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Ok, so now I know what the sore spot is.....another dang tumor. I'm getting so sick of this. They're sure it's not cancerous, but they can't be 100% sure until it comes out on monday This is the third time I've had a tumor removed in less than 9 months. If you count the surgery on my leg, that's 4 surgeries in less than a year....wtf. Sometimes I wish I could just get hit by a car or struck by lightning and get it all over with. My dad's totally stressed out, and he hasn't slept in two days. I don't think he's going to get any sleep until he knows for sure that everythings ok, even though the doctor who's doing the surgery talked to us today and he was totally cool. He said he does this all the time and that there's nothing to worry about. He said that from the tests they've run they can pretty much say that I'm cancer free, and that I won't have to miss too much school or work. He said the incision is gonna be small and there might not even be a visible scar. So, when we got home today I demanded that he take me to work and stop trying to baby me. He wants to make me quit my job because he thinks I should be resting and he says I don't need a job. He doesn't let my cousin work but my cousin doesnt get good grades, so I can see why. Well, at least I'm off this weekend and I can catch up on the school work I've totally been blowing off when i should have been doing it since my friend Steven's been bringing it by for me. I guess the thing I've decided to do is to just stay positive. I can't let a few health problems mess me up. I still have things I need to do, and I'm totally behind on My Jump Off so I need to get moving right away. I think if I could stop worrying about my worry wart dad and stepmom and I could get Taylor to brighten up, I could concentrate more on what I want to get done before my surgery. Oh, well, wish me luck :king: :king:

Well, this might be serious, but I'm so used to it that I don't make a big deal out of it. I can run down a list of things I've had wrong with me and it would shock a lot of people.... 1. When I was a baby I was fed with a IV because I stopped eating when my mom passed 2. When I was 5 I was in the hospital for being under weight when we lived in Cali 3. When we lived in Cali when i was 8 I was in the hospital hooked up to different machines for a week because I was under wieght and my fever would drop 4. I had a cracked sternum and a broken arm at the same time when I fell off the top of the bleachers at school in 7th grade 5. I was in the hospital for a week while they ran test after test to find out why my blood pressure was going up and down so fast that my head was throbbing and I was fainting 6 I was in the hospital for 2 days while they ran test after test to be sure I didnt have cancer 7 I had a tumor removed from my throat and my nasal passage last October and I bled so bad that I had to stay overnight in the hospital. 8 I had a concussion when I was running to catch a football at school and as I was ready to pull it out of the air and into my arms, I ran into the goal post 9 I had a smaller tumor removed from my throat, right next to the one that was removed last october....that was done in the office though. I only listed the ones that I could think of right now. Theres way more than that though. Also, I know I shouldnt diet, and I havent been on one since September of last year. Actually, if anything, I feel like I can't get enough to eat sometimes. I'm always eating something when I'm home. I think my body just burns it faster. Of course, I think I could lose about 5 more pounds, but I'm not trying to.

awwww....I love you too, Snow Doggy Dog

Hey Anthony, I know it's not exactly healthy, but the only other thing I like from the cafeteria is cinimon rolls, and they only serve those in the morning. I eat pretty good when Im at home though. Everything we have is sugar free or organic. my folks buy lots of healthy crap. Also, I'm 5'6. We're getting ready to leave for Norfolk in a little bit and I'm getting kinda nervous, but not like my dad. He's all crazed...lol.

