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I vented a bit in my poetry today, I haven't done something like this since I was a kid. http://www.gayauthor...amitryingtobe/1 I had a very long day at work with really great ups and really bad downs. I just don't know anymore what I am and what I want to be anymore. I am feeling confused over my life; I don't know where I fit anymore. Being gay isn't the only question people get about their lives, I also have a lot doubts about what I am doing and my work. I try to be a decent human being, but it's so hard to maintain decency and civility, when faced with people that hold neither in the face of their own lives and ego. I've grown up a lot in the last few years, but I've just realized how much people haven't.

Just me venting frustrations, laugh if you guys want.

What Am I Trying To Be? By W.L. Am I a man of honor? Yes Am I a man of honesty? Yes Am I a man of humility? Yes But, What Am I? Today, I cannot see the place from where I came Today, I cannot hear the words from here I stand Today, I cannot taste the hope from there I go Am I a believer? Yes Am I a Thinker? Yes Am I a dreamer? Yes But, What Am I? Yesterday, I wanted to save everyone Yesterday, I wanted to be mean to no one Yesterday, I wanted to care about more t

Well, I just updated my profile image to give readers a few puppy dog eyes I thought the image was cute and since I have been using Garfield for so long, I might as well move up on the old animal chain before I actually reach man.

@PrivateTim: Anthony Bourdain is well respected for his taste, rather than his cooking talent. People expect critics to be jerks with a soul for their field. (Although, I do concede and wonder how his excessive cigarette habit has affected his taste buds, but hey, he's the only man on TV right now who is not promoting health consciousness or paying lip service to the idea that he doesn't believe in. I give him tons of credits for being honest.) As for Gordon Ramsey, I like Kitchen Nightmares more than Hell's Kitchen, both the US and UK versions. According to other chefs, he's supposedly more real in these shows to who he is in life rather than Hell's Kitchen reality TV hypes of his brash personality. @Mark92: What do you grow and breed? Are you a year round farmer or just seasonal? I don't have much of a green thumb, but I enjoy the fresh produce at a farmer's market (and the lower prices than the supermarkets in volume ). Do you grow your own feed or do you buy it for your animals? Does feed really make different in the end on how the meat actually taste or need to be prepared?

Hey I'm a Gaymer too Glad to see credit being given to gamers, I was also part of the network that joined together PS3 and computer to do complex computing for another biochemical folding simulation experiment. I think it's called Folding@home As for gamers being homophobes, it's just part of the culture, especially in MMO's. People aren't really homophobic. A lot of gay boys like to play with joysticks in and outside of their personal lives, too

So no one else wants me to explore the strange, sexy, and frightening worlds of my imagination Thanks for all the positive feedback and giving me the energy to write again.

Thanks, you recognize most of my story elements As for who won the final battle, Sebastian or his double. If you really want to know send me a Private mail, I'll even tell you the hints I left in the story

I also am a big Latin person, too. I love how you incorporated the pettiness of the Gods and Goddesses and formed something that could easily have been a nice play in the times of Sophocles. This story was a fun reading.

Please keep it going, the story has a lot of rich background and I just love puppies

I know, we both probably were drinking from the same glass of absinthe No one knows if Sebastian won or not, it is open to interpretation. I actually did leave everyone clues in the epilogue and story on Sebastian's final fate. Piece them together and you will get your answer.

Very rich details Cia, I love lupines (more than Vampires, a lot manlier for my taste ) (A point that is a little nitpick for me, the back story about magic and creatures was used well, but it seemed like there was a plot hole concerning the Hultans being gone long ago, so how would younger lupes know them when they see them like in the last few pages after the lightning scene. It's a minor plot hole to be honest, if Stelian told his pack stories about them.) The story was written well and you developed the characters with a quality of a good fantasy universe in the midst of creation. I agree with comic, you should continue.

Would you want to face your doppelganger and see how you compare I hope you enjoyed the story and took in the reflections.

Thanks and I hope you enjoyed your ride as you disembark the story

The college focus of the story was different approach than I usually write in my stories. I've met a few real Big men on campus (been sexually attracted to a couple, too) and their drunken sluts, who actually do behave like that in club. As for the nerdy kid with an introverted personality due to issues of his past, I mean that's the key to the story. I've known a few gay guys who have been haunted by their past like that. Consider this tale, a reflection on me and my perception of people as well.

Wow, I think we channeled each other telepathically in our stories. Roommates from hell are fun to write about, especially if their names are Sebastian The Incubus trick was cool and I love how you used the code word in your story to craft out the twist.

