Bumblebee

I don't like soccer nor do I follow anything about it.. But Iike watching women's soccer cause the women are quite hot

I regret throwing you away the first time, Can you forgive me, I was going through a good patch. But I need you now, and the panic of trying to find another, Hurt more than any pain you could cause me. I can see reflections in this one, Clean; sharp edges glint up at me. A thrill of pleasure tingles through me as I draw if down my body, Calming the reminders of my other flaws, I need to focus on my task at hand, Otherwise the pain won't feel as good. My thigh itches, Scream

Poem

Thanks for reading and reviewing Mark

Thanks for reading and reviewing my poem I appreciate you leaving feedback

I suck at reviewing but here I go anyways I don't normally like reading poetry that rhymes, but I like your poems, theres something about them that just speaks some truth to me about covering up depression/self harming. Everyone reads poetry differently and that is just what I read from it. I hope to read more from you, Bee

I've been trying to quit my job since Monday, but every time I go to see my boss he's either busy with lessons or I freeze up and start talking about something else. I need to leave, that I know for sure, the only problem is that my boss and my co-worker are going on a 7 month eastern/ new Zealand run on the 27th, and they won't be back until February. So I have to give my notice soon otherwise they will be in deep shit because there will be no one to work and look after the other horses back home. I know my boss enough to know that he will be pretty pissed that I want to leave, and he will probably try and make me feel guilty because of how close my leaving will be to when they go away. That is whats stopping me, I have to leave but I don't want to put them in a bad position. I also want to try not to burn any bridges with my relationships with our clients and my boss. I hate the position that I am in at the moment, and I've been trying to force myself to just talk to my boss, and even after talking to Karl and my Mum about what I should say and how I should approach him, I'm just scared of what he might say back.

I'm in the process of either canceling my apprenticeship or putting it on hold so I can get the assignments of it done with a person from the disability department. My dad has been harassing me as well, and every time he shows his stupid face it brings up every single horrible memory that I have of him, I want to kill him or myself and I'm afraid that I actually might one day, yet the thought of it doesn't scare me, it makes me feel relief that I could stop all my pain with just a flick of a knife. With my new medication I've been coming home shaking and crying after every shift. I just want to be left alone, just to hole up in my room and sleep and read and watch tv for a few months until I piece together some of my sanity and not feel so stressed all the time. I want to tell everyone my opinions about them, but I can't simply because I know it would hurt most of yours feelings, and that eats me up something shocking inside that I can't just out right say I hate you or no one gives a crap about your stupid petty issue or to stop assuming that everyone loves you. Mum yells at me when I do it in public, so I figured Myr would probably ban me from this site if I did. and to be honest I don't really care if anyone on here even likes me or not, but I would like it if everyone could not give me the hug emoticon, it irritates me from various reasons.

Omg you can play afl?

Happy Birthday Tom

I still find it quite funny that Americans and some Europeans whinge so much about the heat, cause like what you guys are having now is every single summer in Perth. Even though we are almost finished winter out dams are reaching to an all time low and we aren't getting as much rain as we normally do, so it'll be a worse summer here then previous years if we don't get the rain. Though I do understand that the heat gets to everyone, so stay cool!

There's something I want to ask, why do you guys "pray for people" I don't understand why? Why not just tell the person who your wanting to get better, to me it seems stupid to talk to yourself about wishing someone else good health or something.

I love this one called Water? Basically you have to get the water to the crocodile so he can have a bath. It's a kids game but it's actually quite hard as you get up the levels.

http://www.lestrology.com/ I read mine from here.. I'm a scorpio

I'd want to be a tortoise.

Happy Birthday Bob

Thanks for reviewing

Mark having an autism spectrum disorder is not an illness. its not something that can be cured, its not a disease or something that can be caught. In simple terms it means my brain is different then most people. And yes I find it extremely difficult to care or even think about anyone but myself. And being called a selfish heartless bitch in one way or another whenever I try to make friends with someone makes me really start to hate everyone. But I know its true, and no matter what I do I always eventually lose the few people who I have cared about. Its scary to realize that I can accept being alone if it means I don't hurt anyone else with my shit.

Ok guys a few things that I'm really confused about.. why is getting a diagnoses of clinical depression so bad? I don't understand that and I also don't understand why what hurts you hurts those that love you. I also don't understand everyone on heres fixation with hugging everyone. I personally don't like touching people so I don't really see why everyone puts a or hugs after everything or to say hello.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM!!!!!!!! :hug: :hug:

Happy Birthday Myr

Thanks Joe, been through it way to many times, I hate it when a horse I spend all my time looking after and loving and caring for and stressing over still gets sick or still hurts themself so badly that they cant be saved.

I've seen guys that I thought might be butch women.. I get pretty disappointed when I realise that its just a guy.. then I wonder if the guy is gay cause he looks like a butch woman.

[media=] [/media] listening to alot of adtr lately

a $400,000 3 year old colt got put down today after a freak accident yesterday. just about everyone who knew the horse teared up about it. really really shit day today. Glad your feeling better though Karl.