Today, my guy is telling his family about "us". He's text me a few times and it sounds as if they are happy for him - all good news for me. It makes me wish so much that i had someone i could tell. The fact is that I want to cry from the rooftops that i'm in love with my beautiful man, but my situation makes that difficult for the moment.

Of course, I have this blog as an outlet - you guys always listen to me, provide feedback and advice. But its not the same.

I use the blog as a sort of therapy to work thorugh my issues. Of course, my man always reads what i write too and so when i express myself here - he says it helps him understand me better.

I guess we are all at differing stages in our "gay" development.... for instance, while the first time i was intimate with a man was over 10 years ago.... there are plenty of 18 year olds who are further on than I am. I guess that after 10 years... im still not comfortable in my skin - but now I have my guy... I'm getting there...

West