So my mom just got here a little while ago. She's going to be staying until Wednesday, then going home for Thanksgiving (And I'll be going too Thursday morning). Anyway she's visiting for a little while, as a kinda vacation thing, and just to visit. It's quite nice and it should be fun. But I can't help thinking that perhaps now is when I ought to come out to her. I mean I never even considered it before last summer, when I actually got inspired enough to think I might actually be able to find a satisfying relationship. Before that I figured there was really no reason to mention it to her (or anyone really), since it's not like I'd be having this steady boyfriend to "hide". I mean if I were in a relationship, I know I'd want to share it with the people I care about....So now that I'm thinking I'm actually gonna take a shot at true love (just as a general idea, I still don't really have any potential people in mind), it seems logical that I should mention this to my closest people. Anyway, it also seems like a good idea to do it when we have alot of time and privacy, and this is really the first time that's come along, since I decided all this.....SOOO I guess I will.....maybe. I dunno, there's no reason to really be freaking out too much about this, I mean I KNOW she'll ultimately come to terms with it, and I doubt it'll ever cause a break in our relationship, even temporary. She's flat out said, parents should always support their kids, she even said this in the context of us discussing a gay friend I have whose parents didn't. So I mean it's not like I have to worry to much. But it is still a big step. And also while I think she'll handle it ok, she'll still have to deal with it, it'll still be awkward, and it'll still surprise her. And I also know she'll be disappointed about not having grandkids (even though I do plan to adopt, it'll still feel to her like she won't have them). Anyway besides all that, everything's going along nicely and I hate to rain on the parade so to speak. But rationally I know that I have to do this eventually since I intend to someday have both a boyfriend and my mom in my life, and really it'll probably be better now, BEFORE I actually find someone, that way she won't subconsciously blame him or anything. I don't feel the need to do this as some sort of opening up/bonding/being honest thing. I mean I am myself around her, ok I don't blurt out "wow, that guy's hot!" or anything, but really I wouldn't do that if it were "wow, that girl's hot!"...Basically I'm just not going to be that sexual around my family anyway, so I really don't feel like I'm hiding anything, I just want to sort this all out before complications arise. So I'm thinking I'll tell her tomorrow evening (if it feels like the right time, and I get up the nerve), that way we can have fun today and not worry about anything, then tomorrow and all day Tuesday we'll still have time to deal with this. Now Thrusday will probably feel odd, when I'm around my grandparents and her at the same time, it'll be like we've got a secret or something, but I'm sure that feeling will pass. Anyway wish me luck everyone, and I probably won't be on much for the next week (regardless of how this works out).....Also if I DON"T end up telling her at all, don't be surprised.