Douw

This is a grate story and i can't wait to read more;~} I cant wait to see Dmitri act on his feeling!;~}

Thanks every one it means a lot to me;~}

I don't really know what to do so ill just babble here maybe ill feel better... It hurts so much... A lot has changed mustily i'm out now but that mite not be a good thing just like i feared my dad is a bigot... not to mention the rest of my family and that hurts like a b... especially when you have to look at them every day guess that is whey i hide everyday up in my little perch away from there nasty words and dirty looks... Oh i guess i forgot about the little talks... Yes those kind of talks... He reckons that he has right to now everything that happens in my life and i have no say what so ever also he reckons that any man that is ever interested in me he will beat up i may also not leave this house... I fight i do i try but i feel so defeated the few friends i have i never see they life just to far... When i see a couple happy in each others arms i cant help it my hart just brakes... Every day i look for something to fill my mind so i cant think of this so called life and every night i pray for a live a way to escape but come dawn all that is left is one more day in this hell they call paradise... I hate this and i don't know how long i can stand it God help me...

Frosty lol you look so cool!!!!!

Blush hehehe thank you guys! I have been working out a lot so will post more pix in a couple of weeks

This is me;~} So errrr what you think...?

Well thank you the review is much appreciated;~}

All i can say is wow... Beautiful story i loved every moment of it!

WOW Cia this was really good i loved it! If i have time ill read your other stories... Because you got me hooked now!

Hehehe thanks Frosty ;~}

lol yes it is weary short as i was righting it on the way home from the states on my iPod lol but will work on the flow of my stories thanks for the tip and reweave;~}

I'm tired and need sleep... And then fate just has to come into play...

With a huff I sit down in the seat that is way too small for a guy like me. How they expect me to squeeze into that I have no idea, if I'm lucky the seat next to me will be empty, but knowing my luck, the biggest prick on the planet will sit next to me taking the whole arm rest for himself, and snore all the way to the USA. Irrational? Maybe. No amount of rational thinking will change my mind, in itself an indication of my mood. My arms firmly planted on the arm rest, back strait, givi

Haha thanks Dark one;~} and thanks Cia I'll try and do that it means a lot to me... I'll try my best promis!

Hey bro i can see some underlining fear in there... A fear that lives in all of us at one time or another... Grate work bro I love it;~}

How things stand right now i see a lot of problems I need to fix or work on... First is my family how seem to think that i was born to serve them hand and foot... Needs to change now... Job is weary important to me for obvious reasons... To get out of wear i am i need to work... Drivers license also important to fix my problem of being stuck at the house... So to fix that or to free my self that need to re read the book and go stand in the q for 6h a gene and hope this time the wont fail me on one question... lol And work on my self-consciousness a lot hmmm that mite be the biggest challenge of the lot but we will see... Thank You every one how is my friend and gives a dam what is going on in my life it means a lot...

Thanks guys....

Shy... Right that is why i'm so flirty with my friends... guess that is also the reason i freez up when good looking guy talks to me or the reason i make a ass of my self talking to new people right... Nope not shy just stuped and sceard to death of rejection... yes i know stuped don't remind me grumble grumble But still it's there rearing a ugly head every time i talk to some nice guy or try at least choking on my own words like a little boy i don't know hoe it got there it's not always been there don't ask my way it's just there i hate that i choke on my own words before they leave my mouth but no matter what i do it just keeps on happening sigh Maybe it's whats going on at home my dad has been a ass uterly crule with his jokes just as my sister has been and still is but at least a long the way i made some frends witch help a lot yet at times it feels like i'm driving every one a way and i hate it i hate feeling like a ass i hate feeling like it's my fult that ipeople don't talk to me i hate feeling useliss i guess it's just me having a self worth complex moment idk... I don't even know if this will see the light of day i'm still debaiting wether or not to post it... I guess the only thing that is wrong is i'm lonly and i feel a little abandonde by people how should be here with me or me there with them and man i feel pethetic saying it but damming if i don't want a phone call every now and then or a hug.... ya i know it's bad book me a room at the not house sigh I guess even that is my fult it's not like i have not had the opertunaties to make more friend if i toulk my head out of my ass sooner i mite be better off... it's strange what a little curige can do no... Guess it dose not help me shying a way from contact all the time agen fearing to get outed or even p some one off ya i know crazy as can be sigh But i think mostly things are this bad becouse of my fears... And i know it's time to change if i want to be happy i just need a push in the right direction or more like a lot of pushes sigh any how if any one reads this i know i sound crazy and stuped... so be nice with the coments pleas and ya i guess that means i am posting this...

Lol Linxe all you had to do was ask... Hehehe

Awww... that was sweet of him... But i can't help feel like there is going to be hell to pay for it later... Loving it bro don't stop i'm addicted;~}

Blinking rapidly, I fix the picture playing in front of me; of Douw and Jimmy kissing.It can’t be. I’m going crazy. There is no way Douw is queer. I close my eyes and the cogs turn. What the am I going to do? How could I have missed it? He never showed signs of being a sick faggot. Shaking my head I turn away from the scene in front of me, my stomach knotted, clenching my fists, the taste of bile in my mouth and tears burning my eyes because I know what I have to do. No faggot will live under

Streaks of lightning shoot from dark clouds over the battle field as the Great Invaders approach the last free city and hail rains down upon the invaders as the Sky Witch appears. She is flanked by great armies of soldiers, followed by the Great Fire Birds that descend and ignite into flaming balls, scorching all in their path of destruction.

Chapter 3 JIMMY A bright red ball of flame touches the horizon; it steels my breathe away. A rumble in the distance distracts me as a cloud of dust appears on the hill making its way to the camp. A shock of white blond hair blowing in the wind catches my eye and a smile plays over my lips. I remember bright, green eyes and a smile to melt any heart. My own heart sighs. If only he was gay or even bi would be great. Why are all the hottest guys straight? I stare into oblivion as the memory en

Two tons of pissed off buff charge headlong at me. I am on my feet, gaping into her black eyes. Closer and closer she comes. Head down. Hooves beating on dry earth, creating a dust cloud in her wake. Everything is slow motion. It feels like it’s been an hour since she began charging. Boom! Boom! Danny fires, and fires again trying to stop death from reaching us. Boom! Boom! A quick succession of shots ring out as Mister Denials fires his double barrelled rifle. Splashes of dust appear on h

7 Years Prior….. “Let’s go Douw! Its morning and the hunters are in the Lapa, drinking coffee.” I wake up with a jolt. Oh shit. I overslept. ‘I’m up! I’m up!’ My brother in law, Danny, has a long smirk on his face. “You had better hurry up, otherwise even the bottomless coffee will run out.” “Ok, I’m up. I’ll be there in ten. Thanks bro.” It’s been a hard week of hunting with no rain. The veldt is dry and void of life. Except for the river which is our life line in the dry winter season.