I can relate to gray. My life revolves around making sure the people around me are happy. But I neglect my own happiness.
I'm 30 years old and work for myself but have nothing to show for it,
I spent years sacrificing everything to keep my customers happy just for them to abuse my good nature and drag me through the mud just so that I can clean up the messes they made
while holding me financially hostage just waiting to be thrown aside when something new and shiny comes along
and what am I left with, No friends, No social life, No love life (Something I have never had), Family far away in another country that I might see 3 times a year.
And spend my evenings reading stories on this site (which is the closest I have ever gotten to letting out my gay side) and wallowing in all the regrets and wondering where it all went wrong