Yeah I got lucky in that aspect my old man kicked the bucket before he found out and if he had I knew he would have thrown me out on my ass too.
I don’t think it would have lasted forever though, my dad wasn’t the type to hold a grudge forever, I believe it in my heart eventually he would have gotten over it because he would have missed me, but it would have been a long estranged road to get there, it still would have been a better experience to what actually happened later though.
One thing I didn’t have was friends. It was just me, I think if I had, had that emotional support I would have faired better, at least then the demons wouldn’t have been pushing into my chest so hard.