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mmMMmmmm. Meow! Kitty LOVES! Where do I get a Tanner?

Taryn's references to the joys of seeing the dawn come are very poignant. 💖

Because there are only two other things the Internet is good for in looking up things. One of them is GA. The other is what inspires some GA stories.

WANT!

Jon. Jon was his name. Not 'John' but Jon. It might have been short for Jonathan, but that was never made clear to me. I can't say that I was madly in love with Jon. At first we were just a couple of misfit toys that found each other in school. It was handy that he lived just down the hill from me. We were both Star Wars fanatics and so we had many a space adventure together. In our short time together we went from best friends/brothers to being 'interested' in each other as our bodies began having those kinds of feelings. Nothing ever got that serious. One time it almost did in my back yard under the chinese elm tree, but my preternatually psychic mother called us in before we could go much further than grinding through clothing. Even though she couldn't see anything she knew something was going on though nothing of that nature had ever happened before. We were only 11 and 12 at the time so neither of us knew what we were doing or why. To this day I am haunted by that day. Wondering what could have become of us if we had continued. Probably a lot of drama and misery because later we were 'broken up' in an agreement between his parents and mine. Jon was going in a direction I couldn't go. He was starting to sniff around drugs and trouble. Shoplifting things. I think the end of it really came when Jon pulled his dad's gun out and started playing with it around me. This scared me. Also, he started playing with fire . . . literally. That was my mom's reasons anyway. I have a feeling that Jon's dad's reasons were for something far less 'parental'. He sensed something was growing between his son and me that went beyond mere friendship. Jon was broken hearted and I was too though I turned very cold toward him. I had to. I was ordered to. I . . . always followed orders. My mom was my Emperor and I was her Darth Vader slave. I also knew that Jon scared me. My feelings for him I couldn't understand and his bizarre and dangerous behavior was very disturbing. During Jr. High I lost track of Jon. He tried many times to entice me back into his new world of Heavy Metal, Drugs, and a 'close' friend who, strangely, was another blonde boy (highly unusual in my school being that I went to a minority school). But, by that time I'd made new friends and one, in particular, was trying to catch my eye. His name was Jose ('JOEseph'). That relationship too would die before it ever got anywhere, much to my lasting sadness. I was a 'good' boy then and had recognized through the vicious browbeating of others that what I was was called. 'Gay'. To be Gay, for me then, was to be 'wrong'. A pervert and mortal sinner (I was very religious then. A devout Catholic). It also meant certain death because AIDS had just risen to full power. That was all the proof I needed that God hated homosexuality. It was a preview of Judgement Day. It was the First Tribulation. So, when JOEseph (Jose) wanted to make that move on me at the sleepover when I was fourteen, I ran away from him, terrified and yet longing for that touch I could NEVER have! Because I WANTED Jose. I wanted him very much. But, to have him meant all manner of troubles for me, not the leasewise was eternal damnation. I became a pariah after that. Jose was very popular and the correct rumours about what I was only gained strength through his influence. A lover scorned can be a terrible thing. Then High School came . . . but my Billy Chase never did. I wait for him still.

I, for one, am very thankful for the both of you. You have both supported me and my works since you got here. A small thing, perhaps, but one I'm very appreciative of.

Thanks @Uncle Bob

You are more than welcome! I thought we could all use something . . . up.

Yeah. There's an old saying I've always liked: "God created pussycats so that we could pet tigers."

I wish they didn't want to eat me sometimes. I love tigers so much!

IT'S TOO CUTE! I'M ABOUT TO HAVE A DIABETIC FIT!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!

It will be interesting to see if they can get the Dark Phoenix story right for this next X-Men. They completely mauled it in the 3rd X-Crap movie. Dark Phoenix was what initially got me into being a completely addicted slave to X-Men forever after. It was just such a beautifully sculpted shakespearean comic book tragedy! "Scott!" "Jean!" ~cries~

"I like old technology! I love classics!" ~ the boy will be a future Antiques Roadshow expert. Oh and HUSH YER HOLE! I'm older than you are dammit!

