Track List

1. Closed Doors (Message To Bears) - Overture: Taryn Inside Looking Out
2. For Adrian (Many Years Ago) (Mark Tulk) - Taryn’s Song
3. Darkest Dreaming (David Sylvian) - Taryn’s Dreams of Escape
4. Shattered Dreams (Johnny Hates Jazz) - The Last Straw
5. Shake Dog Shake (The Cure) - A Fateful Decision
6. Leave In Silence (Depeche Mode) - Stealing Away Into The Night
7. Dirty Blvd. (Lou Reed) - Taryn and Alec on the Cold Streets of Chicago
8. To The Ends Of The Earth (The Unfinished) - Homeless and Hungry
9. If Only Tonight We Could Sleep (The Cure) - Survival: Failing
10. Letting Go (Wild Nothing) - Realities and Realizations
11. You Found Me (The Fray) - When Comes The Beautiful Stranger
12. Indigo Eyes (Peter Murphy) - Trevor
13. Cry Little Sister (Marilyn Manson) - Discovering The Sleeping Undead
14. The Hopeless (Velvet Acid Christ) - Alec Is Sick
15. After The Fall (Chelsea Wolfe) - From Bad To Worse
16. Lost Little Boys (Fatherson) - It Just Isn’t Working
17. God Bless The Child (Annie Lennox) - Taryn’s Choice
18. Abandoned (Antarctic Wastelands) - A Promise Never Kept
19. Age Of Consent (Arcade Fire) - Taryn Consents
20. Darkness (Disturbed) - Taryn’s Last Day
21. When Love And Death Embrace (HIM) - Taryn: Gone From Daylight
22. Dark Shores - The Anchor By The Lake
23. Forever Young (OneDirection) - A Light In The Darkness
24. Ocean Eyes (American Avenue) - Justin Time
25. A Time For Us (André Rieu) - Love Found In The Darkness

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Closed Doors (Message To Bears) - Taryn Inside Looking Out

 

Instrumental Overture

 

For Adrian (Many Years Ago) (Mark Tulk) - Taryn’s Song

 

Many years ago

When only boy

So many years ago

 

Many years ago

At the age of eight

So many years ago

 

Many years ago

You took me aside

To a darkened room

Closed the door

 

On a moonless night

The curtains were drawn

I wanted to run

But I didn’t know why

 

Many years ago

When only boy

So many years ago

 

Many years ago

At the age of eight

So many years ago

 

You took my hand

As you loosened your belt

I started to shake

I didn’t know why

 

You held me down

With your Policeman’s hands

And ordered me not

To make any sound

 

Many years ago (X4)

 

Many years ago

You took me aside

To a darkened room

And closed the door

 

On a moonless night

The curtains were drawn

I wanted to run

But I didn’t know why

 

Many years ago

As I was starting to gag

So many years ago

 

Many years ago

At the age of eight

So many years ago

 

You let go of my hand

And tightened your belt

I fumbled for the door

I tried not to cry

 

The light of the hall

It blinded my eyes

I swallowed the words

You planted inside

 

“Tell Mommy or Daddy and I’ll take them away.” (X)

 

Darkest Dreaming (David Sylvian) - Taryn’s Dreams of Escape

 

Stay tonight

We'll watch the full moon rising

Hold on tight

The sky is breaking

 

I don't ever want to be alone

With all my darkest dreaming

 

Hold me close

The sky is breaking

 

I don't ever want to be alone

With all my darkest dreaming

 

Hold me close

The sky is breaking

 

Shattered Dreams (Johnny Hates Jazz) - The Last Straw

 

So much for your promises

They died the day you let me go

Caught up in a web of lies

But it was just too late to know

 

I thought it was you

Who would stand by my side

And now you've given me, given me

Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams

Feel like I could run away, run away

From this empty heart

 

You said you'd die for me,

Woke up to reality

And found the future not so bright

I dreamt the impossible

That maybe things could work out right

 

I thought it was you

Who would do me no wrong

But now you've given me, given me

Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams

Feel like I could run away, run away

From this empty heart

 

You've given me, given me

Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams

Feel like I could run away, run away

 

From this empty heart

From this empty heart

 

I thought it was you who said they'd die for love

 

And now you've given me, given me

Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams

Feel like I could run away, run away

From this empty heart

 

You've given me, given me

Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams

Feel like I could run away, run away

From this empty heart

 

Oh no no no you said you'd die for me

Oh oh die for me

So much for your promises

 

