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Poem Collection - MythOfHappiness - 20. For the best
When it hurts you’ll know it’s the right thing
We’re laying next to each other
The curtains are drawn
My stomach aches
You say those words
“I don’t think you love me”
For once, it's hard to lie
In the shadow of the midday sun
The truth comes out
And I agree
Maybe I don’t.
You are shocked.
You don’t believe me.
How could I say something so mean?
How could I hurt you like this?
How could I?
My insides burn
And I cry
For you, for me
For whatever the hell this was
And so do you
You try and stay with me
You try and make me stay
But I push you, and I push you.
I don’t love you
Or so I say
Eventually you go home.
And I ache.
I ache and I tell myself it’s for the best
And I go to work
And I don’t think about you
And then I’m home again
And I’m alone
I want to call you
But it’s for the best
So I don’t
I miss you
But that’s not the same as loving you
I crave you
But that’s not enough
Not enough to make up for what I’ve done to you
I don’t see you for a week
Or maybe a month
I can’t tell anymore
You text me
You want to see me
“No, I don’t think that’s a good idea”
“Please?”
“No”
You’re crying again
“Please…”
When I see you you’re smiling
And holding a dozen roses
Like it’s a fucking movie
And you love me so much
And I’m mad at you
We go someplace
You buy me breakfast
I eat, but I don’t taste it
You tell me how much you miss me
You tell me how sorry you are.
You think it’s your fault.
I tell you it’s not,
You don’t listen
You don’t understand
It was always me
You give in
“Ok. I won’t give up, but ok.”
You say
You take me home
You walk me to my door
“Can I come in?”
I don’t think that’s a good idea
You don’t care
You walk in anyway
I tell you to leave
You walk up to me
You wrap your arms around me
I try and push you off
You kiss my neck
“No”
You press your mouth to mine
And I melt
I try and push you off
But I can’t, something doesn’t want to
And I press you into the wall
You’re kissing me
And I’m kissing back now
My hand slips into the waistband of your jeans
And I squeeze your warm skin
And press my body into yours
It feels good
It feels right
But it’s not
I’m hurting you, even now
If I let this continue
You grab my belt and unbuckle it
Your hand reaches for me
And I push you away
“No. This isn’t right”
And I've made you cry again
Fuck. I hurt you.
Just like I knew I would.
I straighten myself and I make you leave
When you are gone I miss you
I regret everything
But it’s for the best.
It’s for the best.
I tell myself
Over and over
It’s for the best.
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