x Trevor x

Lol well I've been doing several new things. I've been doing that online roleplay if you know what that is. Well it's not the dirty thing! Lol it's basically where you create a character and interact with others in chat rooms to make a story but...well lets just say nothing ever went my way so I decided to come back to this. I have all control over what happens when I write all the characters so xD The new story is actually going to be like a biography. The main character is going to be telling his story on a video tape with flash back sequences kind of like they do in the movies. As far as my old account goes you can remove it because I dont remember my information lol but dont remove it if it's gonna take my stories off! I want my stories to stay lol.

I just wanted to let everyone know that I've returned! I had to get a new account though because it's been so long I didnt remember any of my information and I had deleted my old email so....yeah I've been trying several new things but I feel it's time I got back to my stories and already have an idea in mind so chapter 1 to my new story should come very soon.

Thanks guys I really appreciate the support and knew I could get it here. -Hugs for everyone- I've been like ultra sensitive today and a bit moody to the extreme and so I'm all tearing up and smileing right now after reading all of this. I really appreciate it

I guess this is the right place to post this I dont know. Well anyway everythings been going really great till tonight when I was hanging out with some friends online. I felt really ignored to be honest and then I was talking to another friend via boost mobile and everytime I beeped her she sounded annoyed and would hardly talk to me and usually she beeps me but I've had to be the one to beep her all night and I just feel like I'm unwanted and like I'm annoying all my friends. No one even said anything to me when I suddenly just left the chat as if they dont care. I didnt do anything intentionally I really didnt. I just feel so unwanted and felt like they were trying to get rid of me or shut me out. And now I see one of my friends actually my best and closest online friend has went to another chat room and didnt even invite me and she usually does. I just feel like I want to dissappear. I just need someone to vent to.

I never really looked at it that way...wow you got my brain working right now lol. I do aggree with everything you have said and...maybe my post sounded a bit more simple and a little bit to sugar coated. I think really to be honest after thinking about it depends on the person. Some people who endure all kinds of pain like that can take that anger and turn it into strength...some could misuse the anger and some could be so emotionally weak that they feel helpless. It all depends on the person really and there strengths and weaknesses. I know at times I could be really emotionally weak and back in my high school days I was really emotionally torn and messed up but looking back on it now it doesnt seem so bad and makes me wish I had been stronger back then like I am now (Which isnt very much I'm still extremely shy! Lol but it's some progress!) so maybe I was posting to much from my life expierence than everyone elses because no situation is ever the same but thanks for bringing this side to my attention. Awe thanks! ((((((Hugs)))))

Lol okay lets have some confessions. Who voted on the last answer? (Raises hand)

All of those places are to far away! Come on y'all need to come to Raleigh!

Hi everyone! Okay I see many different topics here and I'm going to put my views and oppinions out there. First off...what does gay mean to me? Well to me it means your different. (Dont beat me up! Lol!) It means your special and in a good way. When I was in high school I had a really tough time. I mean by then I knew I was gay and accepted it and was okay with it right then and there atleast to myself. What really bothered me was the lonliness. I had two friends that I could vent to and that helped a bit but I was lonely for not having love and affection and basically I didnt have a relationship and thats what bothered me. But now looking back on it I appreciate every pain I was put through and I know that sounds weird but think of it...how boring would high school be if you werent gay? I mean you would live the normal teenage life parties, talking about people, going to class but when your gay...to me it's as if you grow up faster. Your watching everyone around you be immature kids who just worry about what there going to wear or when there going to go shopping but you...your dealing with the real stuff and I think that prepares you for when adult hood really comes and makes you more mature. Also I think it makes you alot more understanding of people and it would make you a good shoulder to cry on a good comforting Theres also a downside to it aswell though when I said you grow up alot faster I mean that. To me personally I feel because of that I never got the full expierence of just being a kid and now as a young adult when I have problems and things I often get depressed and just want to become a kid again where all I had to do was have fun and play. Anyway generally to me being gay means being different but in a special way which is good but also has a few downers. As for the gaydar subject and facial structure I dont really think you can tell someones sexuality like that. I think you can tell more by body structure. To me a small and feminine boy would most likely be suspected of being gay before a strong muscular guy would but then again you could always be wrong. That femme boy might be straight and muscle guy might be gay! Lol I'm very feminine myself and people could always tell I was gay and teased me about it alot but I would never own up to it. I felt it was better to let them suspect than to actually know at the time.

The ending! You got me craving to know what happens and I hope Veronica doesnt die because shes totally awesome! Anyway good chapter and evil EVIL ending! Keep the chapters rolling! ((Hugs))

The story is very good so far and I cant wait to see Brandon's reaction! Lol I already have my first suspect whos gonna cause problems for our band but I could be wrong just gotta wait and see!

Thanks for the compliment James! (((Hugs)))

Thanks Drewbie I appreciate the compliment

Thanks for the comment lmao I never seen myself as a celebrity look alike but I guess I do look like eminem and yeah I'm pretty thin. I weighed like 105 in that pic but since then I've gained to 110 last I checked

Cool

Wow I must be the oddball. Everyones tastes are different then mine lmao.

