Ashi

Sometimes it's hard to understand you.... Are you like... saying like... I am old... and non-cute? OMG! I can't breathe anymore. Someone please..., bring me some sniffing salt before I faint.

I think that second swagger wears a Hello Kitty shirt....

So you still look younger than your age. Way to go. :-)

I get touchy when someone is touchy... without my permission. There was this once I was working on retail floor, and I greeted this guy I thought to be a customer, then he just grabbed me by the arm and told me "Oh dear, don't mind us. We're from the headquarter." I don't know which part shocked me more..., the fact he suddenly talked gay to me (he really doesn't look gay at first glance, more like your typical suburban dad) or the fact he grabbed me without warning. I freaked out and just walked away. I must acted so rude like, and I thought I saw him looked back at me, looking hurt. I hope he would realize I am just not a touch person, especially he was a stranger.... Though I'll take that as a compliment, that he probably thought of me friendly enough to touch me as if I were an old friend. Oh, how about March of the Penguins...? The critics said, "Epic." Erm, are you..., um...., please don't walk like that.... (*tries not to stare at Zombie's pants*)

Oh no.... (*hugs*) I mean a more positive differential treatment, not stupid prejudice. BTW, I read something you wrote in another thread, so I am confused. So do you date guys or gals? And does that make it hard to identify your sexuality? I mean I am confused, of course. It's probably not confusing to you. Cool. I remember I went to a lounge once with my cousins, and I kind of wanted the waitress to card me. LOL. I did look a lot younger than my age (I still look younger than my age, but the gap is drawing closer...). Then I realized I didn't bring my driver's license that day. I guess I was just very silly. I never get any service that's especially nice like that in a supermarket, so that's really special.

You peed or sharted? http://uncyclopedia.wikia.com/wiki/Shart (please don't shart while reading it)

Gemini and Aquarius are the two gayest signs. Period. I am surprised we don't have many here. I am also surprised you actually identify yourself gay, because most of them are "bi." ;-)

Oy! (*facepalm*)

I think the guy in the video is somewhat cute to get smacked in the face. And he is tall.... Tall guys are irresistible.... Where was I? Oh, and I mean if he were a sloppy dresser, you'd be very sure someone would call the security. I thought his wry smile at the beginning of the video was somewhat funny, though kinda fake....

Just out of curiosity. The other day I was at a supermarket, I think I immediately spotted one girl who was probably a lesbian (though my gaydar is very broken). I think the girl spotted me also, though I don't think it was that difficult. I was like wearing a lemony yellow T-shirt with "Viva Tequila" written on it, and a pair of Nantucket red cargo shorts. Basically I was just this short from flaming.... Don't know why I dressed up that way, but I guess I just felt like it. Anyways, she was doing stocking, then she dropped whatever she was working on to ask me if I needed help with anything, and then she followed up on me. Very personal service, which I don't think I'd get if I were just any guy in the supermarket. Then some time ago I was somewhat depressed and decided to treat myself with an expensive dinner (by myself, of course...). I couldn't help but thought the waitress who waited on me was a working as a drag queen at her other work place.... But anyways, I left her more tips than I usually give, especially she was so nice to me. Anyone got any similar experience? Do you like giving or receiving preferential treatment from LGBT community?

I think horoscopes are meant to be in-your-face offensive. You should take them as humorous advice and learn something from it, even if you just want to prove it wrong.

Thanks for sharing. Very touching story. I wanted to be an AIDS nurse..., then it didn't happen. I think that thought happened when I was watching Pedro, a pseudo docu-drama thing (don't know how you categorize that one). Well, I hope everyone who does it wears the rubber. Getting AIDS isn't something glorious. EDIT: Oh, and a nice break from your One Direction blogs.... ;-)

That's a very Virgo thing to say.... I'm a Taurean. Every horoscope always says we like money. Well, maybe we're very good with financial sense, but it doesn't mean we just love money for money's sake as per prescription here....

Cool. Happy Birthday.

Hurray. What doesn't kill you make you stronger. It's the appendix..., (or maybe it's the doctor).

