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Poetry posted in this category are works of fiction. Names, places, characters, events, and incidents are created by the authors' imaginations or are used fictitiously. Any resemblances to actual persons (living or dead), organizations, companies, events, or locales are entirely coincidental.
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My Twentieth Year - 11. wherewithal

Poem No. 27

 

In the mist, I think I can faintly see

a vision that perhaps is of me,

but since I know myself not at all,

in mystery it lies with my wherewithal.

 

 

Poem No. 28

 

Loneliness' song is slow but sweet,

its voice, ever-constant, eternal –

Through the history of Man, its beat

pulls us to ourselves most fraternal.

 

 

Poem No. 29

 

The night the poems died

it happened all once

everything just shriveled up inside

all of it, at once.

 

It wasn’t as painful

as one would think

but then, I've forgotten that pitiful

can lead you to the brink.

 

I wasn't prepared to face the truth

I'd rather lie and make believe

and with my soul strike a truce,

but, that I can't, I want to believe.

 

Malingerant coward that am I

to hope I could cower and die

what a sick and pain-filled lie

because all I can do, is sigh.

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I especially like the first poem. It reminds us to look inside. There are things there we don't recognize sometimes. It's especially surprising how others can know us better than we do. The poem really brought that idea to life for me. Thanks Adi!

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In the last poem, "it wasn't as painful as you might think" led me to wonder if it weren't even worse...but the numbness left behind when the poetry dies...
And in the second, what you write about loneliness is so true. And to myself am I even fraternal? I wonder.

 

I will be thinking on these for a long time, I expect.

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On 03/16/2016 02:44 AM, Cole Matthews said:

I especially like the first poem. It reminds us to look inside. There are things there we don't recognize sometimes. It's especially surprising how others can know us better than we do. The poem really brought that idea to life for me. Thanks Adi!

Thank you, Cole, for your support! I love your comments and personal connection with the poem mentioned. It still somewhat amazes me that these very isolated strands of verse, written by a very unhappy and scared young man, can connect with people. Thanks again!

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On 03/16/2016 01:10 PM, Parker Owens said:

In the last poem, "it wasn't as painful as you might think" led me to wonder if it weren't even worse...but the numbness left behind when the poetry dies...

And in the second, what you write about loneliness is so true. And to myself am I even fraternal? I wonder.

 

I will be thinking on these for a long time, I expect.

Your comments bowl me over, Parker. Thank you. Although it's rare for me to remember such detail…I do believe the 'as painful as you might think' poem was written just after one of the Ross Poems. I was despairing that I'd never tell him how I truly felt, and what I had written was unworthy of his eyes anyway. Here it is:

 

To forget of you

will be my hell.

 

When I can't recall

what you mean to me

 

To be deprived

of your memory

 

Not to remember

that once I knew

 

what the sublime was

just to think of you.

 

To forget of you

will be my hell

 

for that I can say

without you, it will be the same.

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I loved these AC. Right now though I'm finding it hard to do more than that. All three are beautfiul and show more of the young man you were.
But you're work does touch me... it's me that cant articulate how very well. And I wanted to write something to show you I read them and loved them.
tim xo

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On 03/18/2016 07:17 AM, Mikiesboy said:

I loved these AC. Right now though I'm finding it hard to do more than that. All three are beautfiul and show more of the young man you were.

But you're work does touch me... it's me that cant articulate how very well. And I wanted to write something to show you I read them and loved them.

tim xo

Thank you, Tim, for a great review. Knowing that they move you is absolutely the highest compliment you can give me. I appreciate your input and love hearing anything you may have to say about my work. :)

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