It's a simple and beautiful story concerning life and time. I see great promise in your thoughts and imagery that will only build through time if you persist in writing and never give up on dreams. As for your story, we are all finite creatures reaching out to the infinity that universal possibilities offer us, but we may never travel all the roads of infinity in reality. However, the end of the possibilities give purpose to life and meaning to love. That is what I take away from the story and it is also what I believe in as well.

Glad to see it now up and open for everyone: https://www.gayauthors.org/story/w-l/reflection/1 Enjoy the reading, I also added a writer's commentary in my blog for the story, so you guys know why and what thoughts came up during my writing. For horror readers, I hope that I at least gave you a taste of my kind of horror; psychological and knowledge based story. For people looking for a tantalizingly sexual tale, it's my first foray into blending psych-horror, tell me what you guys liked and hated.

Your welcome ! hehe, you should really try a nice deep dish that is not made by UNO's. Layers of cheese, sauce, vegetables, and meats all going on top of each other with a traditional crust that is tasy.

I mean I look at something and I remember a connection between point A to point B, but people seem to not notice it until you start pointing it out to them. One thing I noticed about people who have a really bad cognitive reasoning, they also have a very deep dislike of history. History to them is just words and stuff that happens without reference or meaning. I wonder if there's a link? On some other notes, I am branching out with my own private tax and business consulting business in addition to my day job. It has always been my dream to build companies and create a living legacy around me. Call it a God complex, or a Sim City complex, because I was addicted to that game as a kid. I just want to help people build up and shore up their businesses. Is it really complicated to get certain forms filled out for incorporation? Nope The complicated part is actually in designing the structures for a corporate entity; different structures have different rules and tax statuses. That is where creation and building comes in to play, which is something I love to do. It's almost like a work of art. On something not so boring, I am forming an idea for the extra long 75K word story. Genres in my head are: Science Fiction, Horror, Thriller, and Adventure.

Fat is good, you will be covered in fat one day Chase. As for man v. food, I heard that he actually works out like five hours every day if he isn't filming in a city or something. @James, I had me a Po-Boy when I was in New Orleans, it was the soft shell crab. Holy Shit! It was so good. I also had some alligator gumbo, when I was down there, we only have just plain rice, chicken, sausage, and roue (the roue sucks) up north at our Tex Mex places. Crawfish is one of those things I eat deep fried, I like steamed seafood , but I just prefer it fried. And finally to the trendy SoHo guy, (I haven't been there in a years, not my thing really): Every time I hear Chianti, I keep getting Anthony Hopkin's line in my head "with Fava Beans....hiss" As for Pizza, I am set to two settings, thin crust that is crispy or deep dish that you got to handle with care. I don't get why New Yorker get so hyped over the Deep Dish Pizza issue, you can eat it with your hands just be careful with it?

We live in troubled times, but it is through mankind's darkest hours that we find ourselves and our humanity. Everyone who went back inside those buildings will always be remembered as heroes. As Abraham Lincoln had said in the Gettysburg Address: "The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here."

It seems a bit odd to me that out of our thousands of discussion threads on GA, there's very rarely any talk about food or dining. I mean, I know a couple of you guys like me watch shows like Hell's Kitchen, Iron Chef, and Top Chef along with an assortment of Food Network shows in the past. So why have we never discussed food and dining? For example, was anyone surprised with the results of season 8's Top Chef (FYI, Top Chef is my favorite Reality TV show and Richard Blais deserved it, but I wished Dale L did not have to leave so soon; he was my favorite gay chef. Angelo is way too flashy for my taste ) ? Is Food Netowrk really going down hill with their programs? (I hate their new batch of TV shows) Is Anthony Bourdain really the God of Travel and eating? (I think so, but you may disagree, seriously the man is a genius.) Or something simpler like local eats, I personally hated the service of Harvard Square's Harvest Restaurant, why the heck should I eat there when the better tasting sea food of Legal Seafood is only a block away at the same price? Anyone want to try out their tastes?

I remember the day. The first news came in gym class as one of the coaches was muttering about the news of a plane hitting one of the world trade centers, but most people did not really care. We were teenagers thinking about our own lives. it was kind of strange to hear it happen through our English teacher's radio, no one knew he actually kept an old one around. The world felt like it stood still when the news reached our class of the second plane and others being the in air; it was up to 4 or 5 at one point. Afterward, none of us really spoke a word and the hallways were silent. It was the silence that I remember, more than anything from that day.

Happy Birthday Conner! Here's a three line Poem as a gift, sorry it's not gift wrapped: Remember the years that have passed Hope for the happy years to come Live the year that you have now