I want to thank you guys for everything. I am taking everything you guys are taking to heart. Libb You are totally right and I am taking yours to heart most of all. Sometimes you need someone to make yousee how stupid you are and I thank you for that. I thought on everything that was said and I thought back on my previous relationships. I pushed Julio away too. He wanted to be there for me as much as I needed to be there for him but I never let him and look where that ended.
I wrote a letter for Chaz and I left it at his dorm. He hasnt contacted me yet so I dont know where we stand. I saw David again and we talked for a little bit. I told him about the liar and he burst out laughing saying that I deserve that. He said the Liar was just as crazy as I am. Then we talked about the tumors. I told him everything I knew. I am getting one removed because it's a little big. He looked alarmed but I told him it was just a precaution.
Oddly enough I ran into Rob. I asked him how he was and he told me he was alright then he told me something that threw me for a loop. He said he missed David. He missed him alot and he started crying right before me. He told me that the other guy is out of the picture. I asked him to meet with me later on tonight so we could talk. He said he would.
I fell today in class. Right there on the floor I started laughing loudly. People in my class were looking at me like I had four heads. I wish I did because then I could say I was crazy but after all of these days it felt great just to laugh. One of the girls from my class joined me right there on the floor and asked me what was so funny.
We struck a converstaion and we went to lunch together. She asked me alot about myself. I told her what I could, I mean she's practicly a stranger. But I like her, she's really cool. Then she introduces me to her friend Steven. Steven is a very open person apparently because he kept grabbing my hands. I was like what do you want from me? Then they asked me if I was single. I told them that I wasnt. I mean what else could I say. I would never do anything this quick or even without knowing exactly where Chaz and I stand.
Conversation got lighter and apparently easier from here on. I found out they they were musicians and they had their own group. I was still hung up on why they wanted to know if I was single. I mean it was ovbious but I like that they respected the fact that I told them I wasnt.
We talked for about an hour before they had to go back to school. They invited me to their next gig. When i got home my neighbors down the street came by because they heard about the breakup. I told them what happened and they told me almost the same thing you guys said.
Chaz still hasnt contacted me but I dont expect that he will today. My father called and we made plans to have dinner soon with the Liar. I am going to go to my mothers house I want to give my mother a hug.
GREEN. I have nothing else to say. See ya soon.