My mother called me and asked me to come over. She said she needed help going through some of the stuff we have in the attick, you know old furniture and pictures my mom has. I know this was an effort to get us close again, and I caved in. I mean she was reaching.
Chaz, Selene and David invited themselves as usual. I really don't know what they were planning on finding. I dont have alot of pictures. I dont take them. Its a personal thing for me. I have an average of two pictures taken of me every year and thats because I don't know about them. My childhood pictures are in a safe box in a bank.
When we get there I find that the Liar is still living with my mother. I mean its been over month now, he should be moving out. I asked my mom about this and she said not to worry about it. That its not a problem. So I was a little pissed off of the bat. Especially when he insisted on talking to me. As soon as we where done I was definitely ready to leave. I never thought I'd feel uncomfortable in my mothers home but this last year made me feel so.
My mother asked us to stay, saying that she was cooking us all lunch. I lied and I told her I already ate. Like any mother she saw right through me. She looked so disappointed and I felt bad but I really couldn't stay there. I didn't want to say something that I really didnt want to say. So I left. My friends decided to stay in a last ditched effort to get me to stay. I said goodbye my mother said she'd give them a ride.
Alright so I felt horrible as soon as I walked out of the front door. How could I not? Yet sometimes you have to do painful things. This was definitely one of the hardest things I had to do. I got in my car and I took off. Only one place to go and that was the beach. I called a friend that lives near there and I asked him to join me. I asked her because she too had constant fights with her mother. He is transitioning and her mother disapproves. We just walked and talked for a while. He and I havent seen each other since he introduced Chaz and I.
Well it felt good just to walk and talk with someone that you can relate to. I mean my friends are all great but sometimes you need an outsiders point of view. My other friends always take my mother's side and I just needed somebody to hear me. He gave me perspective and when he told me what was going on in his life it made me ask myself what the big deal was.
I called my mother. Were having dinner tomorrow.
GREEN soon to be a mama's boy again.