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Poem Collection - MythOfHappiness - 22. there's a light under my skin
There’s a light under my skin.
It’s silver and green, constantly brighter.
Will I burst? Can I survive?
If it splits me open running red and green and silver
over my gray sheets in my gray room
where our love was made or we fucked raw.
My teeth sinking into the pillow from pain or pleasure
frustration boiling into rage
I tear at you with teeth and claw.
I’m silver ice, beautiful, untouchable.
You’re green, verdant, overflowing life.
Swirling together they make me sick.
Alone, I lay, in gray
awash with light inside
it spills from my eyes;
will I survive?
To upset our careful balance a violent act
safer to whisper passionate lies.
Risk is a question long pondered
over cigarettes after foolish choices already made -
safety second to the will of our dicks.
Safety now consumes my thoughts
confused with comfort or survival
is a chance for greater worth the loss?
Light swirls, my stomach rolls
your key turns in the lock
choice unmade leaves my veins in knots.
You enter the room where I wait
naked for you, glowing pearlescent in the moonlight
words hang unsaid; the air too thick.
A kiss or a curse
could break silence/open wounds
to bleed would be relief.
A turning mind/a blinding light
a question unasked and unanswered
words caught by my teeth.
I’d shatter you/I’d swallow me
two selves subsumed by love
(unless I move too quick).
Is there value in loss?
Innocent lust turned to something more or
a whispered truth becomes a slamming door -
if I asked you to stay would that scare you away
or are you just waiting for me to say something first?
So scared to tell me you want the same your
heart could burst
keeping separate in your mind what’s false or true
caught in loops round and round you think -
will I survive without you?
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