Shake Dog Shake (The Cure) - A Fateful Decision

 

Ha ha ha

Wake up in the dark

The after-taste of anger in the back of my mouth

Spit it on the wall

And cough some more

And scrape my skin with razor blades

And make up in the new blood

And try to look so good

Follow me

Make up in the new blood

And follow me to where the real fun is

 

Ha ha ha

As stale and selfish as a sick dog

Spurning sex like an animal of god

I'll tear your red hair by the roots

And hold you blazing

Hold you cherished in the dead electric light

Your face

I'll never see you this way again

I captured it so perfectly

As if I knew you'd disappear away

 

Shake shake shake shake

Shake shake shake shake

Shake dog shake

Shake shake shake shake

Shake shake shake shake

Shake dog shake

 

You hit me again

You howl and hit me again

The same sharp pain

Wakes me in the dark

And cuts me from my throat to my pounding heart

 

My heart

My shaking heart

My howl my shake dog

Oh shake dog shake

Shake shake

Shake dog shake

 

But we slept all night in the virgin's bed

And dreamed of death

And breathed like sick dogs

We slept all night in the virgin's bed

And breathed like death

And dreamed of sick dogs

 

Shake shake

Shake dog shake

Wake up wake up wake up

Shake dog shake

Wake up wake up wake up

 

Shake dog shake

Wake up in the new blood

Make up in the new blood

Shake up in the new blood

And follow me to where the real fun is

Shake dog shake

 

Leave In Silence (Depeche Mode) - Stealing Away Into The Night

 

I've told myself so many times before

But this time I think I mean it for sure

We have reached a full stop

Nothing's gonna save us from the big drop

Reached our natural conclusion

Outlived the illusion

I hate being in these situations

That call for diplomatic relations

If I only knew the answer

Or I thought we had a chance

Or I could stop this

 

I would stop this thing from spreading like a cancer

What can I say? (I don't want to play) anymore

What can I say? I'm heading for the door

I can't stand this emotional violence

 

Leave in silence

 

We've been running around in circles all year

Doing this and that and getting nowhere

This'll be the last time

(I think I said that last time)

If I only had a potion,

Some magical lotion

That could stop this, I would stop this

 

I would set the wheels in motion

What can I say? (I don't want to play) anymore

What can I say? I'm heading for the door

I can't stand this emotional violence

 

Leave in silence

 

Dirty Blvd. (Lou Reed) - Taryn and Alec on the Cold Streets of Chicago

 

Pedro lives out of the Wilshire Hotel

he looks out a window without glass

The walls are made of cardboard, newspapers on his feet

his father beats him 'cause he's too tired to beg

 

He's got 9 brothers and sisters

they're brought up on their knees

it's hard to run when a coat hanger beats you on the thighs

Pedro dreams of being older and killing the old man

but that's a slim chance he's going to the boulevard

 

He's going to end up, on the dirty boulevard

he's going out, to the dirty boulevard

He's going down, to the dirty boulevard

 

This room cost 2, 000 dollars a month

you can believe it man it's true

somewhere a landlord's laughing till he wets his pants

No one here dreams of being a doctor or a lawyer or anything

they dream of dealing on the dirty boulevard

 

Give me your hungry, your tired your poor I'll piss on 'em

that's what the Statue of Bigotry says

Your poor huddled masses, let's club 'em to death

and get it over with and just dump 'em on the boulevard

 

Get to end up, on the dirty boulevard

going out, to the dirty boulevard

He's going down, on the dirty boulevard

going out

 

Outside it's a bright night

there's an opera at Lincoln Center

movie stars arrive by limousine

The klieg lights shoot up over the skyline of Manhattan

but the lights are out on the Mean Streets

 

A small kid stands by the Lincoln Tunnel

he's selling plastic roses for a buck

The traffic's backed up to 39th street

the TV whores are calling the cops out for a suck

 

And back at the Wilshire, Pedro sits there dreaming

he's found a book on magic in a garbage can

He looks at the pictures and stares at the cracked ceiling

"At the count of 3" he says, "I hope I can disappear”

 

And fly fly away, from this dirty boulevard

I want to fly, from dirty boulevard

I want to fly, from dirty boulevard

I want to fly-fly-fly-fly, from dirty boulevard

I want to fly away

I want to fly

Fly, fly away

I want to fly

Fly-fly away (Fly a-)

fly-fly-fly (-way, ooohhh...)

