Little White Pill

[Jason Rimbaud]

Little White Pill

By: Jason R.

 

Little white pills I wish I never found you

Complete emptiness as the addiction grew

No matter the cost I

Edited October 18, 2007 by Jason R

[RJ Santos]

By the way, this piece was written over a year ago. I've learned a lot since then, this is not a cry for help. Just something I really liked and wanteed to share.

Phew! Glad to know that.

 

Rad

[Ieshwar]

Thanks for sharing.

 

It does look quite alarming. Well-written though!

 

Ieshwar

[ixyam]

This is a powerful and beautiful piece with a glint of hope in the beginning "Little white pills I wish I never found you" like a tenuous foot hold to permit a glimpse into the darkness. I am glad that you have found a way back and shared this with us all . Darn! now I'll have to look you up for more poetry

Ixyam

[AFriendlyFace]

A very moving and dark piece!

 

Actually, I didn't see much hope in it. Although obviously there was Hmm, perhaps some of the hope came from writing it?

[Jason Rimbaud]

A very moving and dark piece!

 

Actually, I didn't see much hope in it. Although obviously there was Hmm, perhaps some of the hope came from writing it?

 

Over the years, I've written in detail about my struggle with addiction. And sadly, most of these pieces were composed while I was completely out of my mind on cocaine, or worse. Looking back now, three months free from cocaine, I can see the love/hate relationship that existed. I loved using coke, yet in the middle of the high I was filled with such self-loathing that I would write such depressing pieces. Though the one above is written more about my Vicadin problems then cocaine, I think the principle is the same.

 

My recovery, such as it is, is helped by the re-reading of those poems that were written during that time. I don't want to feel the way I felt in these pieces. So i guess you could say that hope did come from writing it.

 

Jason R.