Marky babes, I've been bouncing between shrinks and meds for quite some time now. I finally have a GP who's willing to listen and work with me. She referred me for a course of CBT which much to my amazement has actually made a difference in my life. I'm more relaxed and more importantly happy with me for the first time in quite a while. But that only applies to me.
As for you fear of people, I think it's quite justified. Surprisingly if you were to meet me in real life you'd find I'm actually quite shy and introverted. It takes a long time for me to warm up to someone and begin to trust them. That's where snuggle comes in, he's a people person, he handles the situations that I would normally run away from.
Being on here helps me more than I ever thought, because it's one place that's mine, and it's helping me in real life to control my demon side. Writing is cathartic to me, it allows me to express some of the stuff that I've buried so far down in my psyche that I've nearly forgotten about it, maybe one day I'll lay it all on the table, but I think that day is so far away.
Anyways enough of my rumblings, go cuddle with Stuby, he's the best medicine for you.
Hugs Marky