To me, it's is plain wrong to be a home-wrecker. Though I must admit it isn't as clear cut as that. There will be time something leads one thing then another.... Maybe the guy/girl in the relationship didn't tell you of the previous engagement (then it'll be his/her fault). And after s/he told you (or you found it out) and you continue to go on, then it's your fault. Doesn't mean the relationship won't continue on, but I think you and him/her will know for sure it isn't the right thing to do, but sometimes it's hard to get out. I would say don't even get into it. I've had a coworker in a relationship like that, and I always felt his love interest wasn't completely honest with him, and the poor guy was deceiving himself.... It's sad, it's messy, someone will get hurt, it's tragic, but it's very real. It can happen to anyone. I just hope it won't happen to me. If you have a choice, don't choose to be in one. I think the matter of morality issue won't even come up if you were in it.... You'd be so blindly in love, it's sad to all other people who witness it....

I was just poking fun at jamessavik. He likes to make those kind of remark (what he really meant was, he doesn't like boy bands, but instead he said the parts I quoted), so I just thought oh well, I can play his game also. LOL! Kind of fun.

Would you rather listen to something that's aimed at 12 year-old boys? (*duck and cover*) Seriously, there should be boy bands for boys.... Come on, you know sometimes you want to listening to something for the brain-dead. You know you want it.... Stop resisting. And please no denture.... (*runs for his life*)

If C is for Chinese, what's C+?

You beat me to it..., to bring up the Beatles.... Though I like John Lennon. And to TetRefine..., please don't generalize.... Some of us old(er) farts listen to younger people's stuff also without prejudice.

I went back to college after years of wasted years.... And I must say there will always one or two older students there. I don't mean older as in like myself at thirty-something, as that's pretty normal in this economic condition, but I mean someone like this Saskatchewan man, maybe not as advanced in age as him, but definitely in their near retirement age, and looking for new skills and possibly new careers. Please do respect these people who went that hard and never give up. Sometimes I feel I am too old to learn new stuff myself, but imagine how hard it must be for them. Lots of anxiety when I decided to go back to school too..... Things like how people would see me, and I dressed much younger than my age.... Wait, that's how I usually dress myself. LOL!

Well, you're a beautiful person, because you have an empathetic mind. I don't think I'll be engaging in a thoughtful conversation with someone if I don't find the person would find it stimulating. Not everyone wants to make a sense or reconcile with the world they live in. By the way, I am a conservative.... Not your stereotypical conservative of course, and I agree with the saying you must have the a cold iron heart to be a conservative, and in some way I am like that, especially when it comes to decision that has no human factor. I think know when to believe in your brain or when to believe in your heart (or the right mix of the two) is a very important skill. Environment does affect people. I really think some people should wake up and realize we're all animals. We're still affected by the environment, more than they think. However, the degree it affect each individual varies. You can give a gun to two different people, and they'll use it differently. One might blame it's gun that leads him to violence, while another will never do anything bad about it. Education is a big factor also, of course. Okay, about this quote I wrote. "Too obsessed with that leads to disappointment and depression, possibly suicidal or homicidal." I think Flowers for Algernon was in my subconscious mind when I wrote it. A similar passage is in the book, from Progress Report 16 of the book: "Don't misunderstand me," I said. "intelligence is one of the greatest human gifts. But all too often a search for knowledge drives out the search for love. This is something else I've discovered for myself very recently. I present it to you as a hypothesis: Intelligence without the ability to give and receive affection leads to mental and moral breakdown, to neurosis, and possibly even psychosis. And I say that the mind absorbed in and involved in itself as a self-centered end, to the exclusion of human relationships, can only lead to violence and pain. I hope some conservatives (and some hypocritical liberals) would recognize the importance of love, to homosexuals, and will finally recognize the policy must to remake, even if they don't understand homosexuality, but as a compassion toward fellow human beings. Of course, we don't need human laws to tell us what is right. A much shorter reading you can do is Patricia Highsmith's Chorus Girl's Absolutely Final Performance. Probably a very appropriate literary answer to your hypothetical person's adjustment to the world, though Chorus Girl was an elephant, who was deprived from its native land and took from her mother to work in a circus, and one day she snapped. I'll let you do the reading. http://books.google.com/books?id=lAlLZfvRFiUC&pg=PA13&lpg=PA13&dq=chorus+girl%27s+absolutely+final+performance+highsmith&source=bl&ots=tjeBuVOuCB&sig=MsxX206qrauqgB1rxZUVUXUa4aM&hl=en&sa=X&ei=tv_QT8DeForg2AXShqi2Dw&ved=0CGMQ6AEwCA#v=onepage&q&f=false It's collected under the short story collection The Animal Lover's Book of Beastly Murder. Highsmith is best known for her The Talented Mr. Ripley. Language has a strong subconscious effect on behavior and what is considered societal norm. It's the basis of culture. Whenever someone speak the language, they're constantly reminded what is considered norm in the society, whether it be the word itself (Japanese verbs can take on conjugates with various degrees of politeness), or the connotation of the word (the word "ambition" in East Asian language has negative connotation, which is the antonym of "loyalty"). In standard English structure, it is subject-verb-object, same for most language around the world, as subject is the most important part of the sentence, at the beginning of the sentence. It tells you "who" is doing what. Japanese puts verb at the end (same as German), as that's the most important part of the sentence, at the end. Which literally shows it's a culture that value action over words. In American English, active voice is better, as it's stronger (a culture that values strength). In Japanese or most Asian language, passive voice is more polite and less confrontational. I personally find mix personal feeling with professional care is a bad mix. I've had teachers put too much feeling (usually young male teachers...), and they looked like they're about to break down and cry at the end of the semester.... Of course the person who teaches care, or why would they do it in the first place. I wanted to be a teacher myself, and from the experience I just talked about, I knew I had to separate personal feeling. There will always be some students you'll feel very attached to, but it's not going to be a healthy relationship if anything other than professional duty is involved. Same thing for medical career (among many things I had some training). You just can't cry whenever a patient "moved on" as you still have to take care other patients. As for it's the city culture that needs training, I somewhat agree with you. Though we cannot change the world, but even within the city, there are some heart-warming gestures. The world won't change overnight, but we can however, start being those warming souls (just not create global warming..., we don't need that! ). I see someone is putting his priority straight (or not so straight). Though I must agree with your later post, half-naked guys are pretty tempting.... I must resist. Yesterday I went to Target and found an employee there staring at me staring at a sign with half-naked guy on the shelf.... Very embarrassing. I wonder how Myself_I_Must_Remake's (what a long name...) hypothetical person will feel if he was brought to the city half-naked, and being stared at.... BTW, the half-million dollar question, is this hypothetical personal gay? LOL! Gay people must be taught some extra skills!

