Jeff Burton

I ended up talking to Doctor Marsh about that prescription, and instead of just one, she gave me two. One was meant to take the edge off, the other to help me sleep. I didn’t like the idea of taking pills—it felt like I was cheating my way out. And honestly, I didn’t trust myself with them. The only reason I agreed was because everyone—my mom, Elijah, even Dr. Marsh—kept gently pushing me to at least give it a try. Just to see if it made things better. To see if it could give me a break fro

Since we're sharing this is my current one. I've got quite a few that are tagged to memories that cause me pain in one form or another. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MXvthgkZ2yQ&ab_channel=FailureBand

If anyone who reads this has never had to deal with a real narcissist. Count yourselves lucky. And I'm not talking about someone who just gaslights you all the time, I'm talking about the real hard core deal that uses those tendrils to remove your ability to resist. Those are the most soulless, the most dangerous. Those are the ones who spark fear years after the fact when things are finally good again. You might be able to be free of them physically, but you can never truly be free again.

This last 2 weeks have been nuts. I need a nap. After a small purchase on Amazon and a delivery that got delayed because it got lost, found then lost again I upgraded my janky setup with a wifi extender that could reach where I needed it to reach because my old ass wasn't about to dig a trench and lay CAT 5/6 cable from where I'm living to the main hub. It works and it's faster than what I had before so that's all that matters. I can finally log into google drive without the "attempting to maintain a friggen connection to google's servers because whatever your using for internet seems to be bouncing off the Mars Global Surveyor which is causing this to take a while." I need a drink. A nap, a belly scratch and possibly a hooker.

Damn time for awkward brotherly bonding. A conversation would be good, no idea how either would take such a thing though.

My internet hasn't been very friendly lately, I had to order something off Amazon in order to sort of fix it temporarily because honestly, I don't feel like digging then burying a cable if I don't have too. Right now I've got the tin toil array pointed at just the right angle to bounce a signal probably off a government satellite so we'll see how it works for the rest of the day and if I can actually get any chapter updates done.

I know lol, packing, moving, unpacking, fixing a roof, on top of normal work life is ugh. I’m gonna try to force some time in this week if possible I need the break from real life stuff.

It’s coming the last 2 chapters are a beast though I may have to add one more to the mix. The last week and a half have been busy.

You do that and I’m going to pop out of a mirror and ….

I may be mystical and all powerful sometimes but I doubt I can claim the guardians of the timelines as “tasty with sauce” lol.

Ahem 😂

Oh 303 is so tempting.

Thanks to @wildone for pushing me over the edge. 😂

I’ve probably dropped more hints about my past in comments all over this site and it’s the most I’ve probably told anyone at this point, I just keep it to myself. A couple of people have gotten more in various DM’s for a multitude of reasons usually something they wrote that made me want to share but yeah, generally I’m pretty private with that stuff in the real world. Theres still some stuff I’m working on making peace with through writing and I’ve got more coming I’m just actually writing it first instead of just posting it some of it needs thought behind it.

Isn’t that the truth. I screwed up a bunch of stuff due to the ignorance of youth lol