I know you can do it!!!!

It is clear that Justin is str8....so time for you to also (I didn't say instead of just being friends with Justin and I didn't say to dump him as your friend..even if he has bad taste..ala Lorena) find more friends with some cool Gay Guys and a few months back you met a few from your neighborhood.

I also think that Justin does have low self esteem and probably has more stage fright then you ever will. I also don't mean to sound rude toward Justin but um, consider who his GF is...yep, he is being honest when he says he has low self esteem....he did chose to be with her....so yeah, low self esteem it is.

I know that is mean and bitchy of me to say..but everything you have said points to that fact....Lorena, I am betting knows you are Gay and has an interest in Justin so she is going to do her level best to keep him from you....so, yep, he may be losing out on your friendship..but don't abandon him but don't abandon yourself...time to find more friends...and Gay ones help....we do look after each other..Mary seems cool..the Gay Guys who did outreach to you seem super cool...what are you waiting for? Don't make me come to South Dakota and bitch slap both you and Justin (let's face it for a breeder he has bad taste in women..so yep, low self esteem..if you think about it..you know its true....)

You have brains and talent....Grab Mary, some of those Gay Guys and anyone else you can find to rehearse and form your own Play Group and chill and branch out.....

Let us know how you do and at least you will be a cool Gay Guy with new friends and poor low self esteem Justin will be stuck with the loser..um, I mean Lorena..so have some pity on him every once in a while and include him in your new set of friends..even if he is str8....he can't help that...

Hugs sent your way and I hope my serious but sarcastic post at least helps you laugh and also spurs you to action to find more friends and Gay ones....come on....its the theater.....they all can't be str8 there? Let's hope not!

Michael