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I'm being patient but secretly I'm itching for chapter 12

Ok, so today has been the day from hell. I knew I had a doctors appointment. My dad made one for me last week because I have a real tender spot on my stomach, and it's getting bigger and worse. So today we go to the doctors and he presses on it real hard and I kinda yelped a little. Then he feels all around it to see how big it is, and I tell him that it's gotten bigger. Then he sits back and takes off his glasses and asks me about my appetite. I tell him that I'm eating ok, but my dad jumps in and says that I havent been eating good at all compared to how I normally eat. So, he tells me to be honest about what I usually eat at school, and I tell him that I eat fritos and a m&m cookie all day. So then he drops the big question......have i been on a diet lately....I tell him no, because I havent been, and he looked at me like I was lying. So, he asks if Im sure, and I promise him I havent been dieting. See, the last time I got really sick was when I went on a diet and didnt tell anyone about it. I ended up in the hospital for a few days because I only wieghed 87 pounds and I was supposed to be 110. Even after I got out of the hosptial, I had to drink these nasty shakes and my dad and my stepmom watched me to make sure I took them. When I went to school, the vice principal made sure I drank my shakes when it was time and that I ate some lunch. Of course, even if he hadnt, my friends were on my case about it too, so they woulda made me drink them. That was last year. So anyway, when the nurse weighed me when we were walking to the room where we waited for the doctor, I wieghed 102 pounds. That means I lost 11 pounds since my last appointment, when I was 113. The thing is, I'm hungry all the time, and I have been eating a lot. Lately, though, I haven't felt too good, and I guess I don't really think much about food. I eat when I go to work, and I always have dinner when I get home at night. I even eat dessert sometimes. Ok, back to the doctor. He tells me that he doesn't like the sore spot and sends me for some x-rays. Well, then we have to go downstairs and wait like 45 minutes for them to call us up. The whole time, my dads stressing out. He kept reaching for his cell but there was a big sign that said no cell phone use, so he had to put it away. Finally we get called back and here's where he totally embarrases me........the lady giving me the x-rays was telling me to face different directions, and when we were done, my dad was asking her why she didnt have me standing in all these other positions and kinda yelling at her that there was no way that they could see everything because they missed spots.. I wanted to die right there. So now that Im totally embarrased we go back upstairs and wait for someone to come back and talk to us about the xrays. They took us back and the doctor said that he wanted to send me to a specialist, so we had to go to Norfolk to Sentara for some stupid nuclear department they have. I had to lay down in the same loud machine they put me in last year and they rubbed red crap all over my chest and made me lay still. So anyway, we spent all day at the doctors office until 3 in the afternoon. I still made it home in time to get to work in time, but my dad was tripping out and talked to my supervisor when we got there. He told her that I might have to quit because he thinks it's too much stress on me. I was soooooo pissed. So now, instead of going to school tomorrow, I get to spend the day at CHKD in Norfolk while they make sure Im not dying or whatever(rolls eyes). I'm sure it's something gay and everyones just flipping out over nothing. I just hate it because it seems like I'm always having some kind of medical drama and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of the tumors, and I'm sick of the surgeries. I'm sick of seeing my dad and my stepmom stress out over crap like this, and I hate how it makes them fight. They're like the perfect couple, but they fight like crazy whenever stuff like this happens because they're too stressed out and won't calm down. My dad was so worried last night that he stayed up till like 2 in the morning. I could hear him in his office working. That's what he does when he's freaking out about something. He gets on his office pc and works. So when I get home from work, the first thing I notice is that my dad and my stepmom arent speaking. Great. I just want all of this to be over so we can get on with things.

yawns......I hope Dom's doing good.

Ok I went there but didnt see the entries....did I miss something??