Fly-fly away (I want to fly-fly away)

fly away (I want to fly, wow-woh, no, fly away)

 

To The Ends Of The Earth (The Unfinished) - Homeless and Hungry

 

A Desperate Instrumental

 

If Only Tonight We Could Sleep (The Cure) - Survival: Failing

 

If only tonight we could sleep

In a bed made of flowers

If only tonight we could fall

In a deathless spell

If only tonight we could slide

Into deep black water

 

And breathe

And breathe

 

Then an angel would come

With burning eyes like stars

And bury us deep

In his velvet arms

And the rain would cry

As our faces slipped away

And the rain would cry

 

Don't let it end

 

Letting Go (Wild Nothing) - Realities and Realizations

 

[Verse 1]

It's getting hard for me to reframe all those shifting memories

Like a music box that never starts dancing by itself

What a broken world, what a broken world

It is my only wish to see you, to see through you

I step inside

 

[Chorus]

Letting go

I want to be happier now

I want to be more than closed

Surreal, the way you made me out

The way you crashed me down

 

[Verse 2]

It's getting hard for me to remember all of the names from my life

You've been so many different kinds of people in my mind

 

[Chorus]

Letting go

I want to be happier now

I want to be more than closed

Surreal, the way you made me out

Letting go

I want to be happier now

I want to be more than closed

Surreal, the way you made me out

The way you crashed me down

 

[Instrumental Bridge]

 

[Chorus]

Letting go

I want to be happier now

I want to be more than closed

Surreal, the way you made me out

Letting go

I want to be happier now

I want to be more than closed

Surreal, the way you made me out

The way you crashed me down

 

You Found Me (The Fray) - When Comes The Beautiful Stranger

 

I found God on the corner of First in Amistad

Where the west was all but won

All alone

Smoking his last cigarette

I said where you been?

He said, ask anything

 

Where were you

When everything was falling apart?

All my days

Spent by the telephone

That never rang

And all I needed was a call

That never came

From the corner of First and Amistad

 

Lost and insecure

You found me, you found me

Lying on the floor

Surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you, where were you?

 

Just a little late

You found me, you found me

In the end

Everyone ends up alone

Losing her

The only one who's ever known

Who I am, who I'm not, and who I wanna be

No way to know

How long she will be next to me

 

Lost and insecure

You found me, you found me

Lying on the floor

Surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you, where were you?

 

Just a little late

You found me, you found me

Early morning

City breaks

I've been calling

For years and years and years and years

And you never left me no messages

You never send me no letters

You got some kind of nerve

Taking all I want

 

Lost and insecure

You found me, you found me

Lying on the floor

Where were you? Where were you?

Lost and insecure

You found me, you found me

Lying on the floor

Surrounded, surrounded

Why'd you have to wait?

Where were you, where were you?

 

Just a little late

You found me, you found me

Why'd you have to wait

To find me?

To find me?

 

Indigo Eyes (Peter Murphy) - Trevor

 

Fire burning in a hill

The lines are rocky rough

Red angels wait to pick remains

The cindered shoulder

Of confused men

Separate from their awe

With grey desire

He looks out mad

His soft grey indigo eyes

Indigo eyes...

Asking

 

His heaven is uncovered not

A black tree blocks his way

His way is skating round a dome

(His way is in dismay)

The playmate sings

Like Orpheus in some thunder world

Asking to be bathed in light

To be exemplified

 

With grey desire he looks out mad

His soft grey indigo eyes

 

Saw his past

He had dug for trust

With blind infected hands

And wondered as the hurt bit hard

Why the sacred weren't at hand

Only when his ears were deaf

To the angels light burst waves

Only when his ears were deaf

Did life turn from fog to fog

But not evil but estranged

But not evil but estranged

 

Indigo eyes, Indigo eyes

Indigo eyes, Indigo eyes

 

With grey desire

He looks out mad

His soft grey

Indigo eyes

Indigo eyes

 

Cry Little Sister (Marilyn Manson) - Discovering The Sleeping Undead

 

[Verse 1]

Last fire will rise behind those eyes

Black house will rock, blind boys don't lie

Immortal fear, that voice so clear

Through broken walls, that scream I hear

 

[Chorus]

Cry, little sister (Thou shall not fall)

Come, come to your brother (Thou shall not die)

Unchain me, sister (Thou shall not fear)

Love is with your brother (Thou shall not kill)

 

[Verse 2]

Blue masquerade, strangers look on

When will they learn this loneliness?