Mandy Moore does sing beautifully and that song just..well its the type of song to me that really pulls at your emotions. Well onto my next favorite songs! Stevie B - Dreaming Of Love I don't know, what happened to the love we shared Don't go, sometimes I think its just not fair I know, the pain I feel inside my heart I wish I'd known it from the start That you would come and break my heart I can't hold back these tears in my eyes The feeling of pain inside me cause... I'm dreaming of love, thinking of you Remembering times that we once shared Dreaming of love, thinking of you And knowing someday you'll come back to my life... I try to love, but it just don't feel the same Our love was once in a lifetime I'll take the blame God above, hear my prayer Bring her back to me I wish I'd known it from the start That you would come and break my heart I can't hold back these tears in my eyes The feeling of pain inside me cause... I, I'm dreaming of I, I'm dreaming of I, I'm dreaming of I, I'm dreaming of I, I'm dreaming of I'm dreaming of love... I don't know, why did you leave me all alone Our love was once in a lifetime I'll take the blame Now I know, the love I feel inside my heart I wish I'd known it from the start That you would come and break my heart I can't hold back these tears in my eyes The feeling of pain inside me cause... I'm dreaming of love, thinking of you Remembering times that we once shared Dreaming of love, thinking of you And knowing someday you'll come back to my life... Super Chick - Stand in the rain She never slows down. She doesn't know why but she knows that when she's all alone, feels like its all coming down She won't turn around The shadows are long and she fears if she cries that first tear, the tears will not stop raining down [CHORUS] So stand in the rain Stand your ground Stand up when it's all crashing down You stand through the pain You won't drown And one day, whats lost can be found You stand in the rain She won't make a sound Alone in this fight with herself and the fears whispering if she stands she'll fall down She wants to be found The only way out is through everything she's running from wants to give up and lie down. [CHORUS] So stand in the rain Stand your ground [stand In The Rain lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com] Stand up when it's all crashing down You stand through the pain You won't drown And one day, whats lost can be found You stand in the rain So stand in the rain Stand your ground Stand up when it's all crashing down Stand through the pain You won't drown And one day, whats lost can be found [CHORUS] So stand in the rain Stand your ground Stand up when it's all crashing down You stand through the pain You won't drown And one day, whats lost can be found You stand in the rain

I have definetly got to say I hate Eric. At first I didnt think he was to bad and was actually a fun character to read about but what he did with the website thing was low and when he left Steve and Chris to burn at the stake was low to. To be honest I wished that they had left Eric up there but then that would have only brought our boys to his level! As for his escape through the tunnels he could have made it out of the church without Thaddeous knowing and then by the time Chris and Steve got into the church he could have been gone. I just hope Eric gets cought before the story ends!

This is definetly a weird question lmao yes it would be incest. Seeing as the two men are clones then the two boys would also be clones in a way the only difference would be their looks due to having seperate mothers. Now what you could do is turn it into a mystery of some sorts. Say the clone had plastic surgery to look like the man therefore the sons are in no relation and that would work if you want it to be non incest and also the mystery of clones motive would be very interesting and different

There's a song that's inside of my soul It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again I'm awake in the infinite cold But You sing to me over and over and over again So I lay my head back down And I lift my hands and pray to be only Yours I pray to be only Yours I know now you're my only hope Sing to me the song of the stars Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again When it feels like my dreams are so far Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again So I lay my head back down And I lift my hands and pray To be only yours I pray to be only yours I know now you're my only hope I give You my destiny I'm giving You all of me I want Your symphony Singing in all that I am At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back So I lay my head back down And I lift my hands and pray To be only yours I pray to be only yours I pray to be only yours I know now you're my only hope The song was sung by Mandy Moore and Switchfoot and both versions are very beautiful but Switchfoot is the original writer.

I have to say that I have many celebrity crushes! I couldnt decide which was my best so I'm a celebrity crush whore! Jesse Bradford being my first! Hes yummy in Swimfan! Shane west was so sexy and adorable in "A Walk To Remember" I wish I was Mandy! Shes one lucky B*tch! Then theres Jesse Metcalfe from passions. OMG his body! (Faints)

I actually liked the teletubbies when I was a kid lmao the baby that was inside the sun was adorable in my oppinion. I wonder what message that sent out? I mean a baby inside the...sun? Does anyone think thats suggesting that playing with fire is okay? Actually now that I think back on it as a kid I remember hearing about the gay suggestion towards the show on the news. I didnt even know what gay ment but for some reason I was extreamly offended by the comments on the news. I guess in my subconcious I knew I was gay before I even really realized it at 14 lmao!

Well I really dont know. All I know is that its not a choice like most christians claim it to be.

I would definatly suggest going with an Emachines. I've had this one for two years my bf gave it to me and hes had it longer then that and it works great. You can go to circut city thats where this one came from and get one right at a thousand well aleast a desktop I am not sure how much an Emachines lap top will cost. It comes with a wordpad program thats pretty good and free but if you feel you need to purchase one then go ahead. Hope you have some luck!

I wouldnt mind comming up with some ideas for your writers but I wont require payment just seeing my ideas on tv is enough! Lol I will say this though dont make it anything like Passions even though I adore the show and love it to death it isnt high at all on the rateings what many complain about is that it takes months for one complete day on passions so definatly keep the speed up and dont drag things out to much

Yeah okay heres my little story me and my bf had gone out to eat some sea food right? okay well he didnt eat all of his so he got a carry out plate to take the rest to his mom which was at the trailer park helping my bfs brother clean the place up cause he just bought the whole park to be a land lord. Well this is the part that really REALLY PISSED me off! We pulled up and I was in the passenger seat and kevin got out and his stupid ass brother came up and pointed in the windshield right at me and told my bf that I better not ever come back on that property again! It pissed me the f**** off! I havent even talked to him he doesnt even know me we havent spoken one word to eachother ever not one and hes gonna do that? what the f*** he scared of? Does he think I am gonna hit on him? Come on I am dateing his brother for christ sakes and its a faithful relationship! Even if i were single I wouldnt hit on anyone whos gonna break a mirror just by looking at it! I was so angry I wanted to hurt him so bad I wanted to jump in the driver seat and run him over I wanted to burn his trailer park down and smash the windows out and just god I was angry! Why the hell do people have to be like that?!