50 minutes ago, MichaelS36 said:

I have written about living with depression as the partner of someone who suffers.  It is difficult and frustrating and often heartbreaking. I am glad you have someone like Kevin. 

Let me tell you, having to subdue your partner to get him to the hospital, is difficult.  I'm glad you haven't had to go through that. 

And lately, as tim has said, it has been much better. Much and we both deserve that but he does especially. 

Thanks for sharing Wayne. It's good to get it out there into the open. 

I'm glad that I have Kevin too.  He knows me very well.  He cares.  We fit.  It's just... it's just good.

I'm thrilled that tim's trials have become gentler.  I know that's not an accident.  I know it's due to work on his part, patience on yours, and good mental healthcare.

Thanks for your comment, Mike.

21 minutes ago, Fae Briona said:

Depression isn't for the weak.  😶  I've been in a down spot recently, and I'm sorry you're feeling down too; but I'm glad there is someone there for you.

Song that comes to mind:  Just Be by Paloma Faith - it's probably the most unromantic love song ever, but it's beautiful in it's reality.

     Let's get old together
     Let's be unhappy forever
     'Cause there's no one in this world
     That I'd rather be unhappy with

 

I totally get the sentiment.  I really do.

Sorry that you're down, Fae.  It's not fun.  It's definitely not for the weak.

Thanks for the comment, and I hope you get to see the sun soon.

thank you for writing this Wayne 
allowing yourself to admit that you're having a hard day, and are at the breaking point is hard. i struggle there, feeling like i always need to hold it together and be strong for everyone else
having people in your life, as you said above, is the key to allowing yourself to feel those feelings.  you need to feel safe in letting them out, in showing your weakness
i remember in therapy being told, if you can't do it a day at a time, take it an hour at a time, and just breathe 
thanks again Wayne, i'm glad you're here

 

4 minutes ago, mollyhousemouse said:

thank you for writing this Wayne 
allowing yourself to admit that you're having a hard day, and are at the breaking point is hard. i struggle there, feeling like i always need to hold it together and be strong for everyone else
having people in your life, as you said above, is the key to allowing yourself to feel those feelings.  you need to feel safe in letting them out, in showing your weakness
i remember in therapy being told, if you can't do it a day at a time, take it an hour at a time, and just breathe 
thanks again Wayne, i'm glad you're here

 

Thank you, molly.
I think there are a few of us here who are like that.  We're seen as competent and dependable.  We expect to always have the answer, to be the person people come to, and we just keep going no matter what.  We don't want to let anybody down, and in the process we forget to care for ourselves.  Then there comes the reckoning.  The moment we can't put off.  When iron bends, stone begins to crack, and we need help.

Well, we have people who love us.  We just have to let them.

You're welcome.  I'm glad I'm here too, and same to you, molly.

1 minute ago, Reader1810 said:

I second what @mollyhousemouse said. I’m glad you’re here, Wayne.  

Thank you, Reader.  Me too.  🙂

@Wayne Gray I glad your here as well. And @mollyhousemouse and @Reader1810 as well. I love the internet for just this reason where can all of us talk to each other and seem like family. So I know we all are struggling with problems and worries sometimes it just helps to put them out there and get a fresh point of view. I know in talking in DiC that I have a lot of great friends. 

We all reach that breaking point and we need someone or something to calm us down. 

So everyone I have talk to or share a problem thank you.

We've already talked about this and you know what I think and how I feel.  And as someone who appears high functioning even when I'm not (and I often don't know how to let that mask slip irl, even with the people I should, like my therapist and social workers and so on), I know that feeling of having to allow yourself to feel it, to break and to depend on others when you're usually the one who's dependable. One thing I'm grateful for is how I'm allowed to let the mask slip when I talk to you. I'm glad you have Kevin and his love to lift you up. Glad you can depend on him. You deserve that. You of all people truly deserve that.