Temptation heat beats like a drum

Deep in your veins, I will not lie

 

[Chorus]

Little sister (Thou shall not fall)

Come, come to your brother (Thou shall not die)

Unchain me, sister (Thou shall not fear)

Love is with your brother (Thou shall not kill)

 

[Bridge]

My Shangri-La, I can't forget

Why you were mine, I need you now

 

Cry, little sister

Come, come to your brother

Unchain me, sister

Love is with your brother

 

[Chorus]

Cry, little sister (Thou shall not fall)

Love is with your brother (Thou shall not die)

Unchain me, sister (Thou shall not fear)

Love, love is with your brother (Thou shall not kill)

 

Cry, little sister (Thou shall not fall)

Love is with your brother (Thou shall not die)

Unchain me, sister (Thou shall not fear)

Love is with your brother (Thou shall not kill)

 

The Hopeless (Velvet Acid Christ) - Alec Is Sick

 

A force fed lie, our dead dream

Awake upon a staircase

Start looking downward into Hell

 

Where the last life screamed and we screeched

"We're always, always a bloody mess, a bloody mess"

Lying hole, tired eyes, you're screeching

You're scraping the bone with your life

 

Into a dream, we will fade

Hopeless, the hopeless, the hopeless, the hopeless

The hopeless, the hopeless, the hopeless

They're calling of the dead, calling of the dead

 

You liars, and your face

And your eyes separate the fear, the lies, the fate

Set into eyes, the calling of the dead

Image in the light, they calling you dead

 

They won't believe signs, they don't believe your cries

They always open eyes, and the light all over your head, your head

Time distortion, crawling onto your knees

Crawl onto the floor, get off your feet

 

A lie in the wake, spiralling down

Glass feeling moments all over your arms, over your arms

Condemned, force fed, force fed, you're calling dead

 

Feeling your flesh ripped apart with Heaven and Hell

The conflict of everything was sent from Heaven and Hell

The conflict of disease, the life-long breeding season

 

For your lips, you'll take away the life that was given so easily

Now all becomes the entity of hate, shows you hate

Shows you light, shows you everything. everything

The fading light, a broken dream

You're everything, your everything

 

Kneel to the floor, get off your knees

Raise up to the light, you won't feel a thing

Inject the needle, inject the time

Kill all the light with forces of the night

 

Always a lost day, always a hopeless brain

Always everything, always force fed

Into your head, into head, into your life

Where you dream, that's where you go

 

That's how it lives, that's how you know pain

No choice, no life, no choice, no freedom

Just separation, segregation, the annihilation

Annihilation, annihilation, annihilation

 

After The Fall (Chelsea Wolfe) - From Bad To Worse

 

Nothing will keep us apart

I said nothing will keep us apart

I know that you'll find me there

 

I know that you'll find me

After the fall

I know that you're waiting

I know that you'll find me there

 

After the fall

I know that you're waiting

Ready to run

 

Chasing the sun

I can't wake up

Scream and run

Don't let them win

 

Nothing will keep us apart

 

I know that you'll find me

After the fall

I know that you're waiting

I know that you'll find me there

 

After the fall

I know that you're waiting

Ready to run

 

Chasing the sun

I can't wake up

Scream and run

Don't let them win

 

Nothing will keep us apart

 

Go on, drive into the morning

Never give up

Never give in

 

Lost Little Boys (Fatherson) - It Just Isn’t Working

 

[Verse 1]

It's a cold summers night

Are you beside me? I can't tell

I need your help

I need it honestly

I can't stand up right these days

But you owe me that

Yeah, you owe me that

 

[Chorus 1]

Cause we're just lost little boys

Making a name for ourselves

 

[Verse 2]

It's a cold summers night

Are you beside me, in good health?

I need your help

I need it honestly

I can't stand up right these days

But you owe me that

Yeah, you owe me that

 

[Chorus 2]

Cause we're just lost little boys

Making a name for ourselves

And we're just lost little boys

Making such fools of ourselves

 

[Bridge]

I'm not one for second chances, I'm just lost

If I'd stopped then I really would be giving up now

But I'm not one for second chances

I've never been one for second chances

And I'm not one for second chances

I've never been one for second chances

 

[Chorus 3]

Cause we're just lost little boys

Making a name for ourselves

And we're just lost litle boys

Making a name for ourselves

And we're just lost little boys

Making such fools of ourselves

 

God Bless The Child (Annie Lennox) - Taryn’s Choice

 

Them that's got shall have

Them that's not shall lose

So the Bible said and it still is news

Mama may have, Papa may have

But God bless the child that's got his own, that's got his own

 