Okay, so I learned something this weekend, and I don't think I was supposed to know what i found out. We went camping this weekend and we had a really good time. When it was late last night and my stepmom was asleep, me and my dad stayed up and kept the fire burning so we could visit with eachother. I guess I should stop here and tell everyone that until last week my dad had no idea that I came here and that I was writing. He got on my pc and figured it out. Anyway, he sent me a dumb pm with his gay sn that he made, but we talked about it before I saw it and it wasnt a big deal. So anyway, we were just talking last night and it was nice to spend some time alone with him. We talked about poetry, and I found out he had a published poem when he was little. He still remembered it, and if it went the way he told it to me, it was really good and soooo sad. It was about one of his only memory of my grandparents being married, and while we were talking about it, he told me a lot of stuff I never knew. Hearing some of it actually made me so mad at my grandpa and it made me think about my grandma differently. My dad said when he was little he lived with my grandma and my grandpa never paid child support like he was supposed to, so my grandma had to work two jobs while she was going to school and my dad said he could remember when he would eat dinner but she didn't because she woould go without food to make sure there was enough for him. I can't even believe that. I can't even imagine my grandpa, who I love sooo much, being that way. I dont even think I want to know what his reason was. Just the look on my dads face while he was talking about it made me feel angry. The idea that my dad, who does everything for anyone ever felt that way makes me angry. He said that my grandma used to sit in her room alone and cry when she thought he was asleep and he could hear her from his bedroom. Just knowing that my dad went through all of that stuff makes me understand some things, like why my aunt hates my grandpa. I guess she doesnt hate him, but she's mad at him for something and I think I know what it is now. I think I'm still mad about it, and even though it's my dad and my aunt who have to forgive him. I'm not sure if I forgive him. We're going to Florida to see him in two weeks, and I wonder how it's gonna go. I mean, I dont know if I can treat him the same now. I guess all I can do is wait to see. Wish me luck.

You have hair?????

Ok, but where does the goat fit in with all of this????????

The only solution to silence them is to make it against the law to protest at someones funeral. Otherwise, they have freedom of speech.

I think there was another appearence he made where Rory talked about having a conversasion with Jude, but it was really Jase he talked to......I'll look for it I think there was another appearence he made where Rory talked about having a conversasion with Jude, but it was really Jase he talked to......I'll look for it

Wait, not Quin.....it was Jude...my bad

Hey, those two were meant to be together :2hands:

Ok, just one answer to all the posts, because I don't wan't people to think that I'm against immigrants at all. The illegals come here and they get paid maybe half of what they should because they're taken advantage of by companies that know they can;t complain about labor standards and minimum wage. My creative learning teacher calls it legalized slavery. Also, I still say that being here illegally is a slap in the face to everyone who did it the right way.

Yeah, but Dom never actually says what year it is in his stories...maybe it was the 60's or 70's in those stories......don't you think it's kinda suspicious that NO ONE has the internet yet in Dom Luka's stories????? Hmmmmm, just a theory (I know, I think too much, probably because I just drank 2 redbulls)

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:pickaxe: :ranger: What me?? Obsessed???

Disclaimer This blog entry is in no way meant to be offensive or racist. I know that we're all decendants of immigrants. It's with that in mind that I write this entry ........ One of the biggest jokes I think I've ever seen is the so called Day Without Immigrants.....I mean, who cares?? In Los Angeles, they were expecting a million people to show up and at the first rally, it was only about 25% of that, and at the second rally, it was even less, and most of the people at the second rally were left over from the first one. Now, I know that 25% of a million is 250,000, but that's still a pretty gay turnout if you ask me. I mean, that's like less than a tenth of the whole population of LA. So, what's my point?? These people need to shut up and be glad they're here. There are hundreds of millions of people who came here legally, and this is a slap in the face to all of them. They didnt sneak in and then join gangs and demand to be made citizens. They didn't march in the streets and try boycotting stores and work and school and stuff. They came here and they worked, and they were happy to be here. They were happy to have the chance to build a good life for themselves and their families. They made it possible for everyone on this forum(unless you're a Native American or you live in another country) to have a better life because they sacraficed and came here the right way. It makes me sick to see these people demanding that we make them citizens....how about this....do it the right way. Anyway, I didn't notice that anything was different here in VA. Pretty much everoyne was at school today, and I didn't see anything on the news about people not coming to work, so I guess no one tried it here. Ok, so I'm gonna stop now. I went to the dentist today and had to go straight to work from there, so I'm tired and grouchy. I updated What's the difference yesterday, and I'll have My Jump Off updated by the end of the week......l8r Nick

Actually, they need to be put in a mental hospital for treatment......Fred Phelps just might be the Anti Christ

I love Brian Mc Knights voice...it's sooo sexy (sighs)