Thanks for the update, Comsie. As of this morning Irma has been downgraded to a Tropical Storm last I heard. Still very messy but not a Cat 4 cataclysm like before. Regardless, be careful, Fearless Leader. Yeah, I think the most 'fun' I've ever had was the 7.0 Earthquake we had back a few years ago. It felt like I was suddenly on a bucking bronco while sitting in my easy-chair. Fun times.

Trevor's found a pretty new toy to play with!

I've been laughing my butt of at this for a couple of days. These two cute dudes are soooo totally clueless, particularly the teenaged older brother. OMG! HAHAHAHA!

When I saw Bryan Singer's loving treatment of the X-Men in that first movie I felt like I'd come full circle. I always dreamed that I'd see a live action X-Men movie that was worthy of the stories I was reading. He pulled it off with the first movie and I felt fourteen all over again! I was an 80s kid too. For me it was Arcade Summers, Role-Playing Game Afternoons, and New Comic Saturdays! Occasionally, I'd get to go see a cool movie or two along the way. My first 'boyfriend' (JOE-seph/Jose) was a role-playing pal of mine. That role-playing stuff was priming me to be a writer because for years after playing those things I'd come up with these scenarios and stories that I'd just have to jot down in a notebook or somewhere. Anyways, I remember reading the Infinity Gauntlet miniseries Marvel put out in the early 90s and was totally blown away by the theatrical presentation of that story. It was a storyboard already. Even now, 46 years old, I can't wait to see how the Avengers Crew manages to put that epic to screen! It looks like I"m in for being a 14-19 year old again! Hehehehe! I always thought DC was corney except for Batman, but this new gritty series of stories is taking the 'Superfriends' vibe out of the DC heroes. These movies for DC are truly epic! I LOOOOOOOVED Wonder Woman!!! I watched it with my Mom's spirit sitting right next to me in the theatre. She was a WW Fan from waaaaay back. I can't wait to see Justice League. It looks like a ride in a half! ~fist bumps~ Let's roll a 20+ all cats arcade summer for the next couple of summers and pretend that all our aches and pains, wrinkles and gray hairs are gone and we're wide eyed, innocent yet horny fourteen year olds in the theater again waiting for Indiana Jones to start!!!

It makes me feel better about my insecurities about my writing when my Guild Master gets the same exact feelings writing these things as I do. If a touching scene doesn't make me cry then I've not done my job. But, boy . . . it leaves me emotionally exhausted almost all the time! I just finished GFD up to the point you left off and I feel like I've just gotten off of a roller coaster! I can't wait to see your next jewel, Mr. Jeweler!

See, this doesn't bother me too much because I just went and saw the 40th Anniversary release of Close Encounters of the Third Kind. Now we know what Richard Dryfuss was up to on board the Mother Ship!

Um . . . how close are you to the Florida Keys? Don't mess with this stuff, Lovemuffin! Hurricanes are NO fun! I've only experienced a glancing blow by one (yes San Diego does get some wild weather sometimes despite the press) and that was uckfing SCARE-eee! BE CAREFUL! I've survived El Niños, tornadoes, wildfires, earthquakes, Sacramento, AND the City Council. So I know how sssspooky these things can be!

I've been doing similar things with my Brandon Smiling story and with Comsie's Billy Chase story. There was a recent sex scene in that story that was just juicy. What's cool is I've been finding some unknown artists who come up with some of the best music for stuff like this. This one is by Trevor Something who is a Retro Wave artist that calls back a lot of the early 80s vibe with a modern sensibility. This song is so uckfing hawwt!

Thank you very much.

Brilliant, Comsie! Brilliant and harrowing. "Walking Diseases" that's what my poor abused and murdered literary character Christopher called such men as 'Chuck'. May Chuck come to the same fate as Christopher's murderer only at Vampire hands rather than a detective's bullet! 😡