I didn't bring Original Tyler up through accident, though I made a joke about of it, saying I was off-tangent. Recently, he was like a flower, after years of struggle, finally bloomed. Me being older and went through the whole process he had gone through, literally cheered when I saw him pulling through. Not all flowers bloom. Some just die prematurely or become barren, if they couldn't quite adapt to the environment, but I am glad he did. Yeah, you're not alone in this one, but I'd rather see more people pulling through than just sort of gone but not quite dead. I guess you're smarter than me when I was your age, because I was probably too self-absorbed in my own problems, I didn't seek advice like you did, and I felt very alone in this. I think most of our posts (Percy's too) share a same theme: explore, and don't be afraid of making mistakes. Experience cannot be taught. Besides, I don't believe accelerate one's maturity is a blessing. Society often doesn't make sense. Just learn to accept it. The discrepancy between how things should be and how it is sometimes can be very big. Too obsessed with that leads to disappointment and depression, possibly suicidal or homicidal. Learn to do the right thing and believe in yourself, but when others don't play by the rule, ignore them. I don't know what happened to that cannibalistic porn star, or Columbine style killers, but I think there probably was something going on in their lives that didn't make sense to them and/or they felt marginalized, so they snapped. Just accept the world isn't always fair, don't be jealous of other people's success (or look down on oneself), and why good people rarely come out ahead. Think about some positive stuff in lives, as there are some. Like how much easier is to be gay and can be proud of yourself nowadays than even just ten years ago. I find that very hard to believe. You're still young, attractive, and smart (people think being smart and have good personality don't matter are idiots). I think you just haven't found the right one. Remember I mentioned confidence as one of the main skills in the previous post? Well, please act like it, and I think many guys will find you very attractive and beaten their path to get you. Do it quickly, please. Or I'll have to find some guy to marry you off. Once you get a boyfriend, I don't think you'd be spending time talking about issue like this. You and your boyfriend will help each other out on this and don't underestimate the power of love. What does that suppose to mean! I always try my best to help my fellow people out. Half-assed my ass! That is not part of my vocabulary. LOL!

I know, after I read the cannibal post, I immediately came over here..., only to have you beat me to it. LOL.

Denigrating.... Because it keeps popping up in my head, and I keep using it the wrong way. Gosh, it's so denigrating (see...).