Blue Dhalia

I am beyond happy to inform you 😊 I think I have actually found him!! His name is Levi and he is crazy about me!! We are about to celebrate our first year anniversary! And he's already said that he intends to marry me because it would "bring him the highest joy he could ever imagine being worthy of in this world!" Direct quote from him. I really appreciate both of you... Not just for your wonderful stories.. but also for being so understanding and kind to me... I'm really not used to it.. but I appreciate it more than I could ever express. I humbly thank you both so very much.❤️❤️❤️

I really like this one so far!! Please keep going! You definitely already have me hooked 😉😁

I really love how honest you make your characters.. like, they're most innermost monologue is always very direct honest and unapologetic. I've seen so many authors lose my interest just from the characters lying to themselves. Lying to others.. sure.. and debating your feelings.. okay.. but straight up lying to themselves? Interest is soon gone. I'm really enjoying this so far. Thanks for suggesting it 😁

WOW! This was so heartbreakingly beautiful. I'm not ashamed to admit I am still crying right now! Thank you.. you have no clue why.. but thank you.

WOW! I'll definitely be checking out more

Please give me more to read soon 🙏 I'm chomping at the bit right now!!!

You did a truly amazing job with this chapter! Suicide is a very difficult subject to write about.. because you can easily go too far in either direction. You kept it honest and kept it from being too focused in sadness. Just honest reaction and emotions. Very well done.

Excellent chapter!! Beginning to end.

I really enjoyed this chapter.. had some rough spots and I'm a little shocked Brandon was able to keep his composure when that walking hemorrhoid insulted Billy. If anyone spoke that way about my man.. he'd be picking up his shattered teeth with broken fingers! I especially liked the next morning.. it was just a really warm happy morning scene.

I just love seeing everything through Brandon's eyes! Very glad you decided to do this! Thank you 😊

This was quite possibly the most important chapter I have read in any story!! That part of Chandler talking to Brandon was written so beautifully!! I only wish I could have had someone talk to me about everything like that. I was unfortunately completely alone during those times. I think you may have outdone Com on that particular section.. well done man.. seriously.. well done!

Now I completely understand why Jamie is so cool with people being gay... He doesn't even flinch. Because he has a kick-ass big brother that is! Awesome chapter!! I always love seeing a bully go down.

If SOME people would pay more attention to the actual points that the author is trying to convey instead of just taking everything at full literal face value and just sit there judging every single word so harshly.. they might actually enjoy the story a lot more! Not all of the things that Billy is doing are supposed to be taken literally.. some are hidden moral messages. You might want to stop bothering to read if all you can do is throw criticism. And btw, ALL gay people are different.. some are promiscuous.. some are very innocent.. this story actually depicts many different types. Watch how you speak towards US gay boys.. especially if you aren't one! Sorry.. but that highly offends me. I thought this was a great chapter.. shame the comments were so unfairly unpleasant.

I don't think Jimmy's being a hypocrite in this.. he's not trying to defend himself or any of A.J's partners in this. He's trying to save Billy from becoming another A.J. because he's making sure he understands that he is the anti-A.J... he's completely understanding where Billy is coming from.. but he's telling him that no matter how bad he feels no matter how lonely he feels.. that everyone is still there.. loving and practically worshipping him for the amazing person he REALLY is. And hinting to him that ALL of the other boys (out or hiding) need him to be his true self.. as their reason to hold on to hope.. and not have an "accident" like Jimmy did. He's telling Billy that HE'S the reason that he and other boys are able to survive without giving up and ending their lives! Even with the more evil predators.. the sexual kinds like A.J that prey on your heart and emotions.. or the violent ones like the ones going after Stevie that prey on your fear and security. I think Billy should have paid more attention to his words.. he would have realized that Jimmy was VERY correct on everything he was saying! As far as as Sam.. I understood what he was saying too. He wasn't saying he wanted Billy to be his whore or anything.. he was saying that he in fact DIDN'T want that.. he loves Billy.. but was disgusted by Billy acting like a whore the last time. He was technically saying a similar thing as Jimmy.. trying to get Billy to stay true to his nature and stay the wonderful person that everyone loves! Idk.. maybe I just pay more attention to detail in this story.. I've never really been that into the sexual parts as much as the true emotions. Reading this has truly opened my eyes to look at my past in many different ways. I've related to most of the characters in different small amounts throughout.. I was the scared little boy who couldn't understand why I was gay.. but terrified of getting found out. I was the boy who tried to kill myself (17 different times).. I was the boy who was used by people for sex and to "fix" the people who never tried to help in return. I was also the boy who was always watching the prettiest boy in school.. but, he never say me... Instead he saw another pretty boy.. a boy who made him miserable.. but, he never let me save him.. he never chose me. I love this story.. it's sometimes very painful.. but it's amazingly accurate to how life is when you're young and gay. I just wish this could become a movie.. or even better.. a series!

