He was wearing Blue; and it sparkled not because of the colour, but because it was HIM. Have you ever seen a guy who just draws your eye, and holds your attention like a vice? Where it's almost painful to turn away? David. His name was David, and he was my first for many things. the first guy I felt that "spark" with. The first guy I kissed. The First guy I Made love to. And the First guy to break my heart.

I only mention it because of what day it is - today is the only day I allow myself to think like this. To know why this matters, you have to know me... and none of you yet do... I don't remember birthdays, anniversaries or special occasions. But today is seared into my mind because of him. The 25th of April - literally a walk in the park experience. And for me it was the little things that lead up to it - catching each other stealing glances, knowing smiles, shyly turning away.

And then behind the tree, and he kissed me with such force... but at the same time incredibly tender... a memory so seared into my soul that I can smell him, taste him even now.

Today is a happy day... and a painful day because of what went after, and because of the lost words I can no longer say to him.

Thank you David, for setting me free