Sorry to hear about all the stress. When doors close, others open.
I guess all I can say is keep your mind and yourself open to any options that make sense, and don't be willing to settle for something less than what will move you forward toward your goals. You may have to change your whole idea of what it is you want to do in life, in order to do what you need to do, and that is to be successful.
If you give up and settle for working in a 7-11, then all those years in school did you no good. Go after what you want and need, it will not come looking for you.
I spent 25 years making airplanes fly, with two major airlines, and the military. The job was my major goal, the money was secondary. When the jobs dried up, then reappeared at less money, my secondary goal became my primary one as it should have been all along. I now work for myself, I'm not doing what I love, but I'm doing what I need to do.........make money.
I guess all I'm trying to say is don't handcuff yourself to one thing, then throw the key away.
Sometimes a little 80 prof alignment fluid helps to get things back into perspective.
Hope the hangover wasn't bad.
Best wishes to you and Silven.
Ex.