It's a fictional story man.. calm down.. it will be ok.

Billy is definitely getting much better... As funny as it sounds.. I'm proud of him.

I adore this one! Billy's experience with little Mikey is beyond precious!! And it's definitely had a permanent effect on his future thoughts on love.

Jamie seems to be a really special type of person.. I really appreciate how he is. I've got a couple of straight friends that he reminds me of. Not too many things more important to a young gay boy than a beautiful (inside and out) tough straight guy having your back without any judgment.

I wish that was my dad... Or even my mom. My parents were the "fire and brimstone" parents. I came out in the back of a cop car after a suicide attempt to try to keep them from finding out.. they were so nice and supportive... Then took me out of town to a different church to have the gay exorcised out of me. Great childhood and even better after! I wanted to die daily because of how they treated me. But, at least now I'm stronger from it. Wonderful story!!

And I'm already foaming at the mouth for the next chapter!! So PLEASE hurry!!!!!

I'm just hoping that nothing too sad (like violence) happens to anyone at the party... Unless AJ gets shot by Jimmy and then he and Bobby leave the party together as an item as Ian and Lee become an item... That way.. all the shitty people can get together.. and the great people can be together as well! I'm hoping more than anything that Brandon and Billy will be solidified as fully unstoppable couple.. and that Sam will finally be able to move on from his ex and meet an amazing girl at the party! Mostly I'm hoping that everything turns out wonderful at the party and that no one does or gets hospitalized (unless it's AJ).. and if there must be drama.. that it will only be minor.. and not something as brutal as all the other parties. For God's sake.. we need this one to be amazing for Billy, Brandon, Ian, Sam and a few others!! PLEASE COM!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

Some people are just garbage! They just don't deserve to be loved or even paid any attention!! I'm really glad that Billy and Brandon had that moment of true honesty.. I mean.. it sucks that the whole thing happened to Brandon.. please don't misunderstand.. I just love that both of them got out something that was eating at them and worrying them a lot.. and all they got in return was love and understanding.. that's how it should be in a true relationship! Thanks for another good one

I hate how you keep getting me all excited and then yo yo the hell out of my emotions! I still can't get enough of this story!!

First, I'll discuss the less awesome part.. Greg and Brandon probably know each other from Brandon's church.. or maybe his parents or friends. If there was something going on between the two of them it wouldn't have been such an honest out in the open situation. Now the awesome part... OMG OMG OMG!!!!! IM SO EXCITED ABOUT THE CUTE LUNCH DATE AND THE DECISION TO GO TO THE PARTY AS A COUPLE!!!!!! THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!

Ok.. so, I don't believe Brandon is doing anything with Stevie.. he definitely isn't the cheating type, especially since he was cheated on in his first relationship. Most people who have been cheated on by someone they really loved.. will never cheat on someone they love. Mostly because they know exactly how it feels. And, Brandon is a very smart boy.. he's not going to be tricked into cheating. As far as Robin goes.. I'm hoping he's just trying to make up with Billy. It could be something involving AJ.. so what if it is? Billy isn't going to be stupid and end up doing anything involving that piece of garbage. Great chapter... I'm so glad he and his mom are getting better.