Well beyond meditating on Eastern/Western philosophical and religious issues for "blue Rose", which is still being written as a re-launch for my Causality Universe, I also got some life updates.

I've pulled the trigger and I am leaving Corporate America, aka Health care/ Insurance accounting. Horray!

I am going to be the accountant of a Non-Profit Education and Disability Services, which I feel like coming back home to a place, I actually care a deep amount about. I have worked in non-profit before, which is why I started out in health care. However, my new job will mean a major cut in my salary from 75K to 60K, but being an accountant for a non-profit has a lot more responsibilities and more meaning.

For those oldies at GA or Q and the ladies who have met me in DC a few years back, you guys know I am legally blind and suffer from Congential Glaucoma (Marijuana jokes aside, it is a disease I was born with and suffer without a cure), so I know first hand the struggles a lot of adults and kids have with vision loss or blindness Being gay and blind is extremely complex; it also makes dating a bitch (pardon my language) to deal with as I have to navigate around tables, waiters, and occassionally the small toddler who wandered out of his seat, hoping I don't bump into people or step on the kid. I've been able to maintain a cool composure and almost hide the fact that I cannot see more than 20/300 distance vision or read 20/70 pretty well, but as I get older, my vision is weakening and gay guys are not the most sympathetic or understanding bunch in this particular regard.

Maybe the dark tone in my recent thoughts are geared to lovers, who jilted me as they discover my limitations, who knows, but it has given me inspiration to write and ask tough questions about the meaning of love and relationships, how people value each other, and how imperfect an assumed "promise" may be.

Outside love and work, I am also thinking about pulling my name from the Republican mailing lists as I have grown so disenchanted at the party's current base (Fuckng 21% supports Donald Trump, for Pete Sake's there's insanity with Ted Cruz and then there's "Reality TV" America, there's a galactic credibility gap). Doesn't mean I lean less to center right, but I just can't imagine such a political coalition can exists in the long run. Better to scrap the entire Republican base and reform a new coalition party.