Yes, the strong gets more

While the weak ones fade

Empty pockets don't ever make the grade

Mama may have, Papa may have

But God bless the child that's got his own, that's got his own

 

Money, you've got lots of friends

They're crowding around your door

But when you're gone and spending ends

They don't come no more

Rich relations give crust of bread and such

You can help yourself, but don't take too much

Mama may have, Papa may have

But God bless the child that's got his own, that's got his own

 

Money you've got lots of friends

They're crowding around your door

But when you're gone and spending ends

They don't come no more

Rich relations give crust of bread and such

You can help yourself, but don't take too much

Mama may have, Papa may have

But God bless the child that's got his own, that's got his own

 

Here just don't worry about nothing cause he's got his own

Yes, he's got his own

 

Abandoned (Antarctic Wastelands) - A Promise Never Kept

 

A cold adagio for the lost.

 

Age Of Consent (Arcade Fire) - Taryn Consents

 

Won't you please let me go

These words lie inside they hurt me so

And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you

Just what I want to do

I'm not the kind that needs to tell you

Just what you want me to

 

I saw you this morning

I thought that you might like to know

I received your message in full a few days ago

I understood every word that it said

And now that I've actually heard it

You're going to regret

 

And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you

Just what you want me to

You're not the kind that needs to tell me

About the birds and the bees

 

Do you find this happens all the time

Crucial point one day becomes a crime

And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you

Just what I want to do

I'm not the kind that needs to tell you

 

I've lost you [x5]

I've lost you [x5]

I've lost you [x5]

 

Darkness (Disturbed) - Taryn’s Last Day

 

Don't turn away

I pray you've heard

The words I've spoken

Dare to believe

Over one last time

Then I'll let the

 

Darkness cover me

Deny everything

Slowly walk away

To breathe again

On my own

 

Carry me away

I need your strength

To get me through this

Dare to believe

Over one last time

Then I'll let the

 

Darkness cover me

Deny everything

Slowly walk away

To breathe again

On my own

On my own

On my own

On my own

On my own

 

Dare to believe

Over one last time

Then I'll let the

 

Darkness cover me

Deny everything

Slowly walk away

To breathe again

On my own

On my own

 

When Love And Death Embrace (HIM) - Taryn: Gone From Daylight

 

I'm in love with you

And it's crushing my heart

All I want is you

To take me into your arms

When love and death embrace

 

I love you

And you're crushing my heart

I need you

Please take me into your arms

 

When love and death embrace

When love and death embrace

When love and death embrace

 

Oh oh ohhh

When love and death embrace

Oh oh when love and death embrace

 

Oh oh

When love and death embrace

 

When love and death

When love and death

When love and death embrace

 

Oh When love and death embrace

Oh When love and death embrace

Oh When love and death embrace

Oh When love and death embrace

 

Dark Shores (Stand Of Oaks) - The Anchor By The Lake

 

Minerals formed by the rain

Whispers echo deep inside the cave

On an ice moon where all our fathers’ live

We’ll go there to find some rest

I spent most of my life

Wandering in the wasted hours

I spent most of my life

Wandering in the wasted hours

Storm clouds gather around our heads

Black birds circle waiting to be fed

I’ll build a house on these dark shores

Past lives won’t bother anymore

They won’t find me here

(I spent most of my life, wandering in the wasted hours)

 

Forever Young (OneDirection) - A Light In The Darkness

 

Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while

Heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies

Hoping for the best but expecting the worst

Are you gonna drop the bomb or not?

 

Let us die young or let us live forever

We don't have the power but we never say never

Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip

The music's for the sad men

 

Can you imagine when this race is won

Turn our golden faces into the sun

Praising our leaders, we're getting in tune

The music's played by the mad men

 

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever?

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever? Forever young

 

Some are like water, some are like the heat

Some are a melody and some are the beat

Sooner or later, they all will be gone

Why don't they stay young?

 

It's so hard to get old without a cause

I don't want to perish like a fading horse

Youth's like diamonds in the sun

And diamonds are forever

 

So many adventures couldn't happen today

So many songs we forgot to play

So many dreams swinging out of the blue

We let them come true

 

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever?

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever?

 

Forever young, I want to be forever young

Do you really want to live forever?

 

Ocean Eyes (American Avenue) - Justin Time

 

(Reprise from ‘Gone From Daylight’)

 

Time For Us (André Rieu) - Love Found In The Darkness

 

Instrumental Reprise of Taryn and Justin’s Love Theme